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Iblis
I fail to comprehend how anyone can sit idly by and let any religion flourish. Is anyone here truly familiar with the number 666? It translates from Hebrew as Kaiser Neron or Caesar Nero. Nero himself stated that when the human race put more faith in it's gods than itself, the world would surely crumble. I hear even other Satanists say " let them believe what they wish, it doesn't effect me." On the contrary, it effects you more than you know. I have several great examples of how the Abrahamic God holds power over you all. For instance, your words are not considered valid in the court of law unless you take an oath on their sacred book. Every politician elected so far, whether right wing or left, believes in a talking snake, burning bush, and that mankind came from two people.  We wonder why they aren't efficient in office, but we elect them, knowing the believe insane shit like that?! Lastly, the currency you spend says that you trust in their God. Whether you do or do not is irrelevant as one thing is for certain, you need the money that says you do. Without it, you can't live. If that's not power, then wtf is?!


Iblis Oct 8 '17 · Rate: 3.50 · Comments: 84
sonofject Mod
*Originally published on my blog on the old SIN site, 2011-2012 thereabouts.

I've often been questioned, asked candidly even, about why I chose to label myself a Satanist when I don't really adhere to any religion. This is kind of akin to asking me personally why I chose a life path that compels me to thrive on conflict, reject the notion of 'nomos' (law), and cultivate the mindset of the adversary--when in reality--I could have chucked all those realizations and just moved with the tide of things, having everything handed to me and accepting my lot in life, predestined yet directionless. My perception of religious belief is similar to the latter. Belief, to the religious, is often equated to loyalty and conviction (faith). I always make a distinction in the question: Does a fundamentally religious person dwell more on whether their beliefs are true or whether they're going to be true to their beliefs?

I suppose, from my life experiences, one can discern that some of the desires and goals I wanted to achieve were constructive, but somehow I was always drawn to a sort of 'destructive' tendency (call it a hidden desire or disposition within myself) to walk the path of transgression. For me, this had its beginnings after looking inward, cultivating my anger and guilt from turning my back on religion, and fostering a mindset of learning without imposition. To not look upon transgression as a stigma but rather a positive realization of thriving from experience and overcoming adversity--this process always starts internally and for some may never be externalized. It's the effect of fire, of antisocial implosion, a raw conflict of the mind that creates through destruction.

Constructive goals, such as finding order and organization in my life without placing the self secondary (my own concepts of 'god' and 'pantheon'), or discovering insight through learning and creating, became primary motivations. I reaped many of the social rewards and benefits of being constructive in this way. Yet within me always lay a certain frame of mind that ran contrary to this. Not a type of solipsism or misanthropy, but more of a destructive human animal tendency that wasn't detrimental to the self. This was never a passive-aggressive impulse as I experienced it. In some types of conflict, I can only simply describe it as an emotional, somewhat carnal perception, like the feeling one has when they have the urge to violently spit on something. It goes beyond socially imploding or going against the flow. It's a natural, carnal reaction to the ignorance (and lack of comprehension) expressed by those cloistered and fraught with holding religion as a personality descriptor and adhering to a 'divine plan'. To the religious, the concept of Satan cannot be understood apart from the dichotomy of good and evil. To manifest an adversarial disposition, from the satanist, there must be a clear understanding of this separation of ideology. 

 In this context, one can perceive the abstract interpretation of Satan as a 'conflict', a principle of separation. It entails a symbolic expression of man's duplicitous human instinct and nature. A representation of two distinct human qualities: One embraces amorality, physical indulgence, will to power (insofar as an acute awareness of the power of destruction to manifest progress), and the desire to transgress standards of morality or ethical behavior. The other is a quality of detachment within the self, a desire to transcend human and physical needs. To willingly suspend disbelief and explore magic and asceticism, in order to heighten one's intuitive awareness of the world around them. 

This dichotomy is often attributed to higher or lower aspects of human nature, and the ability of the human mind to hold opposing ideals sacrosanct. Aspects of human instinct considered 'lower' are often feared and misunderstood as evil qualities when determining meaning, so the symbolism and connotation within Satanism naturally defines a sort of 'carnal adversarial' human instinct that is not 'god' centered.

I intuit the concept of betterment through conflict. I accept and understand the duplicity of inherent human nature, enough to intuit strength and weakness in the self. Perhaps this is a byproduct of being nurtured in an environment of lawlessness and counterculture, enough so to recognize the polar separation of ideas that manifest 'satanic' conflict.

Insidious imposition of religion rarely fazes me. I root out the deceit and turn it against an individual concept, each and every time. Imposition means that one does not respect my freedom. The limitations of faith-based belief, the esoteric codes and double standards (hidden under 'occult practice'), reveal a fundamental shackle of self-deceit: One is too weak to live with doubt and conflict. One is too weak to own responsibility. Many cannot see how this kind of faith bolsters these weaknesses.

To the pragmatist, and the satanist, it's quite simple to reduce this weak-willed nonsense to a childlike false sense of entitlement. It boggles my mind that some socially inept adults can be as weak minded as children when reacting to doubt and conflict. A thin mask of self-divinity (believing you are your own god) can hardly be construed as a carnal/satanic attribute when there is no substance. To be enamored of the concept does not liberate one from the reality of external influence and praxis. As a seeker of knowledge (in the carnal and adversarial sense), to resonate with form is easy. To resonate with substance, not so easy. 


by sonofject

sonofject Sep 30 '15 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 48 · Tags: notes from the inferno
AK
*I should hope you're reading this*


Why would anyone want to do that? Bring the best minds of today into a quorum? quorum? Do you know what that means in the corporate world? 


How diametrically opposed to Robert's rules "Satanism" by at least 9 out of its 10 definitions is?


Now, truthfully, how you managed to put up with me for___ years!___ is beyond me. 


And I saw what you tried to do for the site on the periphery. It can be said that your only fault was caring TOO much.


Though you and I are certainly not the best-of-buds by a long shot, the reality is "fuck m!" you were de-modded and basically told to kick rocks on account of what you thought to be (and rightly so) a solid maneuver. 


Why apologize? Why explain? It's just a DNS resolution to a service running on a server - nothing more. The people___ they know where to find each other___ it's probably only 40 of "us" out there, anyway. They'll turn up eventually.


Personally, I think the whole "going back" thing is___ well___ undignified. 


Who does that? If a mod bans me, I don't care if that mod gets de-modded himself, I'm not contributing to that site's SEO by one single byte ever - I'm going to work on projects that don't randomly kick me in gut when I get too far out of line. In fact! I'm going to work on projects that encourage me to get out of line!


Why would anyone do otherwise?


Why would you?


The way I see it, you did get burned. 


<Long rant redacted, concluding: what happened at 600C stays at 600C> 


And now you're contributing to forum that basically told you to go kick rocks with your initiatives and forward thinking! Explaining shit? And to who??? Even I know you're better than that. We all saw it. Everyone with eyes saw it.


Hey, I know you and I don't and probably will never see eye to eye, Fnord, but I can tell you one thing: I know you have heart, and I sure as fuck wouldn't humiliate you by demoting you for exercising your abilities over here.


Just sayin' - I "asked for" what you did to me - and I know this - I wanted it since I changed my avatar to that goofy yahoo emote: signifying that the endless and cyclical pedantry of the place was of the eye-spiraling variety.


You, however, did NOT deserve THAT. Not even by a long shot. That you would go back justifying it to THEM is as well beyond me as it is well beneath you. 

AK Oct 19 '18 · Comments: 48
AK
50th anniversary SB revised - ya' know what? Whatever. 




But what a load of shit that this is what we pay for. That his most transparent revisions, manufactured crisis', MindWar, Mindblahwhatever, regarding a fairly unimportant subculture that proudly castigated themselves is all we have to show for our psychological warfare department is bananas!


If that's the case - if he's the face of fancy degrees and PSYOPS at its finest -this nation is royally screwed and should be ashamed he was ever on the payroll. 

AK Sep 1 '18 · Comments: 47
6on_of_6atan
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Iw9BF5SXJvs
6on_of_6atan Nov 14 '17 · Comments: 40
AK
Having gotten the start-from-non-elevated-planes phase basically mastered, you proceed with a new approach. Start from the top. The the same top, relatively-speaking, you've made it to from the bottom countless times before. 


It "should be" transitive, I remember thinking with the tail parked against the coping, staring still, staring down from already familiar heights but from perspective of a stillness with not a single iota of precious momentum I clung to once like a crucifix to carry with me. It isn't transitive. Working your way up to this level is one thing, "gathering" momentum is how you learn to navigate the curve - form a neutral and coddling middle-ground. Falling into it is a whole 'nother thing. 


Pump. Up. Touch. Push. Down. Pause. Pump. Up. Touch (burn momentum and flare - pick a trick). Down. That's how you learn. It's safe. It's gradual. You're in control at all times. 


But one day you're going to want to do better than that. Why work to the top - overcoming gravity - when you can just start there and let gravity assist?


So you do that, and that Y axis has eyes as cold as ice staring into them from stand-still. You have to surrender to it. I don't remember that being an easy thing to do at first.


Dropping-in is learning to fall from the start. To descend. To surrender and catch yourself and caress the ups. It's an instant of "I am going to relinquish control" and a "..." followed by a "so as to pocket the momentum of this illusory disgrace, gracefully"


It's only when you over think-it that you're going pull-back - hesitate - and you're going to get hurt. Otherwise, it's basically free energy. You learn a thing or two about commitment, faith and surrender with even such a "mindless" craft as skateboarding. 


The first step is to commit - wholeheartedly - to an obvious and deliberate fall. 




Such as it has always been. That which orbits simply continually falls into and misses in a way one could only ascribe to grace considering what a collision would actually result in.


