@Aborior,
For myself I was of your opinion 8 years ago.
You're sick in the head, man. And you coat your craziness in some avant-garde discourse, which can give an impression that you know what you're talking about though it's crap if you scratch any deeper.
In a nutshell, Satanism for you is shaking your fist at the sky, obstinate and obsessive harboring of the eternal grudge that never leads to its conclusion that would be victorious for you. It's nothing else than the sign of helplessness. Your modus operandi is endless and fruitless bitching. "I'm pissed as fuck, I can't do anything about the shit that pisses me off but I will remain pissed because this is how I express the adversary in me." I won't even bother to ask how you "subvert" Christian ideas in your neighborhood and whether it's as productive as banging your head against the wall.
To set the record straight, Satanism has never been about becoming a martyr for your ideas even if it parades itself as "antinomian." Subversion, if present, is just a tool for self-liberation and self-development, not the cause you live and would be willing to die for. If anyone gets destroyed, it should be your enemy, not you.
