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If ever satan needs me to do something it will be done. I think that goes with believing in something. It keeps phoney people out for example how christ you just have to repent or baptized but people do the same things over again and it makes a weird congregation of people who most likely would only meet at church. I think I can feel satan though on a more spiritual feeling at first I thought I was crazy but I use to have stomach problems that have mostly gone away and this is stomach problems for years ago. I guess from stress but since changing my name and being more active I been feeling better as time goes. Sometimes I think I should do things faster and I would if I knew what to do. I hear a voice saying I should "leave" and I'm thinking like leave who/what and how. I hear these voices all the time since I was 18 it's also lately been talking about killing theirself. I'm not sure who it is but it all started (the voices) around the time I started dating this Asian girl I met at a has station where I use to work by in Washington state. We dated for like 3years I loved her but the more I'd be around her the less I could stand being around her. Not relationship wise but it felt like my soul was afraid of her and I don't know why. It felt like she was gonna try and have me killed (maybe we were associated with gangs) now this was long before I changed my name and I had a regular Christian name but was atheist at the time. I don't think I would be Satanist if I stayed with her though that's for sure so maybe it was all for the better.