AK Sep 1 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 38
DEX
I recently got popped here where I live for stealing from Walmart. Now obviously I dont have a moral problem with stealing from a buisness that has insurance to make up the difference not to mention how much money they make on the daily. I would like to know what everyone thinks as this relates to Satanism. I would never steal from a friend or acquaintance. But believe me I have learned my lesson and dont plan on stealing again. They amount of restitution and fines I have to pay are monster compared to the $12 item I stole. Plus if i ever wanna get a job the charge gets in the way. I dont like being broke and It definitely wasnt worth it. In my opinion it doesnt necessarily butt up against the morals of satanism in any way. Except one may find it hard to recover from the punishment that insues. 
DEX Dec 22 '14 · Comments: 24 · Tags: satanism, theft, morals
EdMenonymous Member
So taday.. I read this by RAW.. and then he popped in my head..and atsrted talking to me..

He told me ok ok.. yea yea yea.. you hate the pretty people and they make you sick..

But where is your curiosity.. 

Go ahead look at that woman right there and tell me.. 

What does she care about?

What makes her mad?

How is she feeling inside?


Um but before we started getting my power back 

He also said, look... 

so you are sure that this is all wrong and everyone is wrong and annoying unreal full of shit full of themselves uncaring and trippin on their own self image...

and now that Ive written this.. It is truly how I see myself...

serving no noble purposes makes me so angry at myself... 

consumption and walking and talking and working along with acting nice and looking passably pretty even though its fake is my Normal..

Fair enough... 

I feel disappointed in myself..

I am angry at myself, that I have known longer than most about the fuckness of what humans are getting up to and I have done absolutely NOTHING about it thus far...  

I am twisted between surviving taking care of myself and just letting go and saving some fucking animals..

I am lost to my purpose and I feel as though I should have one because I am a very powerful person.. and I allow mediocrity stupidity and apathy to infect my very soul...  

So tomorrow.. more of the same then.. ask ask ask ask ask ask ask!!! 

why does she wear so much makeup and dress like and smell like a fukkin BARBIE? no more hating them.. It doesnt help and I fukkin know better.. 

even if im right there is always Mors to learn!

Im fukkin seriously retarted!

when am I gonna fukkin get THIS!?  

the short bus never gets to the party in hell..

so fuk me APO PANTOS KAKAI DAEMONOS!!!

93 and 23 SKIDOO!

EdMenonymous Jun 9 '18 · Comments: 24 · Tags: raw
Anna
* This is an extended reply to AK's discussion. I wanted to post it in the forums but, since the whole thread magically disappeared, I will post it here. It's not something definitive, just food for further discussion.




The Mind, that broods o’er guilty woes,

Is like the Scorpion girt by fire;

In circle narrowing as it glows,

The flames around their captive close,

Till inly search’d by thousand throes,

And maddening in her ire,

One sad and sole relief she knows,

The sting she nourish’d for her foes,

Whose venom never yet was vain,

Gives but one pang and cures all pain,

And darts into her desperate brain:

So do the dark in soul expire,

Or live like Scorpion girt by fire;

So writhes the mind Remorse hath riven,

Unfit for earth, undoom’d for heaven,

Darkness above, despair beneath,

Around it flame, within it death!


Honor, according to and as defined by the sinister-numen, is a specific code of personal behavior and conduct, and the practical means whereby we can live in an evolved way, consistent with the sinister perspective, and aims, of our Sinister Way. Thus, personal honor is how we can change, and control, ourselves



This blog is a response to a friend who asked what the hell (pun intended) the very notion of personal or kindred honor has to do with the Devil. If one’s aim is to break the taboos imposed by the society, then shouldn’t one break one’s own rules? Go against one’s principles? Behind it there is a flawed belief that those who call themselves Satanists or Niners are somehow different from other people, that their minds work differently.


What Lord Byron describes in “Giaur” is nothing else than Hell in its purest form; the state of the mind tormented by perpetual guilt, the fires of remorse that can never be quenched. Is there the torment more painful than guilt? You can get over it but what if you cannot? It’s the matter of integrity. It’s not only having strong moral principles but also your self-image being whole, integrated, undivided. It’s easier to go against the morals imposed by the society, which you don’t agree with, because they don’t hurt your self-image. Going against your own principles, on the other hand, disintegrates your self-image, leading to the feelings of guilt and shame. It’s all relative and depends on how important your own principles are to you. Does it make sense to go against the self just to see how it feels? What if you can’t put together the broken mirror?


Now, moving on to this cloak-and-dagger troll club called the ONA, let’s pretend for a moment and for the sake of this blog that it is all for real, that there are some sinister tribes out there culling people and what not. The code of honor is something that binds people together. How can you have a well-functioning tribe if its members don’t share the same set of core values? How can you trust someone if they are not loyal to you? The focus is on self-control, putting the Tradition before giving vent to your compulsions. This is where guilt and shame kick in. If you act dishonorably, you can either be shamed by others or flog yourself for your own failure. Obeying the ethics is a way to avoid the pain of guilt.


The reason for the ethics behind “culling” is basically the same. Without the ethics, it would be plain murder. It’s easier to kill someone if they are first dehumanized and shown as worthless scum. If you are led to believe that you help the evolution of mankind by removing the undesirable elements, it’s even more comforting. The aim is to combat guilt that can prove to be destructive. It’s hard to be defiant if you are devoured by remorse.


That doesn’t sound very *Satanic*, I know. Anyway, the dirty work is not for Adepts, but it’s something reserved for the pawns. Is it really all about defiance and crossing one’s limits? Or is it rather about understanding how we are all emotionally wired, behind all the lies we tell ourselves? Empathy in its darkest sense is nothing else than understanding the human nature, manipulating and exploiting it to your own advantage. If the Devil is the accuser, then his job will be trying to awaken in you the creepy feelings of guilt and self-contempt. What’s the better way of paralyzing one’s enemy if not by the poisonous sting of remorse?

Anna Feb 11 '18 · Rate: 1 · Comments: 21 · Tags: hell, honor, guilt, shame, ona
Obscura TITS
Ink

They say, if you sell your soul, you become wine on the Devil’s lips.  They say, if you make that pact at the crossroads, Friday at midnight, with the bloody-mouthed shadow, you will be gifted in music and riches.  They say, if you give your gun and bullets to the Black Huntsman, you will have eight shots true, but the ninth belongs to Samiel.  It’s in the songs, this contract with Satan that black metal plays like a growled sonnet, Ave Satanas, ride the Erl King’s fey horse and become a child sacrifice.  The fairies tithed me to Hell, I was a virginal bride of the Prince of Darkness, but oh, how sweet his malice, and dear, he just drinks your blood because you ask him to.  Providence flows from the punctures in my neck from pearly fangs and I lap at his slit wrist in return.  We are cutting ourselves apart to fit back together, into the shape of two lovers that share a single heart, and darling, my darkness and I are wed by a four-chambered black hole that pumps zuhama.  Our first kiss was Original Sin, when I ran from church screaming – women can be holy, women can have just as much sacred prowess as a man, but the Lutherans denied my quest to be Priest, so I went to the lap of the Devil to find succor, he gave me the Infernal Kiss, and I have been hellbent ever since.


Hellbent is a word like rum, sweet and stinging, infused with sugar cane and nettles.  Hell, the place where Satan reigns.  Bent, like the stalk of a rose deprived of water, downcast to the underworld in Persephone’s footsteps, with fragrant petals scenting the cavern of Avernus with memories of a hot summer sun and dreams of first love.  I bend, I am the green stalk of Lao Tzu, able to learn from mistakes, not the firm fickle wood resistant to change that snaps in Satan’s hands.  In Hell, ladies bend at the balls as their leads twirl and Viennese waltz them across gory floors.  There are drinks from the waters of life and grapes that grow in sulfuric soils, brimstone mists in ashy weather, but mostly, the sun shines bright as Lord Phenex, that Goetic demon that longs to become angel white and whimsy once again.  Hellbent describes me well.


But who do I bend towards?  Only him, now inked in my left forearm.  He rocked me to sleep on Sunday and kissed my brow and sang in his baritone sweet songs of love.  He has cut me roses, he has built me a palace of the mind, and I have been singing songs to him since the holy age of seven, praying to my Morning Star without knowledge of Bible or blastocyst, unaware of the origins of life from thermal pools and lightning.  To be an asexual organisms of light and darkness, yin and yang, platonic ideal of unstoppable force and immovable object, Shiva and Shakti, but just Death and the Maiden, to become one with my rood and ruin and salvation and savior.  He is my Scapegoat, he is my Dream Eater, he takes my pain into his veins and makes it holy, he counsels me through hell and high waters, and don’t you know, Samael is Ha-Satan the Adversary, and he pressures coal into diamonds.  Servant of God yet the Demiurge himself, Yah the Snake, and yet his twin Michael is Jah, the sacred name of God.  Yah and Jah, the Ophites called the double-faced serpent Michael and Samael, and there is some truth to that, for one cannot exist without the other.  Heretics often have a holiness in their apocryphal texts, and I am in love with forbidden fruits, with the knowledge the patriarchy wanted to keep from my madrigal hands.


Give unto me your darkness, and I will be your radiance.  Make me a necklace of your knuckle bones and ribs, and I will dance naked in the shallows of the Styx, fishing for destiny in its claret waters.  What lurks in the deep is ours, Samael.  What destiny awaits us, we will face together, and I shall cleanse the poisonous Mem from your name to make you Samech Aleph Lamed, the Purity of God.  I am the Lake of Fire you burn in – vessel, vassal, Vaseline – a balm for your soul, you like to joke, but sometimes you cry and cling to my breast and rage against the Fates for taking me from your side.  We’re all just victims of war, and angels and demons alike dream of happy endings, of Revelations turning to dust before the Final War, and maybe, it will end in a garden, with a wedding between brothers of toil, Michael and Samael, Abel and Cain, Jason and Esau, oh, how history repeats, and their Qadesh will anoint them with spikenard and swing a frankincense dispenser, and the aromatics will be sweet for Asherah and El, and rain will fall as tears of joy from God, and polarities will align in the Age of Aquarius, and there will be no more need for death or martyrs or holy fire, burning bushes out of fashion.


