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Ive had many many visitatiopns from him over the course of 13 years, and he has persued me for 13 years!! and finally I have accepted the invitation into his church!! I was only 23 when I first met him.
Christian portray him to be under there feet. Repulsive, Dirty, Scum!! This is NOT!!! TRUE!!! He is arrogant but its beautiful to me!! hes confident knows who he is. He was never mean, and never hurt me. He only befriended me and we developed a relationship over time!! he is very neat and clean cut. Very confident!! More powerful than Christians said he was!! and I know that to be fact!! He is serious, very serious!! and DEADLY!! DANGERIOUS!! VIOLENT!! ...But never towards me. He became my firend. I confided in him,, Poured my heart to him..we never had a conversation, he would only ask me questions, that made me question so many things in life. Questions that made me think deeply.. Disturbing questions I must say.
He doesnt burn everybody!! those who are his he takes care of and they have a special place and purpose in the afterlife!! this is fact and i cannot explain. Sometimes I get revelations through a knowing. He is not what Christians and society make him to be. He is a GOD!!! he is our GOD!! and he takes care of those who belong to him!! He is faithful!! He is true to his word.
He will stick with you and will not abandon his people!! We all have a purpose in his kingdom!! he rewards those who seek him! He is respectful to those who respect him sincerely!! he gives what you give!! if you give much, much will will be given! I dont make alot of money and I put alot in my craft!! I am rewared!! blessings come to me!! When I have no money, my needs are met!! and I know he is meeting them and providing.
My life can be a series of books!! This man became apart of my life!! and at first I didnt want him!! but when I got to know him, and he opened my eyes!! He was so beautiful to me!! If you are a santanist!! or a worshipper of satan!! you have been chosen, like me!! Embrace the dark side!! BE respectful!! Be honest with him!! be neked in front of him! its ok to be vunerable with him!! You have been chosen by him!! Seek your purpose!! seek him intensely and you will be rewarded!! I know this to be true!! Im living what I am saying!!! and I really wanted to share that!!
Ive had many many visitatiopns from him over the course of 13 years, and he has persued me for 13 years!! and finally I have accepted the invitation into his church!! I was only 23 when I first met him.
Christian portray him to be under there feet. Repulsive, Dirty, Scum!! This is NOT!!! TRUE!!! He is arrogant but its beautiful to me!! hes confident knows who he is. He was never mean, and never hurt me. He only befriended me and we developed a relationship over time!! he is very neat and clean cut. Very confident!! More powerful than Christians said he was!! and I know that to be fact!! He is serious, very serious!! and DEADLY!! DANGERIOUS!! VIOLENT!! ...But never towards me. He became my firend. I confided in him,, Poured my heart to him..we never had a conversation, he would only ask me questions, that made me question so many things in life. Questions that made me think deeply.. Disturbing questions I must say.
He doesnt burn everybody!! those who are his he takes care of and they have a special place and purpose in the afterlife!! this is fact and i cannot explain. Sometimes I get revelations through a knowing. He is not what Christians and society make him to be. He is a GOD!!! he is our GOD!! and he takes care of those who belong to him!! He is faithful!! He is true to his word.
He will stick with you and will not abandon his people!! We all have a purpose in his kingdom!! he rewards those who seek him! He is respectful to those who respect him sincerely!! he gives what you give!! if you give much, much will will be given! I dont make alot of money and I put alot in my craft!! I am rewared!! blessings come to me!! When I have no money, my needs are met!! and I know he is meeting them and providing.
My life can be a series of books!! This man became apart of my life!! and at first I didnt want him!! but when I got to know him, and he opened my eyes!! He was so beautiful to me!! If you are a santanist!! or a worshipper of satan!! you have been chosen, like me!! Embrace the dark side!! BE respectful!! Be honest with him!! be neked in front of him! its ok to be vunerable with him!! You have been chosen by him!! Seek your purpose!! seek him intensely and you will be rewarded!! I know this to be true!! Im living what I am saying!!! and I really wanted to share that!!
I find the concept of a "real" satanic band to be a bit silly. A real satanist is anybody who lives for themselves, and is in essence everybody, and perhaps every organism that has ever lived. As I've said elsewhere magick is nothing more than making your will happen in the objective universe. Any band that manages to have people they don't know discussing them are competent magicians, so long as they want people to talk about them. I assume that most musicians want people to listen to them, and people talking about them naturally leads to more people listening to them. Even if people hate a given band, I would say that band is probably still winning with their magick since fame is typically wrapped up in the goals of being in a band, and no press is bad press.
