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This is a rough-sketch that I will likely flesh-out more formally and with greater academic rigor when I get around to it. 


---Enochian---


My first introduction to Enochian was, in fact, with the Satanic Bible. I was all of 13 at the time, and it is significant to note that it is around that age where mystical or even mythological thinking gives way to abstract thinking. Certainly, at that age there was, in my mind, a very real possibility that uttering the Enochian keys could quite well open the gates of hell. 


I think this is important. I think that essence is what LaVey was pointing at - how a child's mind resonates with barbarous tones and cryptic references in such a way as to produce psychologically significant results.


Here's an anecdote: I do remember my child hood when I was pre-literate. I remember looking at the encyclopedias on our living room book shelf knowing only a few things about them, which were:


1) They were "books"

2) The squiggles written on and in them were "letters"

3) I did not know what these letters were. 


It is a lot like that feeling you get when you see, say, Chinese characters or the written form of any other language you do not comprehend. It's awe inspiring and mysterious - an alien logos.


Enochian brought back that sense of the unknown in a sort of synthetic way. Intuitively you can tell it has a syntax, there's a pattern to it, it has meaning - but it's yet to be extracted. It makes it mysterious. 


(I am actually fluent in Enochian, at least insofar as one can be. I know most words, anyway. There are no clearly defined rules of conjugation. It's pure rote memorization of a vocabulary that is quite minimal... being fluent in Klingon would be more note-worthy, and also more embarrassing. What was cool about learning to write and read enochian script is that it re-activated the centers in my brain that I'd employ to learn Farsi, Arabic, and later some Korean. It kept that "gate" open)


The problem is this: It is not in the least bit Satan-oriented. It is, in fact, closer to gnostic and highly resonant with the 4 and 12 prophets: Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Daniel and  Hosea, Joel, Amos, Obadiah, Jonah, Micah, Nahum, Habakkuk, Zephaniah, Haggai, Zechariah, and Malachi (16 is also an important number in Enochian - 4 * 4 quadrants)


If the Enochian keys don't make sense to you, it is because you're refusing to look at their obviously "Christian" inspiration. 


If you're going to get anywhere with the Enochian keys, you're going to find yourself plumbing rather unsavory apocryphal depths. Don't shoot the messenger. There's a moral to this story: 


"On the altar of the devil, up is down, pleasure is pain, darkness is light, slavery is freedom, and madness is sanity"


Then again, if Satanism implies a willingness to explore that which you are averse to, and by virtue of your Satanism you are averse to studying scripture, you will find yourself at a permanent and untenable impasse. 


Regardless. Enochian is very much Christian. Then again, Satan is very much a "Christian" concept.


<insert numerous citations - including Elizabeth I and the Bishop's Bible.> 


Enoch lived 365 years and then walked with god. This is also significant. As is the 91 govenors. 91 * 4 = 364. Today minus 364 days is the same day of week (out of 7) last year. This has a lot to do with time and calendars, more than I have time to impart except to say that if you don't think any of that is important, I would ask you this: "why is it the year 2018?". Somethings are so pervasive - so vast - that you don't even notice them. i.e. "what is water?"


Dude - Dee coined the phrase "Brittish Empire" FFS.


For reference, if you happen to be curious about Enochian (there is no better mind fuck out there, I swear). There are basically 3 strands of it: 


1) Authoritative


What you'll find in 

"A True and Faithful Relation of What Passed for Many Years Between Dr. John Dee and Some Spirits"


"John Dee's Five Books of Mystery: Original Sourcebook of Enochian Magic"


"The Enochian Magick of Dr. John Dee: The Most Powerful System of Magick in its Original, Unexpurgated Form"


The above are bed-rock. It's not much different than, say, Liber Juratus Honorii - and if the Christian connotations create a cognitive dissonance between what Enochian actually is, and what you thought it was due to some weird knee-jerk reaction you had to what you read in some Avon book, congratulations, you've learned something new about how gullible and easily misdirected you are. The system works! 