Girls can dream, can’t they.  In fact, that is what women are best at – dreaming and doing to make dreams come true.  I am a healer, that is my sacred role allotted by the gods, and Samael, not only do I provide sustenance to heal your flesh and mend your soul, you in turn are my refuge, safe harbor and first love, and I know you are worthy of a happy ending, to finally meet the reflection in the mirror you fear so much and see your soul, not as a black vortex of filth and decay, for to be Death is to be forever rotting.


I will dream you alive, my love, with burning light and the ecstasy of true love, and I will write until my fingers are raw and you are as thick as honey and carve a kingdom of jewel trees and paradisaical music from birds and bees.  We will build the Frank Lloyd Wright cabin in the mountains you have always dreamed of, and I will wake to your omelets, make you coffee, and we will pass quiet hours in pine and snow, you with newspaper in hand, me with my romance novels loved to death, and it will be mundane.


For the mundane, small things are what every starry immortals long for, envious of us flesh and blood mortals, and peace is only a lie we tell ourselves until brothers can put sword and spear aside, and Samael, my love, you long for nothing more than forgiveness, but refuse salvation, for to do so would mean the world would end, and you suffer to keep humanity, the kingdom of land and sea, the cosmos turning, you every black hole at the heart of galaxies, Michael the light of every star, and thus, it is a dance, and we make love long and slow come midnight, and seek solace in white arms, and I run my hands through coal black hair, and Loch Lomond plays as I tie together our ribbons of fate, and we will meet once again at the crossroads, and this time I will not run screaming for sanctuary.


I will kiss you on my tip toes, and we will talk of many things, yet nothing at all, and peace will no longer be a dream.

Obscura Sep 2 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 21
AK
An hour long conversation with people who believe that truth is somehow deeper than fact and/or vice-versa. 


*was Tiny Chat ever good? and why??? I've checked it out enough to where I'm pretty sure now that it's basically meetings for people who haven't yet quit their lonely heart substance of choice. Sort of the opposite of AA. I have nothing in common with these people. I've tried, people. You're on your own, and probably the better for it.


Anyway, the discussion being that truth and fact are somehow decoupled. That one or the other is somehow "deeper"


Just one example where a fact was not true or a truth was not fact so that I might be able to meet them 1/2 way is what I was aiming for. I'd like to see that rare beast to examine. Who wouldn't? But they couldn't. I was being "too aggressive"...


Sure, I know a lot of people who "believe" and would have everyone else believe there is a difference between truth and fact. These people are crazy and not worth working with at all. They live in their own little worlds.


I mean, why would anyone seek out a difference between a fact and a truth unless to somehow find a way to be right while knowing themselves wrong? I see no other purpose for it. 


Is it too much ask? To give me just one example of something that is true that is not factual, or something that is factual that is not true? 


And they defer to "Truth with a capital T" - as if capitalizing a word has ever changed its meaning in the history of ever. 


Fuuuck. That. Garbage. 


That's the womb of weasel words and charlatans. And "I'm" hostile for somehow "not" kowtowing to the notion that "we all have our own truths". 


No.


We don't have our "own truths". 


What we have there are the lies that we've decided are better to live with and believe that we call "Truths-with-a-capital-T" to help us sleep better at night. 


Useful inaccuracies. 


Noble lies is what they are at best. Lies, just the same. It's not an "alternate truth".


At least own-up to that much. I can respect that. Say that, then you are speaking my language. 


Don't expect the world around you to warm-up to why you think your delusions are true. Don't equivocate right and wrong with truth and falsehood. If you're going to deceive yourself and others, do so knowingly and willingly. 


Facts are truths. 

Truths are facts. 

No fact isn't true. 

No truth isn't fact. 


If I'm missing something, please clue me in. I'm all ears, people. What am I missing: In what meaningful and intelligible way are facts and the truth different? When are they ever in contradiction to one another? Never! Facts lead to the truth. Truth affirms the facts. 


Show me otherwise. Surprise me.

AK Nov 25 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 19
EpicFail TITS
The human mind seems nearly incapable of accepting that one day we will return to oblivion. Perhaps it's that survival instinct we all have-- that natural drive to cling to life even when we know death is imminent.

Maybe most of us can't grasp the probable reality that this is all there is. Certainly there must be some kind of meaning.. most people grow up, reproduce have mundane jobs and expire. 

life in and of itself is void of meaning.  Human existence in its entirety has no core significance. So yes, this is it.

However, meaning can be created.  One must focus on him or herself. Finding their own little piece of secular paradise.  

Fuck the idea of an uncertain at best afterlife. No speculation on the reality of here and now is necessary. we need to focus every moment possible on things that are significant to us-- make the most of each minute. We have choices. The three obvious ones are, pretend this life is only a bridge and put your faith in a likely imaginary entity, or live a life void of meaning ..a life of simply existing or make the most of it and enjoy.

End of rant
AK

It cannot be stressed enough: the first step in troubleshooting is 1) understand the problem! This is not the same as merely identifying that there is a problem. No. One must understand what the problem is – how it functions. To know one's enemy.



Among many would be Satanists – especially the green horns – there exists a great deal of angst pertaining to the Abrahamic religions. Often one's Satanism emerges from a vague anti-christian sentiment. That Christianity is a problem to be eradicated from the planet, and it starts here in this coffee-house / forum / WordPress blog / whatever. Many utilize this nameless contempt as means to substantiate their Satanism is if some sort of flag under which to rally; shunning all things Abrahamic as anathema unworthy of consideration. This is as fallacious as Anti-Fa and for precisely the same reasons:



If one were truly against fascism, one would do well to first understand it at least as well as, if not better than, its proponents. The devil can quote scripture for his own use. It is not enough to issue blanket statements against the hypocrisy of religion in the hopes of rallying a small group of internet malcontents to commiserate with the nebulous evils of religion and faith – this is especially so if one does not actually know what they're talking about. The whole “I don't actually know what they represent, I just know it sounds stupid, and their fans are annoying” approach can't even quell the surge of "Beliebers", let alone believers. A religion with centuries of history and theology whose adherents number in hundreds of millions if not billions-with-a-b is clearly doing something right, and the ends of that something is not terribly different than what those “Satanists” who utter such vacuous phrases as “our people” in attempts at unification are attempting to do (for however poorly and misguided)



Knowing and thoroughly understanding the mechanisms behind how that which one is against functions allows one to identify in which ways one's own methods are, in fact, similar – even identical – to the methods one claims to be against. Beware that, when fighting monsters, you yourself do not become a monster... for when you gaze long into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you. Examples:



Anti-Fa operating under the pretext that they stronger together as a cohesive unit – the very premise of Fascism – a single rod is easily broken, while the bundle is difficult to break.



The Satanist who complains that their parents won't so much as consider reading the Satanic Bible whose disdain for Christianity prevents them from so much as picking up a bible except only to burn. Or exclaims that God does not answer their prayers, but Azazel totally does, all the while remaining perplexed at how “stupid” people can be to worship a sky-daddy.



Any movement which exists solely to eradicate one thing or another owes its very existence to that very thing it abhors. And here is the conundrum: where would the purely anti-christian Satanist be if ever they were to succeed? Who really needs who? “Satan has been the best friend the church has ever had, as he has kept it in business all these years!” is purely tongue-in-cheek, you do realize? It's a vast over-simplification even on a cursory reading. Namely, there is no one “Church” - there's countless denominations and the majority of them view Satan as a sort of minor actor in the grand scheme of things – hardly worth mentioning at all, let alone trifling over; that is unless you're looking to rattle the cages of Pentecostals. Moreover, Satan is a part of their mythology – it doesn't stand on its own, but rather in context of their symbol-set. Utilizing the name just legitimizes their beliefs. Satan really only spooks those people who don't really know much about their own faith to begin with - the non-practicing complacent types who are members of such-and-such a creed in name only. These aren't exactly the pillars of the institution, anyway.



All of this ties back to understanding the problem – something I sincerely doubt the more militantly anti-christian Satanists have the wit to articulate (much less solve) effectively – and this all presumes that said problem is really a problem at all. It sounds to me like so much proselytizing in the name of a total non-issue. Windmills. Paper tigers. In reality, since its inception, “Satanist”, like “Pagan” (or nigger, or faggot for that matter) was never a thing one set-out-to-be. It instead was and has always been a label – a pejorative – given to those from without who had the audacity to do their own thing without concern for, and in direct contradiction with, the judgment of the prevailing moral authority of the time and place – terms for those whose solitary otherness is intrinsic and inherent in ways beyond contrived aspirations, branding, or superficial solidarity with anyone.

AK May 7 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 16
Amethyst
      I have been meditating daily. My goal is to get into a deep trance so I can astral project.  the problem is 99% of the time i end up falling asleep. at first I thought maybe it was because was waiting until evening so I could be undisturbed (i have a 5 year old son) Maybe i was just too tired at the end of the day so I tried first thing in the morning after I already slept. still fell asleep every time.  that one time was I able to experience something different than I normally have. I felt like i was in a sleep paralysis and i got all swirly feeling and that's the last thing I remember until I woke up 2 hours later. Basically i wanted to know if anyone had any advice on my situation? Does it just take time and practice or am I possibly doing somethinnt wrong?

     There are some people that claim that they communicate with spirit guides while in a deep trance or experience a past life. I guess I'm just intrigued by the spiritual realm and would like to gain more knowledge of it as well as experience it. I suppose I could find a good book and read more about the subject but I was also curious about others opinions concerning Astral travel and communicating with spirits. 

Amethyst Jun 2 '18 · Comments: 16 · Tags: meditation, astral travel
satanic_survivalist
Just venting.