Music is one of the best examples of a quite literal and obvious form of magick. It comes from the performers mind, manifests in the movements required to play an instrument, and goes a step further when the sounds they produce enter into the minds of and are interpreted by listeners. Listeners feel the desired effects of the song, which can be as specific as a particular mood, or as a general as "feeling anything".
Musical performances resemble ceremonial magick. Bands frequently wear specific clothes for a performance, imbibe certain psychoactive chemicals, perform behaviours to insure the success of the spells they cast like plugging in their amps and tuning their guitars. They manipulate the senses through sound and lighting to evoke or invoke different states in the audience. Then the audience, or the celebrants if you will, all take up their positions, and perform their rites. The rites can be a circle pit, headbanging, pogo-ing, snapping their fingers, slow dancing, or whatever else. In the best concerts, those performed by master magicians/musicians, everybody seems to get on the same "wavelength" (a terribly imprecise word, but I don't know another that can accurately capture that feeling of synchronicity) and for an hour or two become best friends, though if they pass each other on the street the next day they might not even acknowledge one another. In the end the celebrants become loyal to the musicians and will pay to see them again, pay for the music and merchandise, and spread the word. In effect, a good concert invokes the commercial will of the band into the souls of the audience, and the spell is complete when they have given their hard earned cash to their crooning masters. Concerts and the music business in general are a terrific example of magick in action.
Now that I've established musicians as both satanists and magicians (is their really a difference?), I'll look at some specific bands.
Burzum is one that I think of first. Like many dorky heavy metal enthusiasts, he was one of the first Norweigian Black Metal bands I ever heard, and subsequently fell in love with. Now obviously he is a racist, terrorist, and a murderer, and a guy I don't like. That does not make him a bad example of a satanic musician. The fact that he seems to be living a decent life (if that thing in France is resolved; I don't care to google it) despite his crimes is an endorsement of his power. Granted I don't have all the information. Perhaps his parents have a lot of money or something and that is how he got away with everything, or maybe it is really just because the Norweigian legal system is spineless, toothless, and dickless and anyone in that country would have had a similar fate to that suffered by ol' Uncle Varg.
Now those in the know probably know that Varg of Burzum officially renounced Satanism at a certain point and now practices some form of neo-pagan-asatru-white-supremecy nonsense. Keep in mind my point of view, and what I believe is the essence of Satanism. Everybody, and everything is a satanist, whether they know it or not. One need not be consciously one in order to be one. Though with song titles like "Black Spell of Destruction" and comments about specific albums being intentionally recorded as spells, it is hard to argue with him being a magickal musician in the most overt sense.
The Sex Pistols are another band that I think of as being highly magickal, though not necessarily satanic. They lit the fuse that led to the punk rock explosion that still effects rock and more generally pop music today.
Lastly I would like to bring up a musical group that is not satanic in any explicit sense. I'm sure anybody reading this is accustomed to the idea of traditionally religious folks being evil as fuck. I think this is because they try to cover up their evil in a glossy package that anybody with a brain can see right through. But their magick lies in their mastery of making brains stop working right, especially with regards to skepticism directed towards them and their absurd beliefs and practices. That aside, lets talk about the Australian christian praise and worship band, Hillsongs United.
The packaging, the production, the style of this bizarre entity is lesser magick par excellence. How better to convince young-uns that their position within the religion is perfectly acceptable in the larger evil of the non-christian world than by stealing the tricks of rock n' roll, that most evil of all pop culture commodities? They've got the gear, they've got the haircuts and the stressed jeans, from time to time they've even got the tattoos. They are cool as cats (in the eyes of their fans. And unlike the majority of bands with a satanic angle, I think their performances are far more magickal in nature. They actually believe that the awful racket they make is being heard by their hebrew wizard in the sky, and that he smiles at them because of it. I don't think many Mayhem fans think that they are actually making the horned one below smile with their carousing and headbanging.
Hillsongs, believe it or not, can muster crowds and festivals of thousands. All raise their hands and sing in unison, and again, spend lots of money in the name of their god. Isn't it funny how satanic and christian bands are ultimately doing the same thing? Selling their ideas wrapped in their aesthetics for money, for themselves.
MemberAs a Satanist, self-worship means to me applying most if not all of the categories of treatment generally regarded to GODS by other religious to oneself, not just metaphorically or euphemistically, but honestly and fully. I've thought long and hard about this, in part because i sought such worship of my Goddess and in part because i think it is an egotistical challenge to worship myself actively, rather than merely as part of some interest in outrage or humour.
