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Ive had many many visitatiopns from him over the course of 13 years, and he has persued me for 13 years!! and finally I have accepted the invitation into his church!! I was only 23 when I first met him.
Christian portray him to be under there feet. Repulsive, Dirty, Scum!! This is NOT!!! TRUE!!! He is arrogant but its beautiful to me!! hes confident knows who he is. He was never mean, and never hurt me. He only befriended me and we developed a relationship over time!! he is very neat and clean cut. Very confident!! More powerful than Christians said he was!! and I know that to be fact!! He is serious, very serious!! and DEADLY!! DANGERIOUS!! VIOLENT!! ...But never towards me. He became my firend. I confided in him,, Poured my heart to him..we never had a conversation, he would only ask me questions, that made me question so many things in life. Questions that made me think deeply.. Disturbing questions I must say.
He doesnt burn everybody!! those who are his he takes care of and they have a special place and purpose in the afterlife!! this is fact and i cannot explain. Sometimes I get revelations through a knowing. He is not what Christians and society make him to be. He is a GOD!!! he is our GOD!! and he takes care of those who belong to him!! He is faithful!! He is true to his word.
He will stick with you and will not abandon his people!! We all have a purpose in his kingdom!! he rewards those who seek him! He is respectful to those who respect him sincerely!! he gives what you give!! if you give much, much will will be given! I dont make alot of money and I put alot in my craft!! I am rewared!! blessings come to me!! When I have no money, my needs are met!! and I know he is meeting them and providing.
My life can be a series of books!! This man became apart of my life!! and at first I didnt want him!! but when I got to know him, and he opened my eyes!! He was so beautiful to me!! If you are a santanist!! or a worshipper of satan!! you have been chosen, like me!! Embrace the dark side!! BE respectful!! Be honest with him!! be neked in front of him! its ok to be vunerable with him!! You have been chosen by him!! Seek your purpose!! seek him intensely and you will be rewarded!! I know this to be true!! Im living what I am saying!!! and I really wanted to share that!!
Ive had many many visitatiopns from him over the course of 13 years, and he has persued me for 13 years!! and finally I have accepted the invitation into his church!! I was only 23 when I first met him.
Christian portray him to be under there feet. Repulsive, Dirty, Scum!! This is NOT!!! TRUE!!! He is arrogant but its beautiful to me!! hes confident knows who he is. He was never mean, and never hurt me. He only befriended me and we developed a relationship over time!! he is very neat and clean cut. Very confident!! More powerful than Christians said he was!! and I know that to be fact!! He is serious, very serious!! and DEADLY!! DANGERIOUS!! VIOLENT!! ...But never towards me. He became my firend. I confided in him,, Poured my heart to him..we never had a conversation, he would only ask me questions, that made me question so many things in life. Questions that made me think deeply.. Disturbing questions I must say.
He doesnt burn everybody!! those who are his he takes care of and they have a special place and purpose in the afterlife!! this is fact and i cannot explain. Sometimes I get revelations through a knowing. He is not what Christians and society make him to be. He is a GOD!!! he is our GOD!! and he takes care of those who belong to him!! He is faithful!! He is true to his word.
He will stick with you and will not abandon his people!! We all have a purpose in his kingdom!! he rewards those who seek him! He is respectful to those who respect him sincerely!! he gives what you give!! if you give much, much will will be given! I dont make alot of money and I put alot in my craft!! I am rewared!! blessings come to me!! When I have no money, my needs are met!! and I know he is meeting them and providing.
My life can be a series of books!! This man became apart of my life!! and at first I didnt want him!! but when I got to know him, and he opened my eyes!! He was so beautiful to me!! If you are a santanist!! or a worshipper of satan!! you have been chosen, like me!! Embrace the dark side!! BE respectful!! Be honest with him!! be neked in front of him! its ok to be vunerable with him!! You have been chosen by him!! Seek your purpose!! seek him intensely and you will be rewarded!! I know this to be true!! Im living what I am saying!!! and I really wanted to share that!!
