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  • samowens84 commented on their blog post
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    Zero    Human consciousness is a bottomless pit that I dared not gaze into. It is much easier to graze the surface, pay bills, fuck, ...
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    Oct 4
    Actually I am impressed. By AA you mean Alchoholics Anonymous right? I am familiar with both AAs FYI. I often avoid site poetry by the living as experience with the old Black Flame and Green Egg has taught me, but this piece has surprised me.
    Oct 5
    How so?
    Oct 5
    Yes Alcoholic's Anonymous. Got free of that shit lol
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    Oct 5
    I am in a facebook group for LHP people in recovery. I am not an alcoholic but have worked in substance abuse treatment as a CADAC. I understand how difficult it can be to navigate the whole 12 step thing what with such hi jinks as the lords prayer to close meetings. Getting through that mess and remaining LHP or atheist is a considerable accomplishment in my book. Often poetry in LHP, Thelemic, and Pagan media can be a bit like Christian rock and roll. When a poem is actually enjoyable to read I am impressed.I am in a facebook group for LHP people in recovery. I am not an alcoholic but have worked in substance abuse treatment as a CADAC. I understand how difficult it can be to navigate the whole 12 step t...See more
    Oct 5
    I overcame it through extreme chaos magic that took incredible magical power. No longer any need nor compulsion. For me I've discovered "addiction" is simply an ego disfunction that needs to be reset or managed. 12 step programs offer a fascist approach in the guise of "freedom." Adversity and isolation is the only true path to recovery from addiction for the Satanist. If i create my own god, then I am truly independent. However, A.A. and other such bullshit creates a meta god that feeds off of dysfunction and has the paradox of deflecting the problem, but never solves it. A.A. tells the truth of its program, but only halfway. Yes, it depends on people accepting that they will never fully recover control, and so they never do and so foster a mystical dependency on the program. That doesn't mean it does not preserve a sense of happiness and purpose. There is nothing wrong with the program so RHP mystically inclined. For some it is truly the only route to recovery. However, i cannot be assimilated because of my questioning nature, so while it helped for a limited amount of time leaving was inevitable. I had an isolate mystical and chaotic experience that broke those chains and brought me one step closer to god-hood. Now I have recently discovered I had already created several Archetypical gods that have empowered me. So I don't need the program. I have recovered.I overcame it through extreme chaos magic that took incredible magical power. No longer any need nor compulsion. For me I've discovered "addiction" is simply an ego disfunction that needs to...See more
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  • samowens84 commented on their blog post
    Occult Fetish- The root cause of "unfulfillment."


    "It is bad enoughto hear of the 'great teachings' of Aleister Crowley-who hypocritically called himsel by the Christian devil's number, yet steadf...
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    Oct 4
    Flowers of evil is what it was
    Oct 4
    My poem is the end result of some chaos magic I had been doing. So I respect Crowley's approach on that point
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    Oct 4
    Sorry I was a bit salty concerning some open displays of hostility on this and other sites. I will look at the poem. Keep in mind though I do like Crowley he is not so much a father or guru but rather a creepy uncle who helps me get beer and porn but I would never pass out in his house, at least not without lube. (apologies to Terrance and Phillip) My car was in the shop and I must admit to having some rum while waiting for it to be fixed. Alternator and gasket...set me back a few.Sorry I was a bit salty concerning some open displays of hostility on this and other sites. I will look at the poem. Keep in mind though I do like Crowley he is not so much a father or guru but rather...See more
    Oct 4
    That's why I included it. To trigger some occultists to attention. But if looked at deeper, someone might get something out of it.
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    Oct 4
    I get it now. I try not to be afraid of admitting a mistake or inaccuracy though sometimes my Charlie Sheen style bloated ego can make that difficult.
    Oct 5
    I have that problem too. I usually get it when I have a blind spot. It's a good thing to feel uncomfortable. It's a step closer to a higher plane
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  • samowens84 replied in forum topic
    Tension Between Theistic Satanists & Atheistic Satanists
    Lately, I've been seeing a lot of shit-flinging between theistic Satanists ans atheistic Satanists. Personally, I am a Lavey-inspired theistic satanis...
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    Sometimes I have a blind spot and its a sign of progress when i "lose sleep." Not because of what th...
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  • samowens84 created a new blog post
    The Virtue of Betrayal