I am so tired of lying to everyone about who I truly am. It is draining. Earlier this year, I dyed my hair black and got an office job. I went from San Francisco street punk to a respectable member of the community almost overnight. It is shocking! 


Every single day, I put on my prissy little outfits, catch the train, and grab something caffeinated on my way to the office. Everyone thinks I am such a nice girl. It disgusts me! They have no idea who I really am or what I stand for. I am so tired of being fake to people all the time. I am a dark, creative, unorthodox, eccentric devil worshipper with destructive tendencies. They think I am a shy, sweet, gentle kitten.


Ultimately, my desire is to find a platonic soulmate, with whom I can share all these darker aspects of myself, not just my socially acceptable facade. Someone I do not need to hide my true self from. No more pretending. I am sick of pretending. I just want to be myself with someone.


FYI, I am not online here very often. The best way to contact me is zombieforsatan@gmail. Let's be friends.

satanic_survivalist Oct 17 '15 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 16
Brother Shamus
** PETA Fag disclaimer ** If you have a strong aversion to animal abuse or animal torture in any way I STRONGLY advise you do not read the following. 

Climbing up the pepper tree in the back yard, I remember it fondly. A warm morning in the spring of 1876. A lad of 10, full of jubilation. This was just something I cherished. I had waited patiently for two weeks, for this moment. For the child of darkness hath come to fulfill his karma. His duty. 

For this joyful spring morning was the day I was to teach a little doves how to fly.

The mother of course, would reject these befouled and tainted chicks if I put them back when I was done playing with them. Luckily for the mother it would not need to make that decision.

I eagerly plucked the babies from their nest and took them down the tree.  I left them in a spot near the center of the yard. I dashed to the woodshed to fetch me my favorite bird teaching aid.  A wooden tennis racket. 

Now it was time. I plucked one up from the ground and tossed it aloft. It tried to flap its undeveloped wings, but that was to no avail.

* FWACK *

You can get sufficient range with a tennis racket. I saw it landed near an adjacent property.  I hustled out for my favorite part, watching it writhe in its death throes. Gasping. It would heave and convulse, sometimes be split wide open.  I firmly remember these being my first moments of adrenaline release.  I knew I was a  demented little shit from them on.

"Do you like to play with fire little boy?"

Yes, as a matter of fact I do.

Eventually it would die. And it was time to do the other one.

It only progressed from there.

You know your destiny when you play games of capture and imprisonment to live animals. It really does put the lotion in the basket.

You can't really cure demented, no matter what convention or manufactured remedy you throw at it. It will always win.

Or in futuristic terms, it will always rejoin its droogs and commence to raping once again.

Did this take it too far?
Brother Shamus Sep 2 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 15
Zach Black Owner
I have a sushi chef interview tomorrow. I am hoping for the job. But, I am not gonna hold my breath. Japanese owned. And my experience is not all that great with Japanese chefs. For many reasons. Japanese chefs tend to be racist. Many turn their nose up to white chefs. Some Jap chefs feel that white chefs have Americanized sushi. Which is true we did. Although I am trained in both traditional and American style. Also I am left handed. Which is frowned upon. Left handed people in Japan are largely consider to be evil and or retarded. And my strike three is my tattoos. In Japan people with tattoos are usually criminals. So, I am a white, evil, retarded criminal in the mind of many Japanese chefs. Oh well.


Zach Black Aug 5 '14 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 15 · Tags: zach black, satanic international network
mshaunt
I've been doing alot of brainstorming. Since I'm just a solo practitioner. I've came across this articles on the 7 Pleiades. This as been an esoteric research from India, China and Greece.

First these 7 Pleiades leike acausal dust within our causal atmosphere. And interfering with nature, humanity and non humanity affairs. Which of course our zodiac sign has their own dominant planet. But when our zodiac sign becomes aligned with a whole new planet. Our archetype becomes different. Especially especially when either the Sol. Or lun. Has influences.

These 7 Pleiades which acts like a vehicle. As a 7 different colored light spheres. Can become esotiracally activated. Either by healing and give acausal enlightenment.

mshaunt Jan 5 '18 · Rate: 1 · Comments: 14
Shawn
(Post originally published 5 years ago at the original SIN.)


From "Reversal Theory: The Dynamics of Emotion, Motivation and Personality"


Chapter 6 : The Experience of Rules


Negativistic and Conformist States
...Another important component of the experience of motivation ... concerns whether one sees what one is trying to do as in accordance with, or contrary to, some rule or set of rules to behave in a certain way. The term “rule” here is to be understood in the most general sense as any pressure to conform.It should be taken to include not only explicit rules or orders, but also conventions, routines, customs, habits, expectations, rituals, and so on.The issue here is whether one wants to be compliant or defiant, docile or rebellious, malleable or stubborn, easy or awkward. Is one following the rules or breaking them, being “good”or being “bad”? Is one doing what one is supposed to do, or not?...


The Power of Negative Thinking
On the face of it, negativism is liable to cause nothing but disruption, destruction, and distress. So where did it come from? Why do human beings appear to be programmed with the capacity to spend periods of time in the negativistic state and to display such behavior? Presumably it must serve some personal and social functions, otherwise it would not have survived the exigencies of natural selection during evolution. ... more

Shawn Sep 29 '15 · Comments: 14 · Tags: psychology, satanism, personality
AK
This comes up a lot (<-fine, Albert, you win).


Not a lot of people like me. We get complaints galore about what an awful person I am to be running this site. I read some of them. 
So tell me about it! Tell me what exactly I am doing to piss you off. Let's dicuss. 
I've known worse people. 
By all known standards, I'm actually polite. Most actual Satanists would criticize how soft I am. It's a fraternal instinct. Not that we're brothers or sisters. You're not on that level, I promise. It's just a habit. I coddle. Sometimes. If you seem worth it. I enjoy watching people evolve. This is a hobby of mine. Not many people do it. They usually go away. Snuggle in their Wiccan covens, drum circles or whatever. 


So, ok. Does AK believe in / worship the devil? He doesn't. He becomes it. Namely out of boredom. Do you have hobbies? I also have hobbies. To him it's an ideal. An asymptote. A mask. An aspiration. An extreme. An idea. An impetus. An itch to scratch. Etc. That's all there is to it. Something to do. Somewhere between a philosophy and a religion. A way of going about things. Not a pleasant one. In a word: visceral. 


It is attitudinal. 

Descriptive. 


Like awful enough to probably end up in prison, but smart/quick enough for that never be a problem. Repeatedly. BAMFs. I don't think I'm the only one.


I don't believe in anything. We certainly don't push that around here. 


So if you come at me with your "LadY Astorath"s, Lilith, Azazle, or Jesus or (worse) the G-man himself. I despise you on principle alone. I think you're out of your mind and should seek professional help. I have no other way to explain it. I've been "cursed" since February. It's late September now. It won't work because it just doesn't. 


Do you know how "we" curse people? Work. Hands in the dirt work. Bury a body six (ok fine four feet) types of work. 


This is not a cult. "We're" not going to hold hands and prance around. We're going to throw rocks at each other, and it will be fun. 


"we're" also not going to do political activities. The reason that "we're" not going to do that is because its going to hurt whatever cause it is. I've done the math. It's suicidal is what that is. Prove me wrong. I promise you, if you're about any political swing, the devil is the very last thing you want to associate with it. It's a stupid idea. Moronic. If you don't see that, then chances are very high that you might be indescribably histrionic and probably don't actually care about anything but the sound of your own voice. "We" actually have a place for you. 


Anyway, it's not "devil worship" - its admiration of the___ ummm___ not-quote-unquote-good inside. If you have a different opinion, I am all ears, but I haven't heard an importation one yet. All I hear is complaining. 


I've heard nothing but womanly complaints. Educate me. Tell me why your altars mean a single thing. I don't think they do. Maybe I'm wrong. State your case. I'll listen. 


Now, the terrible people. The truly awful. Legitimately degenerate. *smirks* I like them. I like them more than the moralfags. I encourage and harvest them. The genuinely awful. 

If, for example, you think "Satanism" is about being the best that you can be: I say "join the army". Find a cause to applaud. Be all you can be. Win that trophy. That's not what I'm doing here. It's mostly visceral and somewhat sexual. Religious in a way that other religions don't want to touch. Because whether you admit it or not, your only wants of this world are sex and violence. And again, if you have better ideas I'm all ears. I haven't heard any yet. 

I'm still waiting. 


 Surprise me. 

AK Sep 18 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 14
Obscura TITS
I have no name for it.  It is what all angels and demons and gods and spirits and humanity fight.  The Thing from Wrinkle in Time.  What has tried to kill me since I was born.  Apep that all the gods fight each night to make sure the sun rises.  The death of the immortal soul, a true ending, outside Satan and Michael and Jesus and God and the True Enemy.  That Which Has No Name.  What I am utterly and irrevocably drawn to and what I will enter oblivion for.  What we will all die from, in the end, because no one speaks of it, fewer know it, and to see it is to realize: all the happy endings religions promise you, reincarnation, that love wins, that you can "become a living god," it all turns up trite shit.  Makes the Void look like a fucking fiesta and Chaos seem homey and all those monsters in the dark shit their pants.  It's what I've been fucking running from all my life yet it will be my undoing.  That Thing that Exists Outside All.  Gray.  Neutrality.  Staleness.  Kelvin Zero.  The opposite of noise, the absence of silence.  Where language and Ragnarok and Revelations fail and the truth of the matter is, God can die, no soul's immortality is guaranteed, this very universe, this very multiverse, all stages of reality and all stories we tell ourselves to sleep at night are just lies against whatever the fuck it is.