Throughout the years of attending church, I had many supernatural encounters and visitations from Satan. I was a very unhappy and miserable Christian, Satan was nothing as they depicted him to be. I shared with one or two pastors about my visitations. I know they didnt believe me. At first I was afraid and I reached out to the church, they did nothing but give me scriptures and prayer. Sometimes I could feel Satans presense around me in church service. He never hurt me, he only talked to me, asking me questions about life. Questions that made me question who I was and what I really wanted out of life. NO PASTOR OF PRIEST COULD GET SATAN AWAY FROM ME!!! I developed a relationship with him. A friendship, in the end I renounced christ and became a witch. I started in wicca and now practice black magic. I am being guided by demons. I can feel them and see them only in vivid visions.
For some reason, I feel I need to be here..Theres not alot of people..but I think the right people are here. I've been practicing witchcraft for about a year now, I am still learning of course. I feel I am being lead to the church of Satan, because my family are Christians, I am a private solitary witch.
I am excited about the satanic church and cannot wait to meet new and intresting people!! This is my story!! and my jounrey!! I am seeking to go deeper., and I believe the connections I make here play a major part to my path as a witch.
So my take on it, in which I would place in a reasonable context, only focuses on an entity that is a light bearer, or, bringer; is, or is in control of light energy.
The serpentine association fits well since its' mode of transport is analogous to that of energy in the form of a 'sine' wave, noting that 'sine' and 'serpentine' are quite similar. Similar transport, different mediums, or, elements.
So there really isn't much trouble in making a significant and reasonable(scientific) connection between Lucifer, Satan, serpents, and light bringers, to energy and propagating(or slithering) serpentine energetic or materialistic waveforms.
The Dance Of The Shadows
Fallen Angel
Continued
I have got just the fifty percent of your heart
our lives are indeed divided
as if they weren't already by the brutality of life
I feel like a prisoner
maybe men made life into a prison
they arrested their soul
I feel like I have lost something
I feel like true happiness is impossible
because of them
I feel like this world isn't made for free spirits
I feel like under the law of a powerful universal tyrant
that rule everything
I feel like I'm a cathedral in the desert
and I have just wilderness
and they have everything
except what I have
and so they are unhappy, having everything
and I resist, having nothing
but I still am in this wasteland
in this arid wilderness
alone, I'm indeed an hermit
against the world
with a message who could free them all
but I know very well the fate of prophets
and I don't accept it
I am a giant and noble rebellion
I condemn this stupid world
May it fall, may it collapse
may be destroyed, this unjust world
Fire, hidden in the darkest night
hidden from every powerful man
unknown, under the ground
it resists
facing a world of terrifying darkness
it is the fire of Hell
the fire of justice
we still here, after centuries of genocide
burning for truth
burning in the name of nature
against an ugly and unjust world
burn this world
purify
with the fire of philosophy
die, transform, overcome, destroy, create, fight!
SIC SEMPER TYRANNIS
a deadly curse upon God
you will never have my unique soul
I will fight against the whole world
and if I will die you won't survive me
a challenge, a noble duel
unequal fight, but what is equal?
Conquer your might! Defeat who is superior!
Take his heart, eat it for Mars!
Blessed be the crazy ones
Cursed be the idiots
crazy like a true revolutionary
one, who, with a sentence, issue a sentence of death!
Who is afraid of words?
I know who! These words are a knife
a noble knife of someone screaming
DON'T TREAD ON ME
a knife that frightens the evil men
a knife of justice!
deadly, bloody words, you may be hurt
and they are meant to that
words are swords that hurt
a poem can be a true duel
I'm a warrior, and I challenge
cursed be who doesn't fight
is already a slave
nothing you will get
without struggle
nothing you will achieve
without true hate
death to the dead
cries nature
death to this dead world!
Hello to whomever reads this post.
I was raised Mormon, for the first 12 years of my life it was genuinely all I knew. I'm 18 now and can proudly say that I've been out of that for 2 years at this point. It wasn't the brightest transition of my life, it involved a lot of drugs, alcohol, suicide attempts and general not so great stuff. I've grown from that and moved on but my very religious family has not. My mistakes are held over my head, used against me and brought up any time the opportunity presents itself. That used to bother me, and at this point I've almost completely cut myself off from my family.
