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  • Amethyst
    Amethyst created a new blog post
    How I ended up here (if anyone cares lol)
         I was raised by a very Baptist grandmother. I will always appreciate what she had done for me during her lifetime, but she was ver...
    May 30 '18
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    AK
    May 30 '18
    The back story sounds more or less par-for-the course. No one ever changes faith on account of losing a debate. Regarding the Bible's veracity: one man's contradiction is another man's "variation" - which is why pointing these sorts of things out goes nowhere quickly. As far as recommended books go: "The Flight of the Guaruda" by Keith Dowman is pretty good. Also "The Hermetic Tradition" by Julius Evola - actually, one can't go wrong with nearly anything authored by him.The back story sounds more or less par-for-the course. No one ever changes faith on account of losing a debate. Regarding the Bible's veracity: one man's contradiction is another man's "variation...See more
    Hexenmeister
    May 31 '18
    Dark books.org can help. By the way, how does it feel to have that weight lifted off of your shoulders?
    Amethyst
    Jun 1 '18
    I agree Ak I've heard other Satanist and occultist telling their experiences and a lot of them had similar back stories of having been raised Christian but feeling something wasnt right within the teachings or belief system of the Christian church. so I don't think I'm the only one. again I agree with you everyone has their own perspective and interpretation of the bible so some will defend it to the very end. thank you for the book reccomendations. Hexenmeister I honestly feel like I've unlocked my chains. I'm still trying to "reprogram" some of my thinking because after almost 25 years of basically being brainwashed...I still have some lingering irrational fears that I'm overcoming. I've been doing that by facing those fears. I'm pleased to inform you that I was not attacked by evil spirits while meditating or attempting a tarot reading. not sure if I did that right or if there even is a "right" or a "wrong" way. basically the main reason I did it was to show myself there's nothing to be afraid of. Thank you for the website reccomendation as well.I agree Ak I've heard other Satanist and occultist telling their experiences and a lot of them had similar back stories of having been raised Christian but feeling something wasnt right within the tea...See more
    Amethyst
    Jun 1 '18
    hahahahaha yeah I wish I would had one when the former preacher was trying to "churchify" me as he called it. I was a pretty rebellous teen and his solution was I should go to church regularly.
    Drloover
    Jun 20 '18
    I really enjoyed to read your journey, as someone from a similar background, I can totally understand the concept of ( getting punished) even for minor things like leaving some food in your dish, I can't argue that this made me a better person somewhat, still, it symbolized faith as fear, not love, and this is where Satanism is different, as it symbolizes acceptance of ourselves, and having a loving caring figure watching over you, whether this symbol is real or not, doesn't matter that much, as it is all an inner feeling after all!I really enjoyed to read your journey, as someone from a similar background, I can totally understand the concept of ( getting punished) even for minor things like leaving some food in your dish, I ca...See more
    Amethyst
    Jun 24 '18
    I agree it does symbolize faith as fear. I felt like i had to walk on egg shells and be sorry for everything.
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