My question is, what would feel better; conjuring bullshit to trick yourself into feeling better or hunting down the dead beat son-of-a-bitch and killing him?
Also, actions are more satanic than sentiments.
You can become like Audrey Horne's son in Twin Peaks The Return. You can run over little kids and beat up your parents.
You need to have some "evil" reasons to call evil in. I found cursing those who don't deserve it works fine. Curse the innocent children to die of cancer and I guarentee you something will happen. You will get a stranger.
You gotta threaten the children and such.
There is nothing more pure than a madness that see's no kinship with the family member as you cut their fucking heads off, metaphor or otherwise. You too will want the streets to flow with the blood of the sanctified. The tears of another's hurt is a beautiful and sadistic drug once you make that transistion.
You can choose any evil societal archetype too. I chose a Twin Peaks theme. Stranger Bob is now me and I am of the Black lodge. Granted that's mainly been using family member's emotions as leverage to kill what a high on life fuckwit would consider some intangible "spirit" that dwells in everyone.
What follows is a double life where you notch victims in a dresser like so my tropheys on a wall. The sorrow of loss and hurt feelings can give you enough warm and fuzzies to serve your ultimate karma. To be the example the demonologist fucktard uses as a cautionary tale of what can follow.
Meanwhile, you can still the cheerleader coke whore and kill the cousin they bring in on season 2 that looks exactly like Laura Palmer. Fun things can happen in torture boxcars.
And it is also retarded because it does shit like put an "e" at the end of metaphor.
I don't need empiracism anymore because I am spiritual. I do not need valid causal connections now because I am spirtual. I don't need to wear protective gloves to touch exposed wires because I have faith it wont effect me because I am spiritual now.