Turning 18 allowed me to begin to express myself in other ways, i.e tattoos.
My tattoos aren't what you'd call family friendly.
I have 10 now, but the most controversial are the Demon on my arm, The word Hellboy across my wrist, a skeleton pope on my leg (where are all my Ghost fans at ;) ) and a naked fairy on my arm.
I'm not an angry person, it's just how I express myself. I'm not bitter towards the church, if anything it brings relief and a certain calmness when I get these anti-religious tattoos. My family definitely does not approve of them (save for my Father and Step Mother)
I know I did this to myself, and I LOVE my tattoos, but the rejection just kind of sucks. I love my family, but because of my different beliefs it doesn't feel reciprocated. They don't even know I'm a Satanist, doesn't even seem worth it to tell them, they already dislike me enough.
I do not regret my tattoos, but it does make my heart ache for what they caused between me and my family members. I'm trying real hard to stick to me, and my authenticity even if I'm standing alone.
Ironic in a way, I remember a church lesson about "Standing Alone" As a witness of God or some shit....and here I am...doing the opposite.
Anyways, that's my life.
One of the reasons I joined this in the first place was to find others like I am, so if you can relate, or just wanna be buddies, send me a message :)
Loooove and peace and all those good vibes
Erika xx
I am a creature more Demon than human, the concepts of the social structure built upon numerical figures and conformity, fear and morality have no meaning to me other than imprisonment . . . I am feral, predatory and primal and yet I have an intellectual intellect that surpasses the common intellect of study and learning.
I walk between the veils, among humankind and yet only in body, the true self, the Infernal Soul always drifts between domains of existence, always drawn to the dark rapturous beauty of Hell.
I journey through the Gates of the Realm called Hell, walked through the Abyss like Doorway of the Inner Mind and faced the Shadow that is myself, I did not battle with it as many do, I embraced it, gained union with it, for this Shadow is the Demonic core within all of us . . . it is the heart of the Unholy, the sacred core of Evil in its most purest form.
I - as all of my kind - walk bearing the Mark of the Beast on our Soul and the Mark of Omega unseen upon our brows, for we the Children of the End Time and the Fire that vanquishes the Son of Alpha who issued forth from an abomination in creation.
I wear the cloak of night, I bear the Crown of the Infernal, I walk among the passive throng of the social herd and feel nothing, they are a different species to me, a different Breed - I gaze upon them with contempt and at best pity, but the pity always gives way to the instinct to strike them down where they stand.
I am the one who craves knowledge, experience and that which I find is never enough, there is always another boundary to cross, another doorway to open ~ always the journey draws me on guided by the Darkened Flame of Satan who summons me to become all that I am.
I have no fear of death for in death I escape the physical shell and become my true form, the pleasures of the flesh I shall miss but they shall be tasted again when once more Satan sends me forth to carry out His Work on the realm of mortality ~ for we of the Dark Fire have to enter into the world of flesh at given times weave our Infernal Magick and disturb the putrid balance of mediocrity that the forces of Light would sew into the world . . . but this shall never occur for the True Master of this World is Our Lord Satan, and the presence of the Nazarene upon it was a cancerous scar that still needs to be fully vanquished.
I am the Keeper of Secrets, the bearer of the Hidden Keys . . . love to me is a cascade of raw emotion, hate a rapture of wrath, carnal pleasure a crescendo ~ the aesthetics of darkness in all its forms courts my Soul like a violating lover and I drink deep from its proffered veins . . . I am the Wolf who slays the Sheep, the one who sees beyond the veil, my eyes shine with what I am at times of emotive power . . . I am a Child of the Dark Fire, one of the Convocation of Hell . . . and I am a Classical Satanist!
The recent film THE WITCH captured the essence of these times perfectly as did the Paintings of the Old Master Goya and the book WITCHES by Erica Jong, the artwork of that book so evocative that it stirred in me past life memories of the Old Times of Medieval Witchcraft and Devil Worship.
It is impossible to tell how old the practice of Witchcraft and Elemental Magick merged with Diabolism and Demonic Sorcery is, the Modern Atheistic Satanist would have you believe that this connection never existed and that Satanism arose with the writing of Anton LaVey but this is not so.
