The wind had died down as I walked down the steps off the porch and onto the sidewalk. The weather was unusually warm for a December evening, causing me to ditch my jacket and equip my vest. The sounds echoing from my boots on the pavement alerted my presence to strangers to let them know a person was along the way. In the low-lit streets in front of my house, the world became more surreal, calling up long ago memories that propelled me to remember the words of wisdom that Anubis had spoken to me. "Entropy affects all things differently."
Touching the tree in front of my house, it became more solid under my hands. In my mind eye's I saw it's chemical makeup and how it was connected to the soil beneath it which was made up of similar atoms, yet had an entirely different purpose. I examined the area around me and my mind took off, examining everything before me through it's chemical makeup. The electricity racing through the power lines, the grass and flowers that relied on photosynthesis to develop, the materials that made up the walls of people's homes and apartments. At that moment, the world seemed more real to me than in my usual day-to-day occurrence.
Yet, in becoming aware of this portion of reality, emotions had arisen that embraced me with a sharp cold knife. Past memories filled with loneliness and despair crept forward, whispering to me the sweet bliss of the waters of Nun, that cold sea where time was lost and life was a swirl of color and dream.
Bidding these memories farewell, I continued my walk and found myself glancing at the bar the next block over. The notion of violence happening more frequently at night crossed my mind and I thought to myself, "Wow, people could commit murder and get away with it if they knew what they were doing." Fear came over me just than, and my perception became normal. I blinked in confusion , as my mind came to realize that I had knocked myself out of my altered state.
Seeking to rectify this matter, I searched my phone for ambient music to help me concentrate. I had begun to walk back to my house. Letting myself be taken away by the music, I stepped back into that state of mind. Everything seemed solid again, more real. I took a look around me, feeling the gentle wind that brought with it ashen leaves, and seeing the moon light dark paths for creatures who live in the night, whether human, animal, or insect.
Giving thanks to the gods for a lesson learned, I walked back into my apartment and than to sleep.