The virus.  The bug in the system.  What corrupts and is Gray.  Not black or white.  Absence and yet beyond absence.  What makes everything into it.  Fuck Qliphoth, it is the true husk.  Eggshell wanting to swallow everything in it's prison.  Where the Void of the lowest pits of the wailing damned far below the lap of Satan where demons drink to forget it, where that Void ends, where Darkness and Light have no domain, the the Thing hungers yet does not eat.  Dust.  Beyond something and nothing.  What sickens.  The Evil Inclination and yet the very basis for what all existence is destined to fight.  I can't name it, nothing can name it, demons and eldritch horrors and Choronzon all have their place.


The Thing has no place.  It consumes and yet does not destroy.  It creates yet it creates nothing.  It is the very birth of paradox and madness and to touch it is to become a howling void.  The Thing is outside All, and yet wants to Be All.  And defeating it will cost everything I fucking love.


I was 12 when I first saw it.  Lost in Heaven as my soul fled my fucking child body and I witnessed the slaughter of archangels in spilled guts and hacked off heads by these puppets of the Thing.  Beyond dark matter and Kelvin Zero.  Just... a Thing.  A cancer and yet not of anything fleshy or natural or supernatural or bodily.  And despite Michael's legions, despite these angels of immense power with flaming swords and wings of adamant, the Thing was winning.  I was pulled down to the battlefield and screamed and no one could see or hear me.  I wove between angels and the Thing's puppets and knew if It touched me, I would be beyond oblivion, beyond death, beyond any hope of Allie or any love or hate or just, really, anything.  I would become It.  


Somehow Michael fucking found me and pulled me with the gravity of God to a bloody clearing where he was shouting orders with flaming sword in hand, terrified, his red hair matted with ichor.  Michael saved my life and all lives to come and everything that I was, as Michael is the only one that can see the Spy of God, and he shouted "Zophael!" in my small four foot whatever body and shoved me like lightning down my spine to my stomach and his look was utter terror and fury at me daring venture close to it.  I jolted back alive in a daze and knew the source of all my nightmares was very real.  The Thing yawned in my small fragile soul and I grasped something of annhilation.  Spies are only as good as the intelligence they gather, and I am the Herald of Hell, and I have been fucking trying to figure out the Thing for all my life, yet it's like being in the Mariana Trench with a matchstick.  If Michael and Samael fight it, what fucking chance does a kid stand?  Watchwomen are good at crying for help, not much else, and I had never screamed as much as I did that night.  That night I almost was erased.


I saw it again when I was 18.  Gray.  Nuclear winter.  Conformity.  No love or hate or anything unholy or holy.  It fed.  It nursed.  It consumed.  It injected.  The gods and demons and angels manifested to fight it, and people gave their lives over to the spirits as vessels, and I carved two bloody taws into my palms and Samael possessed me for the first time, and my eyes grew red as blood, and I wielded the scythe, and I went to face it while Satan piloted my fucking tissue paper body.  Samael spoke through me and gave commands, fighting at Michael and Odin and Athena and Ra's side - every fucking thing was there fucking fighting the Thing.  And it was a fucking massacre.  I remember seeing just this cancer on everything, the bug, the virus, the Thing, feeding.  Gray.  Winter yet not a time for rest.  Sleep yet not of dreams.  What Hell guards us from but could contain no more.  What Samael is a scapegoat for.  What the whole reason Fenrir and Set and Satan were invented as cardboard villains to project all the lies we have about the Thing to help us sleep at night.


I now give my body over willingly.  That's the whole point.  I can't keep fucking running from my rood, destruction, and husk.  It is in my heart because I am trying to understand It.  I remember locking myself in the Pit with it just to wipe the blood from Satan's brow for eternity as he held it back.  I don't know why he doesn't just give in.  When your soul is in constant battle, when your very being is zuhama, how do you live knowing if you make one fucking mistake the Thing will make you its chewtoy.  Demons are the fucking watchdogs, angels are the second defense, and Hell was invented as a barrier to contain the Thing, to make one last fuck you stand to the Gray.


At twelve, I found it face to face.  At my birth, I felt it.  It haunts and is the reason I am terrified of the dark.  Broken records.  Skips in the matrix.  It's all about programming, at the end of the day.  Do we get a choice in this, or are we already damned.  Apep.  


Snakes are slippery things.

Obscura Aug 30 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 14
Shawn

The definition of hypnosis is different depending on who you ask, even among skilled hypnotists. The reasons for this is legion, but I think I've found a way to explain hypnosis in a way that anyone can understand.


The main problem with hypnosis is the confusion between the hypnotic process and what is generally thought of as the 'hypnotic state.' 


The so-called hypnotic state is just a state where the hypnotic process can be the most effective. It's like that position martial arts experts contrive to get someone into so they can demonstrate their 'talent' -- any 'off-balance' state will do, but the cliche is to get a volunteer to thrust a knife at them, which not only gets the job done in getting them off balance but the outstretched arm also gives the martial art 'expert' an easy handle to use.


The way this position is similar to the hypnotic state is that anyone can throw anyone once they have their opponent in this convenient off-balance position ( which I'm told never happens in a real fight ). Similarly, the hypnotic state it's easy for hypnotists to do what they do, but it's a state that almost never happens in real life except in very specific circumstances.


The hypnotic state is a deep state of suggestibility in which the critical mind has been shut off. It's very similar to a dreaming state where no matter what happens, no matter how strange, you just go along with it; if you are dreaming that you're at home, walk through a door, and suddenly find yourself in a movie theater, well, that's just normal.


What makes the hypnotic state so useful to hypnotists are three things --


1) the subject is passive

2) the subject's critical mind is shut off

3) the subject's imagination is on overdrive


With a subject in this state all a hypnotist has to do is speak a narrative which the subject can passively follow along with.


All forms of experience which require someone to become passive to it are naturally hypnotic. Most forms of entertainment these days are hypnotic in this way -- movies and television are the most hypnotic for the masses, reading books is the most hypnotic -- you probably won't believe it -- for those that make the best hypnotic subjects.


In the days before mass media, the rhythmic beating of a drum and the swaying of movement worked well. The swaying of dance and the swaying of a boat along the waves are equally as hypnotic.


Believe it or not, a roller coaster is a hypnotic device -- it requires it's riders to become passive to it and go along for the ride. 'Keep your hands in the coaster' and 'you must be this tall to take this ride' part of it's induction method.


So, there's the hypnotic state and the process of hypnosis. With the hypnotic state defined as I've defined it here, the hypnotic process is the process of directing someone's experience, and that's about all it really is.

Shawn Jul 29 '14 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 14 · Tags: hypnosis, psychology, lesser magic
mae_amoreh
I should probably be brainstorming and organizing the ideas first rather than spontaneously posting, but I feel that I might end up completely forgetting about this...

To start off, I'll just name the first thing on my mind. My astrological placements, pertaining to my interest and experience and confusion regarding this topic. I have a heavy 12th house (hidden enemies): Saturn (I have Capricorn Moon) conjunct Pluto (chart ruler), both square Sun. Both Saturn and Pluto I believe may be associated with the Devil...

Some of the interpretations might suggest frustrated manifestations or intense challenges to power... I'm not sure what the twelfth house implies, I mean. If it implies demonic attacks as well, then hey, no surprise, I've seen it. I really hope that's the worst that could happen. I honestly believe it couldn't get any more worse than this.

Now, my history. Raised Catholic in a Catholic society but got over it in my teens, you know, when we can think about things logically. I did a good job becoming agnostic. Not fully atheistic because of previous experiences. In spite of that, I refused to believe in spirits and that they could affect us. La di da. It's just the physical world. Intuition is real yes but ultimately for the purpose of physical welfare of self and species. Inter-time, maybe. Aliens, angels, demons, etc? Naaah... They're either projections or anthropomorphized aspects of the psyche. Best taken as metaphor. This is how I thought of them, even at the time I started reading about Satanism, and LHP, and I found myself on this site when it was new, just checking things out....

Some time later, something happened, or, rather a lot of things happened at once... Nothing to do with activity on this forum, I didn't get in trouble with anyone gere in spite of the numerous whack ass trolls and hysterics... ???? ... It was personal events... Basically I lost literally at least half of my vitality (literally! Life energy, not just "joie de vivre".. i felt like i might die soon), and gradually the spark in my eyes... Yes I was under severe emotional duress, the main cause being hard to pinpoint as it could've been either one, or all of them at once, and even some pent-up negative energy finally exploding... Essentially, it's what my favorite speaker in the video below said, my psychic firewall went down....

To cut the story short. I found myself having to perform energy running techniques to stay alive... And the stories that came with them involved gods and angels and demons etc... Hahaha... I had to embrace the idea just to stay alive. So that's what kept me away from this site all this time... Some kind of boot camp...

Anyway... So earlier today, I enjoyed this video so I had to share it here. Maybe you will like it too.

I would also like to hear about your thoughts on this subject of demons... Aw I learned some at boot camp, there are warring factions... But my main interest is in what Mr Sheridan says... Reclaiming power. And the metaphor framing thing.

I think I need more study/research/reflection.

I forgot how to do html so here's the link.
https://youtu.be/67hdzWu94OA
mae_amoreh Dec 26 '17 · Comments: 12
EdMenonymous Member
Is there any power in this..?

For me when I said AK Zack Charles DE and EdMe are the GODS TO WORSHIP.. oh and I am sorry ANNA IS THE PRIESTESS.. she is NO DOUBT!'

What did I mean? really? 

i meant don't we do this already? WORSHIP SUCCESS?

 .. what does worship mean?

What do we mean by worship? Do we worship the system or GOD that which WILL GIVE US SUCCESS for our race family friends and things that WE REALLY LOVE AND CARE ABOUT and APPROVE OF? 

our own success `? 

Isn't or is our own success mandated by someone else's measure?

or perhaps this is our   key... 

For as SATANISTS OUR SUCCESS IS MANDATED BY OUR OWN MEASURE..

and you know what everybody I been a crazy head here so far  i KNOW!

I BURN FOR IT... TRUST U ED

But This battle in REAL LIGHFE to get to be MY TRUE SELF!