2) Golden Dawn / A.'.A.'. expansions

I think this is genre where the Satanic Bible drew its inspiration from 


"The Vision and the Voice (Liber 418)"


"Golden Dawn Enochian Magic"


"Enochian World of Aleister Crowley: Enochian Sex Magick"


The above are sort of rigid super-impositions of Golden-Dawn style taxonomic thinking onto the source material of Enochian Magic. It "works", but it doesn't actually explain or solve anything. 


3) The Schueler's expansions of expansions

They went one step further in the direction of what the GD and A.'.A.'. did by expanding upon these expansions. In that sense, they're not far off from Simon's Necronomicon or any of Kenneth Grant's work. It's incredibly creative and workable, but doesn't so much as bother to attempt to reconcile the gaps in the source material. It's as if they found an irreparable bus and decided that it's beyond making street legal, may as well convert it into guest house. 


They did a pretty good job in that regard, too. 


Books like:


"The Angels' Message to Humanity"


"Enochian Magic: A Practical Manual"


"Enochian Yoga: Uniting Humanity and Divinity" (yeah, seriously)


"The Enochian Workbook: A Complete Guide to Angelic Magic"


Whatever the case, it's always been a pretty white-light subject matter. 

There's nothing inherently "satanic" about Enochian. Heretical, certainly, but satanic... not so much. 


*pop*




---Yazidis---


If I had a nickle. 


First things first. Yazidis practice endogamy. You either are one by birth or you are not, and if you are not then it is of no avail to appeal to their mythos. You are an outsider and will always be. Sticking peacock feathers in your cap will not change this. 


Their Melek Taus is not even close to a Satan. The comparison is both wildly inaccurate and flatly insulting. The Yazidis are "devil worshipers" only in the sense that anyone else whose spiritual beliefs differ from the norm are similarly categorized. That was the point of even mentioning them in the Satanic Rituals to begin with: our very human capacity to demonize the "other" - often with great prejudice and cruelty. To hop on board with the notion that they are devil worshipers puts you on the side of the very inquisitors you claim to despise. You've failed to think for yourself and see with your own eyes. That is the moral - that you are no better than their persecutors in taking at face value what anyone has to say about a religion and culture you flatly do NOT understand and ARE NOT a part of, and never will be. You are every bit as susceptible to suggestion as the most uneducated hysteric. THAT, I think, is what LaVey was pointing at: Not that the Yazidi's were devil worshipers, but rather how easily it is to convince you that they are and must be. 


There are also those who believe that the Yazidis were descendants of Adam's seed and Melek Taus... some even go out a stretch and say Lilith and Melek Taus or whatever to explain the difference between Jews and Gentiles. 


It is true that the Yazidis do, on occasion, have some interesting features such a blue eyes and reddish hair (like yours truly) but here's the problem with this thinking: 


If you're going to rely on the Old Testament for your historical narrative, you must remember that no matter what transpired between Adam and Eve, Adam and Lilith, Samael and Eve, Adam and some Peacock angel, an important event happened between then and now:


The flood.


The only reported survivors were: Noah, his wife, his sons: Shem, Ham and Japheth and their respective wives. Eight in total.


Meaning that, while it is possible that maybe, maybe one of the wives of Shem, Ham, or Japheth may have descended from a union other than Adam and Eve's, their descendants are muggles at best - at least "part" Jew. 


*pop*




The point of all this is thus: the very impetus behind even looking into "Satanism" from the frame of reference of one who had no prior exposure to it was, most likely, to question ALL presuppositions about the ways of the world and what it is they were told. That impetus should never be content to rest upon its laurels. It shouldn't just "stop" once you've "come out of the closet" or whatever.


The ability to perpetually question your own beliefs and continually slaughter your own sacred cows, no matter how much it pains you, is what prevents you from falling into the very dogmatic morass you originally sought emancipation from in claiming the mantle in the first place.




