Just venting.
I am so tired of lying to everyone about who I truly am. It is draining. Earlier this year, I dyed my hair black and got an office job. I went from San Francisco street punk to a respectable member of the community almost overnight. It is shocking!
Every single day, I put on my prissy little outfits, catch the train, and grab something caffeinated on my way to the office. Everyone thinks I am such a nice girl. It disgusts me! They have no idea who I really am or what I stand for. I am so tired of being fake to people all the time. I am a dark, creative, unorthodox, eccentric devil worshipper with destructive tendencies. They think I am a shy, sweet, gentle kitten.
Ultimately, my desire is to find a platonic soulmate, with whom I can share all these darker aspects of myself, not just my socially acceptable facade. Someone I do not need to hide my true self from. No more pretending. I am sick of pretending. I just want to be myself with someone.
FYI, I am not online here very often. The best way to contact me is zombieforsatan@gmail. Let's be friends.
Dear Satan (and Eris and everyone else),
Thank you for the problems I face today. They are better than the ones I faced yesterday. May tomorrow's problems be even more to my liking.
Thank you for the opportunity to run and catch the train. Few things make me feel more alive than sprinting so I am not late to work. That sigh of relief as I hop on board is extremely heartfelt.
Thank you for answering prayers. Your sense of humor really is impeccable.
Thank you for friendships both near and afar. It is nice to know someone out there won't run me over with their vehicle in the zombie apocalypse.
Thank you for coffee, whether it is good or bad. I really enjoy waking up to caffeine every day.
Thank you for squirrels. I like their tails and they give me a lot to think about.
Waah! The original post vanished along with my PMs.
Creepy, morbid girl in search of Satanic soul-sibling.
Do you enjoy glaring at noisy people while reading in coffee shops? Do you poke dead things with a stick to the shock and horror of all around you? Do you make your own foods, clothes, medicines or other stuff? Do you prepare for the end of the world as we know it and hope it happens? Are you friendly, but awkward? Do you have an obscene, offensive, profane sense of humor? Are you a legendary drunken brawler? Do you enjoy deep, meaningful conversations over lots of food? Do you collect knives and weapons like women collect purses and shoes? Do you laugh hysterically in crowded theaters at inappropriate times?
If you answered yes to three or more of these questions, I want to meet you.
About me: I can be found in coffee shops with a pile of books, harvesting plants off the trail, or playing darts in a dingy dive bar. I am socially liberal and my political views can only be described as Collapsitarian. If you are with me during the Z-Apocalypse, your odds of survival go way up. I always stick up for my friends. If someone gets in your face, I will rain hell on them. I expect the same in return. If you are sad, I will feed you chocolate. The good kind.
My other side: I can be spiteful and I hold a grudge. I have this talent for blurting stuff out and creating awkward situations. When this happens, I blame it on Tourette's. When I am sad, I grab a bottle of Jack and cry in the bath. I have paranoid tendencies and a small persecution complex. I also have a strong distaste for authority.
Props to you if you are still reading this! If this has not set off a million red flags and it resonates with you, let me know! If you are in my area, I would love to meet. We might have a lot of fun. We can go for long walks on the beach and poke dead things together.
Hello to whoever is reading this! Hello and hugs!
I am here because I have trouble connecting with others. I crave genuine, meaningful connections in which I do not have to hide a huge part of my self. I am tired of lying and concealing my beliefs and thoughts. I wish to bond with fellow souls.
I am open to anything real from penpals to coffee shop buds to a new best friend. I have a lot of hobbies. They include writing poetry, plant identification, coin collecting, learning languages, and making stuff. I can keep it light or go as dark as you are willing to take me. Just be genuine and give me the gift of acceptance. I will return what I am given.
I am so happy to have joined this site! I already had the best chat with someone that I've had in months. I am convinced this works. If you took the time to read all this, I am flattered. Feel free to say hi if any of this resonates with you. We might have a lot of fun together.
