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I will not mention my personal use of Psychedelics, since I consider that a personal and private lifestyle. Nor am I interested in attracting any unwanted attention, since this blog pretty much goes public. But I will share my liberal attitudes on my thoughts of the Psychedelic culture.

As a young kid I started to develop a big interest in Psychedelic usage, as well as the popularity of Psychedelics that has surrounded the counter culture back in the 60's. A lot of people that I've known who are about my age or younger have partook in psychedelics themselves. I would say that you are now seeing a big resergence on Psychedelic usage. For my generation weed is pretty much the big thing (which is entirely separate from the psychedelic category) however it isn't just weed that is the big thing. Nowadays Acid and Shrooms seems to be another popularity with some of my generation. We hear many stories based on psychedelic propaganda which was developed by the conservative establishment back in the 60's.

The most common stories that I've heard surrounding psychedelics are getting "flashbacks," or getting "perma fried." Some people to this day have bought into the whole psychedelic propaganda. And it's amazing how much critical thinking is never used to break the propaganda myths. When you've known people who have personally used mind altering substances, as well as people like Zach Black who has even broken those myths, including documentaries on psychedelics, you already began to analyze it and come up with your own conclusion that these anti-psychedelic myths are bull shit. Now don't get me wrong, any drug that is abused can probably mentally fuck you up one way or the other. However, if you yourself have tried these mind altering substances you will come to those same conclusions that disproves government propaganda.

I am a big supporter on psychedelic usage including the benefits that psychedelics has on the individual. Certain psychedelics can open up one's subconscious of the very hidden that one has kept away. It makes you face your own very subconscious. Sometimes the things that you face on your psychedelic trip can be negative, and of course you don't wanna face the negative of your subconscious. But at the same time when you face that very negativity of the hidden, you began to come to your own self-realization of your own self. It makes you challenge that very self, it makes you question that very self, it raises that awareness of that very self-transformation. It gives you the question if you want to accept those changes within the very self to improve on. 

Psychedelics isn't for everyone. It is for the very few that has that openness to reject the status quo, and that's willing to see these substances themselves. I personally think that if one is in possession of these substances, they shouldn't get arrested from that. These substance's can have a positive impact on the individual self, if the individual is responsible on having a purpose by using these mind altering substances. I personally do not have a problem if one uses these substances recreationally. But in my personal opinion some of these substance's isn't really meant to be recreational at all. Rather it can become an alternative to psychological therapy for the individual. It can form the very fabric of the individuals critical thinking process as well as one's spiritual or philosophical foundation. Every trip is different on the individual. Some can have that recreational experience when indulging with these mind altering substances. And some who try to do it recreationally can get the opposite result where it focuses more on the psychology of one's mind. Don't get me wrong in the psychedelic world, you do have a group that I call the "psychedelic elitists" who believe that psychedelics should only be used for therapy. I personally disagree with that form of elitism. Yes, not everyone should use psychedelics. But I strongly advocate an open mindedness on psychedelic usage on one's individuality. If someone uses it recreationally be my guest, if someone uses it therapeutically, be my guest. I don't believe in dictating to others on that elitist view on psychedelics.

Why do I strongly advocate on finding your own homeland? Before we jump to this, I will clear a few things out concerning the subject of finding a "homeland."  Homeland for me has nothing to do on having ones own racial homeland (Neo Nazis or white supremacists are known for advocating the topic on having a homeland for themselves) rather it is about finding one's own secular homeland. Some of you may have never grown up in a conservative evangelical bible belt, and some of you may have and are still living in that kind of a bible belt. 

California is known for being a Democratic Blue state. But here where I am at, I am in one of the most unusual counties in Southern California where its Evangelical Conservative Bible Central. As a matter of fact I like to nickname my place as the Bible Belt of Southern California. As I've mentioned on my previous post "that some of us may have had bad experiences that drew us to Satanism and the Left Hand Path,"  this subject of growing up in the bible belt can fit the criteria for some of us. Having gone to an Evangelical Private School as a kid, I pretty much know the fanatical mindset of an Evangelical. They have this attitude that their religion is "the one true religion" or "one true God," and that all other religions that do not fit their viewpoints are regarded as false and evil. They have this Third Reich attitude on cleansing the world or the people themselves. One of the fanatical sides that I've experienced from being around Evangelicals is on not being considered "Christian enough," just because I never gravitated towards Christian rock. Being a young child I was indoctrinated in that environment, and no matter how much I truly believed in their faith I was not regarded to be as hardcore enough to be considered a "Christian."  