If ever you've reached a point where you're certain of what's what and that you have it all figured out - you've reached a plateau of stagnation. 


the low-hanging and obvious fruit is worth bringing to your attention


Enochian is Satanic because it's in the Satanic bible and I would have never heard of Enochian if I never read the Satanic Bible. That is wrong.


Yazidis were devil worshipers because they're in the Satanic rituals, and I never would have heard of the Yazidis if I never read the Satanic Rituals. Also Wrong.


If you truly study and not worship, you will see quite plainly the fallacy the guy was pointing at. Demonstrating how not even the most defiant of individuals are immune from dogmatism and are prone to take anyone's say on matters obscure regardless of their qualifications so long as they "sound" authoritative and what they are saying conforms to what they would like to be true. Which is precisely the mechanism by which any organized religion thrives in spite of what logic and objectivity would threaten to dismantle. To immunize yourself from the very trappings you despise, it takes vigilance and, dare I say, conscientiousness that does not - can not - stop just because someone slapped a pentagram on the cover of their thesis. 


Be continually at war with yourself. Doubt. Even go so far as to doubt doubt itself. To admit you were deceived, are susceptible to deception, and to understand the lesson in that. Be ever the ouroboros - simultaneously devouring and emerging from oneself. The self-annihilating alkahest. The uncontainable azoth. The universal solvent is, after all, doubt. 


"Why is a crooked letter that cannot be made straight."


It is also a BAGLE.


L NIMB OUCHO SYMP OD CHRISTEOS AG TOLTORN MIRC Q TIOBL LEL

 

*I should hope you're reading this*


Why would anyone want to do that? Bring the best minds of today into a quorum? quorum? Do you know what that means in the corporate world? 


How diametrically opposed to Robert's rules "Satanism" by at least 9 out of its 10 definitions is?


Now, truthfully, how you managed to put up with me for___ years!___ is beyond me. 


And I saw what you tried to do for the site on the periphery. It can be said that your only fault was caring TOO much.


Though you and I are certainly not the best-of-buds by a long shot, the reality is "fuck m!" you were de-modded and basically told to kick rocks on account of what you thought to be (and rightly so) a solid maneuver. 


Why apologize? Why explain? It's just a DNS resolution to a service running on a server - nothing more. The people___ they know where to find each other___ it's probably only 40 of "us" out there, anyway. They'll turn up eventually.


Personally, I think the whole "going back" thing is___ well___ undignified. 


Who does that? If a mod bans me, I don't care if that mod gets de-modded himself, I'm not contributing to that site's SEO by one single byte ever - I'm going to work on projects that don't randomly kick me in gut when I get too far out of line. In fact! I'm going to work on projects that encourage me to get out of line!


Why would anyone do otherwise?


Why would you?


The way I see it, you did get burned. 


<Long rant redacted, concluding: what happened at 600C stays at 600C> 


And now you're contributing to forum that basically told you to go kick rocks with your initiatives and forward thinking! Explaining shit? And to who??? Even I know you're better than that. We all saw it. Everyone with eyes saw it.


Hey, I know you and I don't and probably will never see eye to eye, Fnord, but I can tell you one thing: I know you have heart, and I sure as fuck wouldn't humiliate you by demoting you for exercising your abilities over here.


Just sayin' - I "asked for" what you did to me - and I know this - I wanted it since I changed my avatar to that goofy yahoo emote: signifying that the endless and cyclical pedantry of the place was of the eye-spiraling variety.


You, however, did NOT deserve THAT. Not even by a long shot. That you would go back justifying it to THEM is as well beyond me as it is well beneath you. 

Let's start with the beginning. This is the best place to start. 


There was a Satanic Bible. It was written in 1969. Now, I don't know about you, but I wasn't even a gleam in my father's eye when it was written. It was written for an audience that wouldn't know what to make of Pearl Jam or Nirvana or whatever was popular at the time you read it. 


