when I was about 12 or so I started the edgy occult phase and since I had the internet at my disposal I could google all sorts of weird shit and download PDFs of books. I liked the idea of black magick and then moved onto being a Laveyan LOL...
after that i sort of just started doing chaos magick and my aunt gave me some runes, and if you know anything about norse anticosmology (which most ppl don't that's kinda why i'm here to see if anyone is into that shit) then you will know that gullveig is the TRUE teacher of the runes. idk i feel like anyone here along the typical anticosmic currents will have at the very least read vexior's books??? i will explain a little more ab this later for whoever is being subjected to this incoherent bullshit
my aunt was a freyjaswoman aka she had fulltrui with freyja aka she had a strong bond with this particular entity and an altar to her. she was very obsessed with our norwegian heritage and vikings and shit of the sort. for some reason her giving me the runes made me want to make some sort of commitment to them. my aunt told me that i was going to be an asatruar basically and she initiated me into it with literature about the gods. i went with it for quite some time until i had reached the part in my journey (if u will) where i was supposed to be mentored by either thor or loki. up until then i had felt a sort of pull to more evil shit, i don't really know how to describe it other than that. i wanted to do wicked things. i had frequent visions of a black dragon when i was high or drunk or both or sleep deprived or on the verge of sleep. long story short i chose loki as my muse blah blah.
in thursatru or jotnaru there are a few main concepts that link up with anticosmic satanist philosophy. instead of the void, you have the chasm ginnungagap. instead of lucifer and lilith, you have loki and gullveig. another parallel is that lilith is exiled where she is able to breed thousands of horrible monsters just like gullveig. they both refuse to submit especially to men, things like that. and they are giants. that's why it's sometimes called jotnaru or jotunaru but both jotun and thurs mean that a creature is descended from giants. the giants are created from icy rime and they exist to be wrathful against their own cosmic creator. blah blah blah if you understand what i'm rambling on about or would like to talk me hmu because i don't wanna waste too much time here.
TL;DR gullveig is the teacher of wicked women and i want to meet more of those women
