Right, my first blog post since returning here was mainly telling of what I've been up to in other aspects of life, mainly in terms of my career. While I feel it's important to talk about what I've been up to since I've been away, I feel I need to talk more about my journey along the left hand path.
See, when I first joined, I'd already self identified as a LaVeyan Satanist, and I was content with that notion. However, due to occurrences in my life over the years, I have looked at other philosophical and occult practices. Initially, this started with a book called A Little Light On The Spiritual Laws by Diana Cooper, which I discovered in the summer of 2011. Now judging by a lot of the content of said book, it does line up with RHP teachings, however, some of the ideas mentioned seemed to make sense from a LHP standpoint. I know some people may disagree with me on that notion, but regardless, I feel that this book is a good tool to use in my own life, even if I'm cherry picking what I want from it.
Skip to early 2012, and I had started a romantic relationship with someone I saw (and still see to this day) as what one would consider a soulmate. Her path was of Paganism, and that sort of spiritual/religious teaching always interested me to a certain extent, although I never felt compelled to research it properly. Fast forward to around mid-late 2014 (after some undesirable events took place in my life), and the topic of Luciferianism came up in conversation with another friend of mine. I got super intrigued by it, and I decided to research it. I read The Bible Of The Adversary, and I gotta say, from what I got from it, I genuinely liked.
Move to the following year, and the topic of sigil magick caught my attention after watching a speech from comic artist/writer Grant Morrison. This kind of magickal practice greatly appealed to me, due to the fact that there was no need for theatric rituals and paraphernalia, but only for simple tools as pen, paper and desire. I then looked for books on sigil magick, and the first I discovered was Practical Sigil Magic by Frater U.D (otherwise known as Ralph Tegtmeier). Once I'd read that book front to back, I'd become intrigued by Chaos Magick, and my next book to start on was Liber Null & Psychonaut. Sadly, I haven't read through much of Liber Null, but since I rejoined, I want to pick up where I left off.
Another book I acquired was Crowley's The Book Of The Law. Honestly, after my first (and as of yet only) read through, it left me thinking "The fuck?"
I may have to give it another go, just to see if I can make head or tail of it.
So, as it stands now, I don't feel I can pigeonhole myself in any specific LHP teaching, but I've not forgotten my roots. But I do feel LaVeyan Satanism mixed with Luciferianism is the closest I can get to pinpointing what part of the path that fits me best. As it stands, I'm currently rediscovering where I stand on the left hand path, so I'm having to go back to basics and go from there. Hopefully I'll find out what truly fits me for definite, but I have a hunch of what it is regardless. I'd just rather be 100% sure though.
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