That needs to be understood. the "you" that was influenced by the Satanic Bible was not the "they" they were trying to influence. It was well before your time. It was well before my time. And I don't think it's a "timeless piece" - it just happened to strike a chord in the mid-nineties as did grunge... possibly for the same reasons.


It was written as a reaction to a time and place "we", unless we are very old, just were not a part of. In this way it's like reading the Old Testament - you have to understand that yeah! now a days stoning a woman for adultery seems a bit cruel, but we're talking about an ethos that prevailed when electricity and running water were centuries yet to come. In the middle of the desert. Where "fuck you! I can barely survive on my own as-is I am NOT raising some other guy's child on account of your indiscretions!" 


The time and the place is important. It's important both to understand what they're saying and also to understand how it may no longer be applicable. 


So anyway, so far as I can tell, the Satanic Bible was to the Occult revival (read: Acid wave of the late 60s / early 70s) as Trump is to SJWs. And the Satanic Bible could just as well have been 272 pages of "lorem ipsum" repeated over and over. The message WAS the medium. The message was that: there is a book. Its name is The Satanic Bible. Says so right on the cover. See? And a certain type of person, being disenfranchised at a very young age from everything else will buy it, read it, and risk having to hide it from prying eyes no matter what it said. 


It was forbidden fruit. 


Partaking of it was the initiation. 


Owning a copy was the message. 


The contents? It actually didn't matter. 

It doesn't matter. And there's where ToSers totally miss the point! It's a psychology thing. Making it a spiritual thing concedes a complete and total lack of comprehension. 


We all know it's mostly plagiarized. And you know what? That also doesn't matter. It never did. What matters is that there's always going to be a certain type who, for example, study the female orgasm, proper ways to defecate, halal methods of slaughtering animals, how the allegorical sausage is made, and anything else that just isn't suited to converse about in mixed company. These people are "Satanists" - they just, by definition, have that morbid curiosity regaring how the world really works, and they don't need a church to re-affirm their place in society. They get along quite happily on their own. 


Pick something you have a hard time talking about, study it, compare it to prevailing sentiment, and there you go. 


i.e. Maybe eugenics is a good idea. Perhaps NAZIs were a lot less dangerous and far more sensible than communists. Maybe black people just aren't as smart as white people. Christ may have been terrorist. He also may have been a pussy. Perhaps - just maybe - there are only two genders, and people who think otherwise, just might have a few screws loose. Maybe there's no real difference between crack and cocaine other than the stigma. Flat out murder was normal in the US until the early 1900s. Heroin was legal up until the mid-60s in England. 


Whatever compels you to entertain radically unacceptable notions is what, I think, contributes to being a "Satanist". Having the gonads to act upon said entertained notions is what will, when society has its way with you after the fact, be forever considered Satanic. 


"We", unfortunately, don't get to pick or choose this mantel. Someone has to witness what it is you've done and called whatever that is or was the work of the devil. 


Member of anything? Absolutely not. You don't "belong" to a church... or a temple... or an "us". You don't belong to anything. Fundamentally, you don't belong. You're an outsider now and you always were. You don't pay dues, and you sure don't kiss any rings. You do as you do with neither compulsion nor justification. 


And if enough people keep doing as much, as bog intended, the devil will emerge - I promise you this.



A very long time ago - just shy of 22 and a neophyte to the corporate world - I was introduced to the corporation's long range planning team. These were old folk. In fact they were, at the time, still older than I am now by about 15 years. 


These were not the most tech-savvy people, but they knew things. They knew business. They knew operations. They knew the cycles. They've been around a while. They weren't schmoozers, either. These were veteran industrial engineers. Quick with numbers. Could dissect a trend graph just by looking at it and go "no, that doesn't look right - it says 3.5 million - 'can't be more than 2.7" and not just by pure numbers, either, but by actually having worked in said facility. They knew the outputs and building capacities cold. 