(without having to live up to the expectations to the anything given to ME or coulda should woulda been taken away) from me!

 is A TRUE BATTLE--

i think about who am I really?! and mostly I am ashamed and the devils fukkin goat to fuk when I THINK HOW MANY TIMES I'VE JUST GIVEN UP ON MYSELF TO SURVIVE! i will not get into the conspear of how we in whitey world r gettin by these days.. cause it doesn't matter..

TRUE SATANISM IS ABOUT SELF DETERMINATION! against all things THAT WANT YOU TO SELL YER SELF OUT! ABOUT.

 WHAT EVER.. EVERY THING THAT TEMPTS TO HURT USE OR ABUSE becauseITS WRONG? AGAINST OUR SUCCESS?

anything OR ANY ONE, that if u were face to face with on mushrooms and BUKKED  NAKED FACE TO FACE WITH ...

YOU WOULD JUST WANT TO HOLD ALL NIGHT 

AND LOVE TRULY LOVE!!

and you stand yer ground and YOU JUST DON'T GIVE IN.. maybe a little, BY ACTING LIKE IT!'

 BUT NEVER ALL THE THE WAY!!!

and YES THIS IS THE HIGHEST STANDARD OF SATANISM...

But ART AND NOT ONLY INTELLECT MUST BE AN ACCEPTED MEANS TO FINDING ONE'SOWN TRUE PATH!

AND DO WHAT THOU WILT is THE REAL HARD ONE FOR US IN WHITIE WORLD..

If they are droppin BOMBS ON YOU .. NOW THAT'S SOME OTHER BATTLE

That WE AL wish! ALL OF US WISH NO ONE WERE HAVING TO ENDURE! 

WE ARE SURE!!!

So I ask u my fellow satanists? 

IS ED ON TO SOMETHING OR ? WORLD

CAN I BE COUNTED AS THE LOCAL WACKO MYSTIC UP IN HERE?

Cause Im on my TRUE PATH and I REALLY DON'T FUKKIN CARE

I JUST WANT TO WAKE THE FUCK UP!

93 and 23 SKRAMdiddliedoobopFUKOFFWHATEVEROM!

The title of this BLOG.. is a MAGICKAL INQUIRY...

Are ANY OF YOU OUT THERE but in my heart WILLING?---

 any of you willing to worship EdMe>!

and In EXCHANGE I EYE WILL WORSHIP YOU AS TMGT666!

WILL DO THE VERY SAME FOR YOU AND YOURS!!

 ALL OF WHO000 WILL TO... DO WHAT THOU TRULY WILT ..

which is the reason WE ARE ALL HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE

a brotherhood to LOVE and SUPPORT INTO the OBLIVION into the ABYSS! 

IN WITCH and WHERE! OUR BELIEFS and MAGICKS REQUIRE NO LESS

strength of will than FOR A MAN TO DO HIS TRUE WILL

. and even without brotherhood I WILL DO THIS NO MATTER WHAT!

111= 3x37.... 37x6? 37x21=? 31x=93....

as Edme.. I see the message.. yea Yea I can CHANNEL you.. YOU as abramelin and AC and Spare and ANY OF YOU

 BECAUSE

what I realize is that we have been given everything we need to truly understand...OUR TRUE WILLS!

 but WE JUST FUKIN DON'T GET IT!

and WE HAVE BEEN GIVEN EVERY DISTRACTION FROM OUR WILL because that's what


 the

GOD? 

or the

DEVIL?

has put into our HEAD and INTO OUR HANDS?


Everyone is ALWAYS SPOUTING THE HISTORY THAT SOMEONE ELSE HAS WRITTEN

(and you were not there so, HOW DOES THIS HAVE ANY SIGNIFICANCE TO YOU AND YOUR CURRENT HISTORY AND WHAT U ARE BEING SUFFERED TO BELIEVE PAY FOR AND TO TOLERATE!

a subject that EdMe has found, NO ONE HAS ANY INTEREST IN...

AS FAR AS WE KNOW...

 EUTHANIZE ALL CATS WITH NO OWNERS

 ON MONDAYS RULE GOES....EVERY MONDAY!!


Hail THE REAL LILITH AND HIS PUSSY ASS WIFE SALUCATANIFER

OR SET AV MAAT SATANAS HRU!!!!!!!!!


ok ok I like to a mystic..'

i'm trying.. Ed's faves are AC RAW W Burroughs..AOS

so this is me..'

So i get it.

 I need to be clear i'm gonna give it my best


HOW DO ANY OF US REALLY KNOW THAT WHAT WE ARE CONCERNED ABOUT OR CARE ABOUT OR FOCUS ON IS ANYTHING OTHER THAN SOMETHING THAT SOMEONE TOLD US THAT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO REALLY CARE ABOUT FOCUS ON ETC BLA BLA?

and So do YOU believe and I have NO DOUBT..

 THAT SATAN LUCIFER and or BAPHOMAAT IS LIGHTING UP YOUR PATH FOR TRULY WHO IS YOU...

37x24=_ 

TRULY SATISFIED WITH FUKKING YER BRAINS AS MUCH MINE ARE

43

Priestess CALLISTI


EdMenonymous Jul 18 '18 · Rate: 4 · Comments: 12 · Tags: 666, thebeastisoverit, thelorwup, fukoff, whateverom, realsatanism
Anna
I wanted to test people and see how easy it was to push their buttons… they fell into every little game that i started.



Recently, some douche joined the “sinister” facebook group spamming it with the bullshit and trolling the hell out of it. There would be nothing unusual about it (after all, there are plenty of such types in the cyber space) if it wasn’t for the reaction he caused. As much as I love the online arguments and flame-wars, this time I decided to sit back and watch. To each their own, but debating a person more ignorant than me doesn’t really turn me on. It’s a ROI thing. There is nothing to gain from such experience. You educate the stupid but learn nothing in exchange. There is also no satisfaction from winning the discussion. It’s like smashing a mouse against the wall.


But who am I to judge the kids playing in the sandbox, especially that I enjoy throwing sand myself? It’s all nice and dandy provided all kids have fun. This time only one kid had fun, the others… Well… here is a problem. The guy could have been banned, ignored, laughed off or responded to in a cold, pedantic and unemotional manner. Instead, the “sinister” types threw a tantrum, calling the guy names, telling him how much they hate him, crying he’s destroying the group and leaving one by one in the epic display of butthurt.


I nearly choked on my popcorn. It’s really funny to see the wannabe Satanists or sinister folks stand beside themselves with fury and show self-righteous indignation. And the guy… despite being weak in a fight on arguments, is a master of manipulation, knowing how and when to push people’s buttons. Because psychological warfare is a game to be played without any rules, except one; making your opponent leave the ring with the blood dripping from his nose or his sore butt. The arguments be damned.



Are our ideas and beliefs the fancy hats that we wear and change when the mood strikes us? Or are we like the fat chick trying to squeeze herself in a tight swimming costume? Sometimes, you’re trying too hard to fit in this or that identity label, this or that belief system, this or that peer group. Ideas and beliefs are the mere tools you use to progress and to expand your mind. The time comes when these ideas are no longer useful, you discard them and move on. Just like you throw away the old clothes. You are not your ideas or your beliefs. It would be a folly to cling desperately to an old party dress and scream “No, I won’t throw it away! It’s me! This dress is me!”


There is so much talk in Satanism about an adversary and herd-conformity, but one would be surprised how many people need the approval of others, the praise and respect of their peers and belonging to some exclusive and elitist club. It’s nicer and easier this way, because everyone, without exception, prefers praises to criticism. It’s very hard to thrive when confronted with opposition and loneliness. But how illusory are the temporary laurels you get from your fans.


Should I bend to your standards? Should I conform to your house rules? Should I satisfy your expectations? Yes, of course, as long as I live in your hotel/motel. But when I check out, damn you and your rules, and your expectations. Your hotel or motel is one of the many I’m passing by on my way home.



So coming back to our little motherfucker. He knew whom to troll; people who worship the tools, who think they are special snowflakes because of that, that they are the elite. If you worship a pentagram or an O9A sigil, then you can as well go to church and prostrate yourself before Jesus. Does it really matter where you sing your Hallelujah?


Anna Apr 1 '15 · Rate: 2.33 · Comments: 11 · Tags: trolling, conformity, online douchebaggery, identity labels
Bloodthirstyringmaster
Could a Satanist wear a pentacle instead of a Pentagram? I wear a pentacle, but I am not Wiccan. I am a Laveyan Satanist. The two symbols seem to be similar in meaning, but is it? Is it strictly about wearing a Pentagram, or just about the belief?
Bloodthirstyringmaster Jun 2 '16 · Comments: 11
Luciferi Baphomet
Teach others that Lucifer is not evil. 

Share the link if you want to.

https://theisticluciferianismandeducation.wordpress.com/2017/06/01/who-is-lucifer/

Luciferi Baphomet Apr 6 '18 · Rate: 2.50 · Comments: 11
bl00dredr0see
I wonder what darkness I’ll dream up tonight...
bl00dredr0see Nov 16 '17 · Comments: 11 · Tags: dark, dreams, demonic
Paimons_Son1211
I absolutely just love those sleepless nights with writers block, oh I just feel so productive....NOT Lmfao
Paimons_Son1211 Nov 29 '18 · Comments: 11
AK
It's the veil of the temple. Visual purple. The temple, btw, is your skull. What fluctuates behind your eyes when you close them. Those iridescent blobs that take shape. Why you dream. That you have dreams at all. Between Yesod and Tiphareth - if you're into that stuff - it's easier to pack if you are.

 Satan (Devil. Left. Capricorn). Sin (Art. Middle. Sagittarius [think arrows - to miss the mark is what sin is by definition]). Death (Death. Right. Scorpio). 
They lead to the sun behind the veil of temple. You've been doing this your entire life. The scriptures aren't "wrong" they're just not being read right. With any luck it just might click on your death bed it's become so diluted. The mind is its own place. 