There are many documents of Witches over the centuries practicing Workings with Satan, Historical Records of such practices of the Black Mass, Witchcraft and Satanism being practiced alongside each other such as in the infamous case of the 'affair of the Poisons' which through the Court of King Louis XIV of France into chaos and revealed the Unholy practices of such people as Madame de Montespan, Abbe Guibourg and the Poisoner LaVoison.
These events definitely influencing the later writings of the novelist JK Huysmans in the same country with his excellent fictional Satanic piece LA~BAS (DOWN THERE).
But in much older times we can see the origins of the merging of Demonic Sorcery and Witchcraft with other Arcane elements ~ for example there are reports of the sister of the first of the great Alchemists Zosimos of Panopolis (who was practicing and teaching is Arts in around the end of the 3rd and beginning of the 4th century) Theosobia utilized forms Elemental Witchcraft and Alchemy along with Demonic Evocation, a practice which Zosimos constantly warned her against being a practioner of the Right Hand Path.
The merging of Diabolism and Dark Witchcraft has been with us for centuries and underground Covens still practiced these Arts into the late 1980s and early 1990s as I know from personal experience . . . it is a merging of great power which has sadly faded or maybe returned to its secret Cabals in the shadows since the rising of LaVeyan Satanism and Wicca (two paths while being workable and suited to some are indeed pale imitations of the Mysteries of the former practices of Diabolic Witchcraft.
Satanic Witchcraft (also at times termed Diabolic Witchcraft or Infernal Paganism) is possibly the darkest and most powerful of all Left Hand Path Traditions and - if one can find proper working material on the subject - a Tradition of Magick which is one of the most raw and easily accessed.
Many of the Old Grimoires on Magick contain extensively long preparations and Rites and endless lists of tools and requirements, but in truth Magick is not about the equipment or archaic observations it is about the actual projection of will and desire united with elements to connect us to the realms of Spirit and other worldly power ~ the very basic practice of Animism and Image Magick (the most ancient form of Magickal application) can be as powerful as a Rite of Ceremonial Magick which may last for two hours.
It is my intention here to bring an interest back in the Practice and Workings of Satanic Witchcraft, a revival of the Old Mysteries of a time when the Moon would be the only observer of the Dark Operations of the Witches gathered at the Black Sabbat of the Devil, Our Lord Satan.
To kindle once more the Magick, beauty and power of the ways of the Dark Arts of the Devil's Kindred in a time when Magick was raw and the power of its practice primal and potent!
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The Winds expose the lightning of the scent of the death. The Light of the dead brings joy into our hearts.
Ostara, also known as the Spring Equinox, is the midpoint between the two Solstices and the day and night are in perfect balance. The light of day is on the increase with each passing day from Ostara onward.
It is at this sabbat that the young Sun God now celebrates a hierogamy, or a sacred marriage, with the young Maiden Goddess, who conceives at this time. In nine months, she will again become the Great Mother. This sabbat is a time of great fertility, new growth, and newborn animals. The next full moon, a period shown to have a time of increased births, is called the Ostara and is sacred to Eostre the Saxon Lunar Goddess of fertility, (which is from where we get the word estrogen), whose two symbols were the egg and the rabbit.
Later in time, the Christians adopted these emblems for Easter, (the egg and rabbit), which is celebrated on the first Sunday after the first full moon following the vernal equinox. The theme of the conception of the Goddess was adapted as the Feast of the Annunciation, occurring on the alternative fixed calendar date of March 25 Old Lady Day, the earlier date of the equinox. Lady Day may also refer to other goddesses (such as Venus and Aphrodite), many of whom have festivals celebrated at this time.
Ostara is a time for renewal and rededication to the path.
More Inspiring Symbol Includes the "Prophet of Death" who delights in the murdering of the useless.