I have no problem what one practice's or believes in, so long if its a personal and private thing. As a matter of fact I have a 36 year old friend/acquaintance who is Catholic and we get along quite well. We never bring up religion at each others faces. Religion for him is probably considered a very personal and private thing. To me you can say the same as well. The problem that I have is when one commercializes one's beliefs and assumes they can own a city/town by taking it over and having this mindset on dominating others/the world with their religion as "the one true way." For some of you who live in a place like that and who have had that kind of a bad traumatic experience, I wouldn't want to remain there. As a matter of fact I would want to be in a place as far away from that environment as best I can. That is where my advocacy on finding one's own homeland comes into the picture.

I believe in finding a secular homeland without the Evangelicals. Where religion is seen as something private and personal. Where it's considered rude to dictate one's faith in front of a persons face "that you need a spiritual foundation."  Where you can freely walk on dirt, without seeing the writings of "Jesus Loves You," or "Jesus Loves Me."  A homeland without seeing Crosses on every mountain close to the freeway, a homeland that fits one's own attitudes whether it is political or not. I'd rather live in a place with a bunch of extreme progressives than being in a place like that. For some who have the hostility and the hate as well as the opposite points of views in an Evangelical dominating conservative environment, wouldn't you want to move to your homeland where you no longer feel these strong animosities as you are feeling now? That is my question for some to think about.

As a 23 year old college student who is soon going to turn 24 this month, I will soon start attending University after finishing up community college. I understand that attending University in a conservative state outside of California is going to be a totally different environment for me. My parents on the other hand are hoping that I can be part of the "mainstream,"  once I start attending University. The simple answer that I have on that false hope is simply a "no, I have no interest in being part of the mainstream."  Satanic philosophy for me has always been about being yourself and refusing to bow down to the Herd culture. Satanism for me has always been about being true to your character. Now don't get me wrong, in any kind of environment I can play politics if I have to. But when it comes down to being complacent, that is something I will not bow to. In a workplace environment of course I would conform to my boss to keep my job. But outside from the work environment, I am who I am. What my parents do not understand about me, is I have no interest in being "accepted."  As someone who practices the Left Hand Path, I see "acceptance," as a form of weakness. To describe my analogy of the Left Hand Path is this, the Left Hand Path is about transforming oneself who fly's freely, who chooses to be unfettered from society itself. 

It is about you being a free individual. Some of us who are attracted to the Left Hand Path have had certain bad past experiences that got us there. To quote from Nikolas Schreck himself "If you are drawn to the left hand path, it's usually because you've had some kind of life experience that has shocked you, awakened you."  My parents have always hoped their son would grow out of Satanism. Like any parent, they assumed it was some kind of a phase. And they still have this false hope that I might one day change and dump what I practice and believe in. But that isn't going to happen. The quote from Schreck pretty much sums it up. 

I love the Left Hand Path and putting Satanic philosophy to practice. I have no interest in going back to being part of the docile sheep. My personal Life experience that has "shocked and awakened me," will never go away. That life experience was simply one that was a positive transformation for me. I acknowledge the Black Flame, that very gift of intelligence that man has ignored. For some of us that has had a bad life experience, we simply chose to acknowledge that Black Flame within us. We enjoy the sensations of this very gift of Freedom that this Black Flame holds within us. Why go back to conform to a persons wish, if that was a part of that Life experience that awakened you to tread along to the Path of Darkness? 

And finally I will leave a last quote from the man himself, "A Satanist should not allow himself to be programmed by others. He should fight tooth and nail against it, for that is the greatest enemy to his freedom of spirit."  That is where I stand. I can be a politician if I have to on anytime of the given day. But when it comes to dealing with someone who tries to dictate to me on what I should and shouldn't do in my own personal lifestyle, that is something I will fight tooth and nail against.