They lived, drank, ate, and breathed trends. Quantitative literacy the likes of which I haven't seen in anyone of my generation ever. They did stuff on regular calculators that you'd probably need a spreadsheet and some macros for.


What they did as a hobby was build classic cars - an endeavor that, in case you were not aware, takes a normal person 4-5 years from start to finish - sometimes even a decade. This is as important as it is relevant. 


They were surprisingly cool people - the sort of strange hobbit references and senses of humor you'd expect of any shy genius. I asked them what do you do? 


"We do long range planning" 


"Oh, what is that?"


"well, this is a multi-billion dollar corporation, and while there's an army of us handling the day to day / month to month / quarter to quarter operations, we here - because we've done the day to day / month to month / quarter to quarter deal - handle the longer term projects. Acquisition of aircraft, building of new facilities, expansion into other countries - things that take___ mmm___ more than a year to get done. We operate on seven year timelines. Every initiative you've ever heard on your level supports this broad picture - that's how we've stayed in business for over a century" 


At 22 I'm thinking that it's been forever since I was 15. I couldn't even relate to the person I was back then. If 15 year old me had a "long-range plan" for 22 year old me to follow, I'd go tell that virgin weirdO to kick rocks and go fuck himself. 


This is also why this "long range planning" group was populated by only a few and far older than I. You can teach a lot of things. How long a year really is isn't one of them. 


Hell! The 29 year old version of me would tell the 22 year old version of me also to go roundly fuck himself were he ever to come at him with a seven year plan. 


The 36 year old version... eh not so much. It's around then one starts getting a feel for the scope of what seven years really means. Its not a lot of years. There's understanding and there is wisdom. 


Everyone understands what seven years is. Not everyone is wise to it. That takes a few cycles. Sort of like running a marathon: we all know the distance, quantitatively - as an abstraction. ~26 miles. Qualitatively, not many could tell you as they've never done it. 


What's interesting about the seven year thing is that it also came up when I was 17 and very interested in this Earth Force environmental protection thing (which is normal for an adolescent, I think) - that both fortune 50 corporations and a sort of terrorist organization agree on the seven year rule is "neat" - but what they say is, as a rule of thumb, don't trust anyone you haven't known for more than seven years. 


My addition to this is this: if seven years is a long time for you, you're too young and stupid to even know what you're getting into. Seven years is nothing.


This also applies to relationships - the simple lovey dovey stuff.


Of course! When you first meet fireworks will go off and it'll be revelations times 20 every time you hit the sheets... for about nine months. As it turns out, this corporation that I more-than-work-for doesn't have a "short-term-planner" group. They afford seemingly good ideas to bubble up and dissolve on the off chance that something may stick and on the definite chance that there will be a whole write-up regarding lessons-learned when it inevitably doesn't. They also profit from mistakes. Thoroughly. It's the new entries with low pay that make them. 


What makes a relationship - in broad terms, be it man to woman, or innovation to function work, is___ years... (you're literally looking at years)... two at minimum. At least as many years as it takes for you to start looking at other people and still choose the option you previously selected. At this stage, even two is a little iffy - especially if at 0.8 you already started planning the wedding. That's a bad investment. You need someone - or an idea - or a concept - that's held solid for about three to four years. Something you're really "about" enough to have put a dent in your time on this planet for. 


And this all has to do with___ what's his name? Gott! With his Copernican Principle. If you do not know what this is, the gist is that you can determine how long something will be around with x percent of confidence by virtue of how long it has already been around. If you are intelligent and capable of long-range planning, you base your models around this and not what is new and fancy at the moment. 


If it's been around a while, it'll probably continue to be around awhile. If it's something new, well___ it might work, but not with any amount of confidence at first, and it's only time that builds confidence. 


Faith is anathema here as is elsewhere. 


Open question: what is your seven year plan? What was your seven year plan seven years ago? How did that turn out?



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