Occult means hidden in greek. Again we see some similarity between the Satanist and the words of the categories into which he might fall. Many Satanists are "in the closet" in order to avoid possible negative consequences, or just because they prefer their privacy. In any case, the assassin and the Satanist both must hide as part of their existence. The assassin's work is hidden by necessity, while the Satanist's is hidden mostly out of ignorance, for few people care to learn about his path. Perhaps they are right not to care, because I can't ignore the possibility that everything I think I know about Satanism and the LHP is total bullshit, and there is no benefit at all to what I do. This is a frame of mind necessary to take at every step of your the magical journey, because self deception is the easiest form of magikkk to master. How unfortunate would it be to become an adept in self deception, but deceive oneself so fully that you cannot see how you are doing nothing but deceiving yourself.
The word Satan itself initially carried the meaning of something close to "enemy", or "one who brings temptation." If you have the idea that Satan is a symbol for the self, then you must realize that some part of the self which you allowed yourself to become is an adversary to everything else. You bring temptation to the masses, and evil. What evil is can be fairly subjective. Since I'm not a complete maniac, for my purposes evil means more just things that are condemned by humans. Humans condemn many things which are not damnable, but rather are commendable.
The obvious place to go with this idea is to embrace the absurd, the rebellious, the punk rock. All of those things are well and good, and are a little further from the infamous bell curve human behaviour, especially in certain parts of the world from a lot of behaviour. But even these are just variations on a theme: The consumption of cultural products. I want to be an enemy of much grander things than bad music or derivative art, but if I find nothing else, I guess those will do. I also don't want to fall into the trap of, "Just being an individual" though perhaps that is the greatest height a Satanist can aspire, as hard wired to being a pro-social animal as humans appear to be. Maybe thinking without the influence of the people around you, whispering messages and values into your subconscious ears is the Nirvana of the Satanist.
If you feel like you have reached the state of mind where none of your decisions are affected at all by those around you, let me know.
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MemberThe internet is, where i have ventured, a topic-identified terrain. Every one of these allowed for the possibility of identifying a new "Evil", a new "Wrong", and a new dualistic condemnation into which i might fit myself. The first primary choice on my part was within my occult order. I had read many of the works of the occult author Aleister Crowley and noted with distaste that he had engaged a dualistic rant against those whom he termed 'Black Brothers', the 'Fratribus Nigris' as i reflected on it. I notice additionally that my kin within that order (the O.T.O.) were applying this to those whom they saw as rivals, of 'doing things the Wrong way', and generally whom they condemned. I realized at that time that my name within that order would need to be 'Black Brother', and out of sympathy for the condemned (and a touch of bad Latin) i aspired to attain to the exalted aims of the Thelemite while i chose as my initiated name 'nigris', later discovering its numerological value of 333, a resonance with the Demon of the Abyss, Choronzon, and many other things.
One of the defining characteristics of this Abysmal Demon (333) is a multifaceted identity or polyfaciae, at times associated to dispersal and psychosis. Whereas my aims were always the same and subsequent self-identifiers in qabalistic (hara), Muslim (Haramullah), Wiccan (Lorax666 of the Evul Wikkhunz), and Satanist (boboroshi, nocTifer) contexts have to me and those i know resolved to a single coherent center, consistently i have been opposed by those who took surface for content, label and packaging for what and who i am, and those who want to use labels and names to castigate and berate others in juvenile ways.
My conversion to Satanism (i wasn't born into any religion) primarily oriented in opposition to what i regarded as a lux-o-philic and anti-darkness bias exercised by Hermetic and Neo-Gnostic occultists interested in escalating Lucifer to a high status, while casting the rest into ignorance, such that even this alternative name for Venus remained forgotten. I forged my pact with Satanas Paternas, wrote my scripture, and summoned demons all under the name 'nocTifer' or 'bringer of darkness'. My time as part of the Church of Euthanasia, a fanciful escalation of Satanism as i understood it, detracted little from this, and when that ecclesia dissolved around me i was content to resume that darkness-oriented identity.
As i began to understand the media developments within Satanism, watching several 'shells' of technical venues left abandoned by users (including at first alt.satanism in a flight to protection, then in several series of moderated venues with new technological presentations, such as yahoogroups, googlegroups, and then waves of web-boards), and the replication of media form through time emphasized by availability of broadcast (text, sound, video), it became obvious to me that my prediction from the 1990s that the internet would compete with, and then completely replace, television (which i generally dislike) would come to pass, and that semi-interactive novelties such as BlogTalkRadio.com and YouTube.com (YT) were the sonic and videographic landscapes, respectively, into which a good part of intelligent discourse was headed after having fled from IRC and usenet long ago.