I'd list those categories as:
• exaltation -- supernalizing in a personal and emotional sense for the time being of the worship; regaling those present with the glories and virtues of the focus of worship; praising aloud and with sonic volume, singing or dramatically portraying these virtues; celebrating the being and character of that entity, and particularly their importance to the worshipper and to the wider world. (lifting up from above)
• obeisance -- subordinating oneself before that entity or intelligence, especially physically before objects of worship inclusive of statues, images (generally 'idols') conceived as in some way representing and/or participating in the presence or person of the entity being worshipped; recognizing and paying tribute overtly to the dependency we have upon that entity, how their existence is central, essential, or of extreme importance to the continuation of what we value. (lifting up from below)
• ardour -- expressing emotional devotion in whatever capacity and role is pertinent (guardian, grandparent or parent, uncle or aunt, spouse or sibling, lover, friend, or comrade, cousin or child, pet or mascot; reciting or reading poetry, singing rapturous love songs, recounting tales of sweet, deep, and abiding love, attesting to the heights and depths which this love did, could, would, or will inspire, (establishing intimacy out of love on variable footing)
• alliance - declaring with force and faith one's solid testament to the entity, portraying, describing, or artfully depicting the tests to which this loyalty and compact has been put, establishing by dint of accompanying testimony and proof in endeavour (as by rite, blood pact, etc.) one's thorough commitment to the cause of the other. (establishing strength out of trust of a comparable equal)
You ask if the things you mention count (to me) as self-worship ('with that end in mind'? not sure what this means), and i will take them each in turn below:
-- giving yourself adoration and devotion: too vague.
-- loving the person one has become: fairly weak, perhaps a start.
-- appreciating one's finer qualities, self-improvement, attention to integrity, intentionality, and health: weak but a good start.
-- admiring one's own image as part of ordinary affairs: merely vainglory, but headed in the right direction if pursued to purpose.
So i'd have to say no they do not count, and i think i have made the extremity and intensity of ACTIVE ENGAGEMENT OF PRAISE AND DEDICATION, particularly in a ritual and ceremonial sense, clear as a criterion.
For Satanists i have repeatedly made it plain that i think it will be helpful for them to study in some detail how other religious conduct their worship, catalogue this to an extent, as i have, and then exercise this with respect to oneself, as i have experimentally achieved with canonizing myself and paying tribute to myself as a saint while attempting a communion with the Saint of Occultism.
{interlude after which further questions seemed important to put forward}
So does worshipping oneself create a sense of other? Does worship of a god predispose or necessitate the division of that object of worship into an other?
Let me broaden this a bit for philosophic purpose: ALL images of oneself are different than oneself. An observation of a mirror will demonstrate to us that the image is reversed right-to-left. A video reflection or phone-camera reflection for a selfie are very close, but as soon as we snap the photo to capture that image, the person of whom it was an image (us in the past) is necessarily different than our present being.
Thus the worship of oneself might be likened to a god in that we are always, when issuing devotion or exaltation, turning our worshipful attention to the PAST of the god. Why a god would necessarily need be different than ourselves is nothing i can answer. Is canonization something new or different, and does the fact that this is popularly issued by large churches make it of a different character than (and thus a more authentic version of) what we are doing?
I had already identified with the Jesus character many times, with bodhisattvas, with spiritually advanced images, prior. Prophethood, identification of my birthplace as a holy city (on account of my having come from it), was both arch and genuinely felt.
When does ego outstrip the usefulness of our activities as regards ego expansion with interest toward self-development? I suppose that once one integrates disciplines of humility and non-self-destructive asceticism that this curtails some if not all of the negative effects of egotism exercises, with titles, self-re-envisioning, and dramatic rite, role-playing, or faking-it-until-making-it.
You ask what connection there is between the object of worship and the idol. I suggest to you that you could merge those magically and therefore prevent any distinction through a spell (comparable to making a doll-baby of yourself and unifying with it, but instead doing it with a candle or a statue or a photo, and then directing your obeisance and dedication to that object).
Yes, there is a common TEMPORARY distinction, just like with all idols and most states of consciousness. Very few bhakti yogis can engage in worship sufficient that the idol *becomes* the very deity during that worship. For most religious that is an unimportant and merely ephemeral distinction operating during the prayers or worship event.
Troll Towelhead, Grand Mufti of Satanism
