Have you ever? from SilverAgate's blog

Have you ever?

Have you ever tried to scream but you never uttered a sound?

Your voice once so clear now is spell bound.

Have you ever felt trapped, feeling like there's no escape?

and the past leaves you wondering if it's just too late.

Have you ever been so lost, you ask the darkness, "Is this reality?"

But as you slowly look up and realize you recognize everything you see.

Have you ever seen your future far ahead in the morning mist?

I did.

And I finally saw what lies in store for me as I calmly slash my wrist.

Have you ever wished so hard to be somebody you know?

So you can quit pretending to be your every day 'Average Joe'.

Have you ever wanted acceptance so badly you just couldn’t live?

And you wish someone could have seen you for who you were, not what you did.

And as my last seconds glide slowly by, I make one final wish . . .

I wish people wouldn’t judge others for their past, what they did.

That they would just let it go, accept it, let them live. 

This expresses how I felt a years ago.  I was thinking about my past and some of my old bottled up feelings . . . and let them go.  So, no I'm not going to kill myself . . . EVER!!! Is just a way to express.