I trailed Satanism through boards, and was intrigued to find it making innovative appearance in YT. Due to my disciplines and observations of social repercussions, i avoided YT as i had avoided photographs and film for more than 2 decades. When i met Beast Xeno in IRC (one of these former 'wild zones' for chat: a moderated subset of it) he exposed me in greater depth to something i'd already known about from Venger Satanis: the Cult of Cthulhu. Though it related to the mystical works of Gurdjieff, the outstanding horror of Lovecraft, and somehow tried to twist itself around a form of Satanism ostensibly distended out of LaVey, i had heretofore avoided it on account of the corrosive methods taken by Crazy Wisdom teachers like Gurdjieff and Rajneesh. That Beast liked it was intriguing, and i found his friendship inspiring enough to seek out his writings interior to that private web board (another reason i'd avoided it - its privacy). I would go on to assist their efforts somewhat in the Cult, interact with a number of its other members, and become recognized as a Keeper of the Green Flame therein.
That was odd enough and fun, but something that i hadn't expected was his radio show with Venger Satanis, called 'The Ooze'. It was new technology to me, even though my guru had a student who was a professional radio producer and DJ, they'd been doing a show together for years, and i would later replace him operating the sound board for more recent versions of that show unto this day. Encountering The Ooze was intriguing, and gave me incentive to follow Beast into another project he indicated to me he had a strong part in producing: the Satanic International Network (S.I.N.). It was just beginning, and as i explored it and the people involved with it (finding out as much as i could about Zach Black, for example, in order to integrate him, along with Beast and Venger, into the references on well-known Satanists i have maintained), i began to realize how 'out' its participants were in YouTube (YT). That there was some emphasis on cameras in the Tinychat there, and presentation of footage of this once or twice to YT by Zach was noted by me in my estimation of its character.
At some point i undertook to explore Tinychat.com, and noticed that the intense reaction i had received in regards my appearance was enhanced and doubly-strong amongst the conservatives who frequented it ("Osama! Are you going to bomb us?!"). I understood fairly quickly that this was a reproduction of usenet and IRC but in videographic media, and that YT was a fair but private replication of usenet. At that point the sequential development of media became clear to me, and shortly thereafter i had a vision of engaging YT while preserving my vow of humility (with some suggestions from my guru): I could wrap my face and take on a proper pseudonym. My brief exposures to YT through association with my good friend Venus Satanas made it clear to me what the "Wrong", "Evil" and condemned class of individuals within it were called: trolls. This became so obvious that the term was now abused so as to refer to anyone whose position or expression one did not like.
I knew that, like in every other venue (topical), i needed to self-identify properly so as to pursue my practice of Satanism as i understood it. In the Satanic and YT contexts i pinpointed my nickname therein: Troll Towelhead. The surname was amusing and yet proper in that i had been given a Turkish turban to wear and a religious office to occupy and maintain (Grand Mufti of Satanism) by my guru, and these were perfect for my purposes in opposing an obvious anti-Muslim supplement to the anti-satanism of the 1990s. I saw this carry also into the Satanic subculture, striking alongside a willingness to accept fascism and bigotted stupidity of many sorts, ostensibly in the name of 'embracing evil' or 'self-development'.
The first name, however, was so thrilling, so exciting to me on account of its multi-valence, that i could barely contain myself. What a discovery! This wasn't just applicable to YT, but to every internet venue! The future of internet Satanism as i knew it! Its character in relation to how intellectuals who dispute against and reveal uncomfortable features in faulty logic or philosophic discourse were slandered with the name was precisely what i'd observed as regards the term 'sophist' amongst some philosophers. Popular cynical Satanists repeatedly mentioned the term and its use for castigation was precisely what i seek out in topical contexts as facile and chilling.