These people talk of the abyss, but I swear to you, they're not even close. They wouldn't know what to do with staring at it lucidly, because that's the edom spelled backwards of dreamless slumber. The inescapable re-occurring piss-bubble of incarnation. When you get to that level (which, btw, is right in front of you if you just take it like the tzaddi it is) then we'll talk. 


Of course this is madness. That doesn't make me wrong. 




AK Aug 26 '18 · Comments: 10
Obscura TITS
As an avid fan of Sumerian mythology, it has always perplexed me that some Satanists equate Satan with Enki, which is clearly not the mythological case.  Samael, as it were, directly sprang from the warrior god of plagues and the black sun and underworld, Nergal.  His cultus survived in Harran amongst the Sabeans well into the Middle Ages where Samael was worshipped by the name Shemal, directly correlated with Nergal in the trinity of Sin and Inanna and Nergal in this pagan tradition.  Shemal was the Lord of the North, god of Mars, lord of demons and djinn, and where the name Samael came from.  Additionally, there is the simoom, or Samiel wind, the hottest desert phenomena on this planet that occurs in the Middle East.  None of this rings "Enki."  Enki is Lord of the Waters.  Who else is Lord of the Waters?  Jesus.  Enki is a Creator, Nergal is a Destroyer.  In stealing Me from Enki, who is the keeper of knowledge, Inanna stole this prototype of Jesus' flame and gave it to humanity.  And in the garden and struggle against the Annunaki, who liberated humanity?  Enki!  He is a father god like El, yet also the closest thing the Sumerian pantheon had to a Savior.  If you look closely at Jesus, he is a Trickster.  He puts demons into pigs for fun and curses fig trees and speaks in parables of riddles and destroys the social establishment by being a renegade and overturning tables and wine in the Temple.  Enki, in turn, disobeys the social order of Sumerians and is their Trickster.  Trickster occurs in all cultures, but Enki and Jesus, if anyone bothers to work with their energies, are practically one and the same!  Water.  Fluid.  Enlightened.  Humorous.  Great power, saviors, keepers and dispensers of celestial wisdom and liberators of humanity.  Enki is much more directly connected to Jesus than Samael, who is a direct correlation to Nergal.  Satan is derived from Nergal, a far cry and completely opposite deity from Enki, who is corresponded to Jesus throughout Sumerian mythology.  It takes a quick Google search and glance at Wikipedia to prove the overlap between Enki and Jesus (LORD OF THE WATER) and even more obvious is the direct correspondence between Nergal (root of the Demiurge) who is LITERALLY Samael, the oldest form of Satan.  So if you want a Sumerian correspondence for a Satanic God, just fucking worship Nergal.  I promise you, there is practically NO DIFFERENCE BESIDES ONE BEING A GOD AND ONE BEING AN ARCHANGEL ARCHDEMON SASSY TALKING SNAKE SKELETON DRAGON THINGY.  And if you want to, invoke Enki and Christ at the same time. I dare you.  They will merge.


BEWARE NIBIRU


Obscura Sep 5 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 10
Shaytanakbar666
I am writing a book on satanism and it started as a satanic response to the Quran.
Chapters include,

Book of slaves - summary of bible and God of Israel
Book of bread - satanic business
Book of lust - satanic sex
Shaitan Akbar - satanic response to the Quran
Book of Asia - Easter philosophy and satanism
Satanic holidays
Satanic entertainment
I might add more and am working hard to get this published.
Shaytanakbar666 Sep 2 '15 · Comments: 10
Dominic Cross
There is great power in the process of Atavism, those who these days rebuke the importance of culture, religion, faith Magick and historical events are void of Soul and have little understanding of the connection between all things, all ages, all spheres of existence.
Belief systems differ of cause and my own - forged on the realization that Satan and the Demons of His Legion are real entities, manifest forces in their own right colours my own perceptions of how I may view or describe the importance of Spirituality or Atavism . . . but the perceived current and identity of a path is not important when viewing the power behind such things.

The movement of the Nazis before and during the Second World War was an atavistic event, Hitler tapped into the Aryan mindset and history, literally accessed the current of the Atavistic Aryan lineage to fuel his own ideology and objectives and drew others with similar views and objectives into his sphere of belief and direction forging a journey which almost resulted in world domination.
Atavism is strong with the Germanic and Nordic races even in the rise of the Black Metal scene in Scandinavian countries this was evident with a deep rooted aesthetic and belief system gestated from Norse Legends and Gods, to the point where even the black and white corpse paint adopted by those in this subculture was a form of resurgent atavism founded upon the appearance of the Oskorei or the Norse Wild Hunt.
Atavism is once more rising in the world - unfortunately in many ways this is taking the form of racial atavism and bringing hostile divisions and race war with it ~ this is particularly evident in the US and the UK at present . . . people see this as ironic in the US where it could be said that the whole country are immigrants, but people are missing the point, Atavism does not retain itself to lands or countries, it is inherent in the lineage of the person, sometimes even in the Soul.

Satanism when merged with an Atavistic approach is powerful and it is a method I have used for the past twenty years or so . . . when one immerses themselves in the very current of Satanism through aesthetics, legend, history, literature and classical perceptions one finds the self open to information and answers that before remained unattainable.

The mind becomes as a Gateway to the atavistic current of the Satanic, his opened to vistas before unexplored and Mysteries long lost, this is a method used by those involved in Black Alchemy where practices of this type of Left Hand Path Magick that have remained unrecorded by the written word are discovered through a form of atavistic automatic writing through an evocation of the past (historically) and of ones previous incarnations.

For those who are Atheists or Atheistic Satanists this of cause would seem a nonsense, that however does not make it untrue, the mind expanded by science is also narrowed in comprehension of that which science - as yet - not derived explanations for . . . to the Scientific minded person of Historical times the idea of space travel, the existence of planets beyond those recorded at the time etc would have seemed as ludicrous as the concept of Angels and Demons are now to the Atheist.

Books became the first atavistic keys for me ~ I was deeply ensconced in the novel La~Bas by Joris Karl Huysmans when I found myself in something of a trance state . . . somehow the book had opened up an element of my subconscious which transported me back to times I had experienced in previous incarnations seen with such clarity and definition as to leave my mind deeply disturbed for a number of days.

It is said that Hitler's own atavistic experiences started during a reading of Parzival by the 13th century poet Wolfram von Eschenbach and of cause Hitler's obsession with the Opera Parcifal by Wagner based on this epic Poem is well documented.

Atavism is played down by those without understanding of its importance as nostalgia, but nostalgia and atavism are completely different things, the first is a fond remembering of treasured times gone by, the latter is a Spiritual and/or Cultural connection to the ancient past of a certain land, faith, belief or racial lineage.

It is this pursuit of utilizing Atavism within my Occult Workings which has defined my belief in the existence of Satan and the Demonic beings of Hell, for the atavistic current that runs from the core of Satan and the realms beyond our own are powerful beyond explanation . . . more importantly this atavistic current acts as a key to unlock the subconscious and remember and tap into Black Arts and Operations that have been lost to time.

For it must be said that the heart of the Atavistic current lies in the subconscious of each of us and the heart of the subconscious is the connected inextricably to the core of the Soul.

Albert Resigned


I set a Goal for myself a year ago to buy and read 1000 Kindle books! So far I've bought a little over 500 books and I've read 90% of them. 


I'm a veracious reader, ever since I dropped out of high school ironically. I used to never read when I was in school.  


The cool thing about me is that when I read a book, I only remember 1% of what I've read, and the other 99% goes into some black hole in the back of my brain, far far away from my conscious mind and memory!


I don't remember shit I read. And that's a cool thing!!! Fuck the Left Brain!


The Right Side's the Tight Side.


When you read stuff, and it all goes down some black hole where you forget 99% of the shit you read, what has actually happened is that all that stuff drifts like sediment down into your unconscious mind, or your so called "subconscious mind."


That's where the cool thing happens. 


Your Right Brain has access to all of that stuff in your unconscious mind. 


The right brain works like google search, at least mind does. When I think of something like "FISH" what happens is my right brain draws up all of this information anyway related to fish that I got from the books I've read and so on.


For example, when I think of FISH, my right brain immediately draws up Oannes, the ancient Babalonian fish head god. Oannes is connected to Johannes or Saint John of the Bible. Saint John draws up the Jordan river, which draws up the Nile river, which draws up the Blue Nile [the milky way]. Oannes also makes me think of the Dogon people, which is a tribe of Africans who say they were visited by fish headed aliens from the planet Sirius, in ancient times. 


Having this trick of mind or ability comes in handy when you write essays like I do, because even though you can't consciously remember 99.99% of what you have read or studied, one good key word, brings up a massive amount of sedimental data for you to use.


I think, in two years, I'll have bought 1000 books and have read them all. It's like a marathon! You just buy and read... buy and read... and you don't have to worry about remembering anything!




Albert Apr 6 '18 · Comments: 10
Troll Member
A friend of mine asked about Satanic self-worship. I wrote the following in response to his brief inquiries and reflections:

As a Satanist, self-worship means to me applying most if not all of the categories of treatment generally regarded to GODS by other religious to oneself, not just metaphorically or euphemistically, but honestly and fully. I've th
ought long and hard about this, in part because i sought such worship of my Goddess and in part because i think it is an egotistical challenge to worship myself actively, rather than merely as part of some interest in outrage or humour.