    People have often heard a friend/partner/parent tell them that they will love you forever. And guess what, the dumb fucks believed them. Not that th...
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    Preparation for Halloween Story
    https://www.sacred-texts.com/egy/bat/index.htm
    I'm going to write a short story that I will post on Halloween. This is the second half of my inspirati...
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  • samowens84 commented on their blog post
    Letters to a fellow devil
    Lucy i am getting personal gratification in spoiling any illusions or spells "God" may have placed on you. Let's break down what Satan is. Satan is th...
    Sep 21
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    Sep 21
    "Snowflake" as a description I would agree with you. However, it can also just be a weapon against any opinion remotely liberal. Like racism or racist as a description I believe describes some facets of reality. The problem tends to arise when people simply point out cracks in ideology they have ready made weapons to discourage dissent. Not an issue for me personally. Just something to be aware of. If the price for accomplishing any goal I desire means social shaming I have no fucks given. Call me what you want as I destroy you for getting in my way. As said elsewhere "I know my rights is the cry of the worthless." https://www.churchofsatan.com/satanic-victims.php"Snowflake" as a description I would agree with you. However, it can also just be a weapon against any opinion remotely liberal. Like racism or racist as a description I believe describes so...See more
    Sep 21
    However on the subjects of "echo chambers" sometimes agreement allows for more honest exploration of an idea. Someone disagreeing might just not have any concept of the reality one is describing and that is OK too. Alienation and debate helps to point out blind spots. However, that can get tiring and can be limiting in its own way.However on the subjects of "echo chambers" sometimes agreement allows for more honest exploration of an idea. Someone disagreeing might just not have any concept of the reality one is descri...See more
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    Sep 21
    It all depends on how the debate takes place. I am extremely liberal but I have two friends on this site that are extremely conservative. We treat one another with respect and if we feel that we need to debate politics, we explain our position and allow the other to state theirs./ I do not need to convert anybody to my way of thinking...they can take it or leave it, but I will not be silent. As long as they follow the same rule then problems rarely arise.It all depends on how the debate takes place. I am extremely liberal but I have two friends on this site that are extremely conservative. We treat one another with respect and if we feel that we need ...See more
    Sep 21
    Of course. Someone always looking to call someone something is usually looking for someone to own something they can't handle. Being a conservative, liberal or whatever the fuck as I see it is perfectly compatible with satanism as I see it, and as you say, echo chambers can make it easy to overlook the cracks in ideology. Like other things for me its indulgence not compulsion. Sometimes I just want a pleasant conversation to magnify my understanding of a concept, or I need to be challenged. I find its circumstantial and pragmatic and I am comfortable in my own skin and experience to discern which is to my benefit.Of course. Someone always looking to call someone something is usually looking for someone to own something they can't handle. Being a conservative, liberal or whatever the fuck as I see it is perfect...See more
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    Sep 21
    Yea, lately people seem to be itching to label people. The whole sjw/racism dichotomy is so boring. I'd much rather discuss occultism or transhumanism as I care much more about those issues. Homophobia is silly too, but that part is easy for me as most of my real world friends are Thelemites and the original "prophet" of Thelema was Bisexual himself and the O.T.O. had chapters and camps being lead by women before women could even vote so both issues seem really pointless to fret about for me.Yea, lately people seem to be itching to label people. The whole sjw/racism dichotomy is so boring. I'd much rather discuss occultism or transhumanism as I care much more about those issues. Homophobi...See more
    Sep 21
    Me too. The more I felt myself understanding the world and the deeper my experiences in satanism became the less stake I felt in the culture wars. Dont know if youve seen "The Devil Wears Prada" there is a scene where Meranda Priestly (main fashion god) where she tells her skeptical assistant that although she thinks she made a choice that exempted her from the fashion industry when it didnt. This is also argued by people who say that anything you do is political, therefore you should be political like them. One of my friends described it like Atari reasoning: "everything you do is political *boop* therefore politics is inescapable *boop* therefore you must be political like me *beep* *boop.* My response is OK, addendum made, I am not concerned. Response: you have to be! Me: Fuck you. No I don't. Final weapon: you're a *racist* *race traitor* *bitch* or whatever the fuck. I just laugh and twist the knife in some way in response.Me too. The more I felt myself understanding the world and the deeper my experiences in satanism became the less stake I felt in the culture wars. Dont know if youve seen "The Devil Wears Prada&q...See more
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  • samowens84 commented on their blog post
    Satanism post


    My thoughts on Satanism    Many terms in Satanism have become cliché. “Right Hand Path”-here to expressed as RHP- has become synoni...
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    Sep 4
    Lol real occult shit ;)
    Sep 4
    High-lighting the text helps make things easier. :).
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  • samowens84 commented on their blog post
    MGTOW: The New Liberal Faggotry
    MGTOW is the new rallying cry for cucks and pussys. For those who do not know the acronym stands for "men going their own way." Sounds attractive to a...
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    Sep 2
    Not a trump supporter. I'm not political. If you look closely I'm attacking mgtow. Either way you're not my target. However I don't owe anybody's feelings special consideration, and I feel free to be as "highly offensive" as I desire. Don't give a fuck.Not a trump supporter. I'm not political. If you look closely I'm attacking mgtow. Either way you're not my target. However I don't owe anybody's feelings special consideration, and I feel free to be ...See more
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  • samowens84 replied in forum topic
    Stupidity and useless humans
    Its fucking ridiculous how pitiful dumb ignorant just useless waste of life or better said tomb waiting space that a being of higher intelligence and ...
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    Quote from Alwayzfaded1 Its fucking ridiculous how pitiful dumb ignorant just useless waste of ...
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    Aug 29
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  • samowens84 commented on SamaelSwine's blog post
    The Sinister, Hidden, Adversaries
    The left hand path is that part of esoteric mysteries that promises concrete results. It whispers of horrors and pleasures conceived in the magicians ...
    Aug 20
    Pretty informational, I my self first heard of the Assassination part while reading in the B.M.R. (Basic Military Requirements) paper work assignments in regards to the origins of the standard Right-Handed Salute that is most commonly known as Assassination by dagger was pretty common & most individuals were Right-Handed (either by choice or force). I have also heard that among many old-fashioned families (specifically Hispanic), they are superstitious & against having their children left-handed to the point that they force them to be Right-Handed.Pretty informational, I my self first heard of the Assassination part while reading in the B.M.R. (Basic Military Requirements) paper work assignments in regards to the origins of the standard Right-H...See more
    Aug 21
    Yeah I think that's all correct, yet more reasons why "the left handed path" is an apt metaphor for Satanism; society wants desperately to change it, and fears it.
    Aug 21
    I've heard many descriptions of what people think left hand path means or rehash some history or religious notions. One explanation I like is one that describes a Hindu sect that sought to gain power by giving in to self-destructive behavior and so mastering it.I've heard many descriptions of what people think left hand path means or rehash some history or religious notions. One explanation I like is one that describes a Hindu sect that sought to gain power ...See more
    Aug 25
    I don't see the metaphorical link between self-destructive behaviour and the left-hand path? Enlighten me if you would be so kind.
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