The secondary dimension to the first name 'Troll' was in part what thrilled me the most, since i have for many years studied magic, and have more and more strongly began to focus on folk magic and its materia magica (something my guru loves in relation to African American culture and encourages the world over).
A fellow student of my guru who apprenticed with her here for weeks is also a fan of The Devil (particularly Der Teufyll, the Woods God/god(s)). While he was here we had long talks about demonology and its intersection with wild nature, trying to come to some kind of understanding of the God Satan and its relation to magic and my scripture. We discussed my scripture and my general method, and he began a newfound interest in the folk magic of his own Swedish homeland. He went back to Sweden and after numerous social adventures and turns of fate dug deeply to discover the details of the folk magic of his homeland. Our projects and studies have been intertwined ever since, and he discovered that the word for folk magic (/witchcraft) in Swedish lore is "trolldom", and that trolls are another name for magic user!! The whole folkloric beast-complex in part centers on the fact that these are elder wild folks who know something of magic. For a person to call themselves a troll is to effectively proclaim their occultism. This is a correlate to 'witch' in multiplex fashion.
Doing a search online (primarily on YT) i reminded myself that the original usage for the term 'troll' and 'trolling' relate to VERBS not nouns, and that it pertains to fishing: casting out baiting expressions and seeking indisciplined responses with the hopes of manipulating and hoaxing (landing) a 'Big One'. Everything after this has been a castigation (at times quite amusing!) of monsters on the order of vampires or werewolves or demons (see my "Manifesto Satanika" for more on the development of these in modern religious history, from witches to satanists, then on to vampires, werewolves and demons, epitomizing in what i predicted in the form of Lovecraftian monsters and the Cult).
When i decided to take the name Troll for YT i wondered what i might want to do about the S.I.N., especially since its owner and several of those who were part of it were also heavily involved in YT, and there was such an emphasis on visuals within the tinychat people had remarked about being popular therein. I decided that its emphasis was such, and the style of interaction (contenteous, focussed on by some as 'crushing haters' and 'exterminating bullshit') was such, that this YT pseudonym was far better than 'nocTifer' (which a number now began to misidentify as 'noctifier', probably due to the small font on the site). I knew that this would be controversial, but given the trust i had in Beast in particular, and in Zach, i choose S.I.N. (1.0) to become the origin and proving grounds to make that change for my Satanism, and to make it permanently. It was the best decision i ever made.
This was not without forethought, and not without a long history of socially-transformative engagements i sought out in pursuit of martyrdom as i have understood it (not death seeking, but virtuous witness of truth from a position of condemnation to tyrannical power). I decided to try it out regardless of the consequences, and begin to enter into chat and the forums as i was moved by compassion, defending love and comradery, society and bonding friendships.
I saw the attention being paid to cynical and biting Satanists who spoke in gaming terms of 'pwning', and who made frequent mention of trolls. I tried to reflect a pure and perfect complement to it, emphasizing another pole in what i think of as a neo-tantric apex, and proceeded to argue in favour of tolerance, criticizing manipulators and bullies (even real trollers!).
Generally i made little effort to conceal my identity, though i occasionally distracted away from my person, location, or background with fiction. I wanted, instead, the focus to be the topics of our conversations, and i said little also about my witnessing interests, the background of trolls i'd discovered, or the Great Martyrdom Cult of which i think we are all part, and whose little eddy in a Satanic sandbox i was part of creating.
At first i was accused by one or more of its moderators of nefarious and false motivations, behaviours, as i had expected might occur, and this brought with it the deletion of my account more than once in S.I.N. (1.0). Yet my allies running the board quickly understood my heart and motivations, the style and substance of my Satanism, and how i was bringing it even to the very heart of Satanism, and eventually reinstated me, more than once.
Since then i've gone on to make a very good name for myself, my title, for Demonic Satanism in the commentary and publishing of The Gospel of Satan and continued service to Satanists and Satan, extending en toto some 17 years and developing into a personal relationship with the Devil himself.
I'm very happy to have returned to S.I.N. (2.0), resumed my Troll account here, and look forward to establishing new friendships as well as to rekindle old ones in a fresh, and more friendly, environment.
Assalam alaykum and BLVD!,
Troll the Unvanquished
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