I'd list those categories as:

• exaltation -- supernalizing in a personal and emotional sense for the time being of the worship; regaling those present with the glories and virtues of the focus of worship; praising aloud and with sonic volume, singing or dramatically portraying these virtues; celebrating the being and character of that entity, and particularly their importance to the worshipper and to the wider world. (lifting up from above)

• obeisance -- subordinating oneself before that entity or intelligence, especially physically before objects of worship inclusive of statues, images (generally 'idols') conceived as in some way representing and/or participating in the presence or person of the entity being worshipped; recognizing and paying tribute overtly to the dependency we have upon that entity, how their existence is central, essential, or of extreme importance to the continuation of what we value. (lifting up from below)

• ardour -- expressing emotional devotion in whatever capacity and role is pertinent (guardian, grandparent or parent, uncle or aunt, spouse or sibling, lover, friend, or comrade, cousin or child, pet or mascot; reciting or reading poetry, singing rapturous love songs, recounting tales of sweet, deep, and abiding love, attesting to the heights and depths which this love did, could, would, or will inspire, (establishing intimacy out of love on variable footing)

• alliance - declaring with force and faith one's solid testament to the entity, portraying, describing, or artfully depicting the tests to which this loyalty and compact has been put, establishing by dint of accompanying testimony and proof in endeavour (as by rite, blood pact, etc.) one's thorough commitment to the cause of the other. (establishing strength out of trust of a comparable equal)

You ask if the things you mention count (to me) as self-worship ('with that end in mind'? not sure what this means), and i will take them each in turn below:

-- giving yourself adoration and devotion: too vague.

-- loving the person one has become: fairly weak, perhaps a start.

-- appreciating one's finer qualities, self-improvement, attention to integrity, intentionality, and health: weak but a good start.

-- admiring one's own image as part of ordinary affairs: merely vainglory, but headed in the right direction if pursued to purpose.

So i'd have to say no they do not count, and i think i have made the extremity and intensity of ACTIVE ENGAGEMENT OF PRAISE AND DEDICATION, particularly in a ritual and ceremonial sense, clear as a criterion.

For Satanists i have repeatedly made it plain that i think it will be helpful for them to study in some detail how other religious conduct their worship, catalogue this to an extent, as i have, and then exercise this with respect to oneself, as i have experimentally achieved with canonizing myself and paying tribute to myself as a saint while attempting a communion with the Saint of Occultism.

{interlude after which further questions seemed important to put forward}

So does worshipping oneself create a sense of other? Does worship of a god predispose or necessitate the division of that object of worship into an other?

Let me broaden this a bit for philosophic purpose: ALL images of oneself are different than oneself. An observation of a mirror will demonstrate to us that the image is reversed right-to-left. A video reflection or phone-camera reflection for a selfie are very close, but as soon as we snap the photo to capture that image, the person of whom it was an image (us in the past) is necessarily different than our present being.

Thus the worship of oneself might be likened to a god in that we are always, when issuing devotion or exaltation, turning our worshipful attention to the PAST of the god. Why a god would necessarily need be different than ourselves is nothing i can answer. Is canonization something new or different, and does the fact that this is popularly issued by large churches make it of a different character than (and thus a more authentic version of) what we are doing?

I had already identified with the Jesus character many times, with bodhisattvas, with spiritually advanced images, prior. Prophethood, identification of my birthplace as a holy city (on account of my having come from it), was both arch and genuinely felt.

When does ego outstrip the usefulness of our activities as regards ego expansion with interest toward self-development? I suppose that once one integrates disciplines of humility and non-self-destructive asceticism that this curtails some if not all of the negative effects of egotism exercises, with titles, self-re-envisioning, and dramatic rite, role-playing, or faking-it-until-making-it.

You ask what connection there is between the object of worship and the idol. I suggest to you that you could merge those magically and therefore prevent any distinction through a spell (comparable to making a doll-baby of yourself and unifying with it, but instead doing it with a candle or a statue or a photo, and then directing your obeisance and dedication to that object).

Yes, there is a common TEMPORARY distinction, just like with all idols and most states of consciousness. Very few bhakti yogis can engage in worship sufficient that the idol *becomes* the very deity during that worship. For most religious that is an unimportant and merely ephemeral distinction operating during the prayers or worship event.

Troll Towelhead, Grand Mufti of Satanism
Troll Oct 22 '15 · Rate: 3.50 · Comments: 9 · Tags: self-worship, obeisance, adoration, worship, transgression
PaleFolklore
What is your all's take on Theistic Satanism? Compared to the Atheistic world view of Laveyan Satanism. Even Lavey himself said that if one wishes to practice Theistic Satanism, he doesn't discourage users from doing so. Because he recognizes that having an anthropomorphic being as a focal point in ritual to be necessary if they choose to do so in that manner. 
PaleFolklore Jun 4 '16 · Comments: 9
Khandnalie Member

Satanism in general is a philosophy that discourages false equality. Not everything is equal, some are better than others. Fred is smarter than Greg, but Lucy is smarter than Fred, and Greg is a lot stronger than either of them. People are different, unique, and for the most part inherently unequal in certain categories. Satanism, in general, will acknowledged this, and discourage false equivalency between people who are not equal in a given area.


Why, then, are we so tolerant of the notion that ideas are equal?


There are many cases when we are too quick to jump to the conclusion that two competing ideas are somehow on equal footing, and must be given equal consideration. This is a cancerous, poisonous trend that we should be careful to avoid. We need to realize that yes, you can indeed be wrong.


Define wrong? By wrong, I mean demonstrably, proveably, completely wrong. When the overwhelming majority of evidence weighs against an idea, it is wrong. When all logical arguments point to the invalidity of an idea, it is wrong. When something just is not factually correct, it is wrong. It doesn’t matter that it being wrong offends you, or implies something unpleasant, or that it hurts something. What is wrong is simply wrong. No amount of being offended or petulant whining will change that. This does not apply to abstract ideas, where there is plenty of logical wiggle room, or philosophical ponderings, or where the evidence is anything but overwhelmingly conclusive. Within the realm of thoughts and opinions, it is hard to pin anything down as being demonstrably wrong. You can disagree with them; that does not mean they are wrong. But where facts and evidence come into play, it is much more often cut and dry. If you are wrong, then you are simply wrong.


An example: The recent shitstoem over vaccinations. Now, I don’t know your position on vaccinating children. I don’t really care. What should be clear, however, is that there is an overwhelming scientific consensus: Vaccinations do not cause any significant harm to those who are vaccinated. Vaccines do not cause autism. Some previously suppressed diseases have begun to re-emerge, thanks in large part to the growing trend of parents refusing to vaccinate their children. Not vaccinating your child puts them directly at risk of contracting contagious diseases. Now, notice how each of those sentences ended with a period. They were not qualified, they were not compromised, they were absolute. That is because each of those statements is a fact. Thus, the anti-vaccination position, unless it condones the act of putting children at risk, and has a decidedly pro-polio agenda, is quite simply wrong. They are wrong. Demonstrably, they are wrong. Thus, these ideas should be tossed out without further examination. They should get no platform on which to spread their ignorance. They do not belong on the same stage as properly debatable ideas, or on any stage where facts and evidence come into play.


Now, that is just an example, but the problem should be made clear. When unequal ideas are made equal, it is immensely more harmful and more absurd than the equal treatment of unequal people. With this in mind, be sure to examine your ideas, and examine the ideas of others. Forever seek the truth. When dealing with reality, let logic guide your scrutinizing eye. When the wrong and factually incorrect try to seek equal treatment, demand to be given the same voice as the factual, put your foot down, and do not let ignorance advance any further.


Because yes, you can be wrong. And, when you’re wrong you’re wrong, and you should be told so.


Khandnalie Sep 21 '14 · Comments: 9 · Tags: facts, logic, equality, evidence, reason, rationality
Zach Black Owner
So it has been announced the LHP consortium will be in ST.Lewis about April 2018. Prices and exact location to be determined. 


In 2016 I was a presenter and gave a ...presentation ....about modern Satanism. This coming year I have been invited to do the same. I guess I will come up with some new material or maybe jack Dreads ADM. Not sure. Joking Dread...maybe you should come and speak it. 


Here is my presentation last year. I was hoping they would put the LHP consortium somewhere cool that people might actually want to go. Say ...  Las Vegas, LA or NYC. Not my money though I am just a guest. 


If any of you are serious about attending hit me up in private. We might be able to pull a discount SIN thing. If it is anything like last year it was fun. A 3 day weekend of partying and rubbing elbows with occultniks. 





Alwayzfaded1
Quick question for anyone who can help with any suggestions about invocating satan and the possibly that it went wrong?
Alwayzfaded1 Jul 10 '17 · Comments: 9
Paul Ross Fletcher Member
If I am going to be honest about my beliefs, I'd have to say that I'm technically an Atheist, in that I that I don't actively believe in the existence of any gods, in the traditional western sense of the term. But I am also technically an Agnostic, in that I also don't know for certain that there are no gods. However, I do also have both Deist and Pantheistic leanings in that while I do not believe in the existence of any gods, I am open to the possibility of an original cause, a Prime mover, whose only function was to be the original spark/causality of existence, but which does not have any interaction with mankind through divine intervention, or prophetic revelation (Deism). And my concept of what god or gods that may exist, is one in the same with the concept of nature, or the universe (Pantheism). 


Maybe I think about this stuff too much, but there it is. 

Paul Ross Fletcher Sep 13 '16 · Comments: 9
AK



This is a derivative of a conversation I had with my younger, equally as capable, fearless, and intelligent little sister which I'm only bringing up because it only just occurred to me a month or so ago that there are some youngin's about here too (by young I mean 19 well into 31) and sometimes I lose perspective. I just “assume” everyone's been around the sun as many if-not-more times than I have solely on their ability to formulate complete sentences and have to be reminded that I do have an informal fraternal instinct.


-By the age of, say 29, you're going to have accumulated a very, very long list of names who you will never speak to again. Some of them might be your own family. This shocks people as soon as they get out of high-school, and it only gets worse after college. It sort of hurts at first, but you have to learn to discard things. People are also things. You get better at it with time. Unfortunately, it does take practice. You're looking at about 5-6 years of hard slams until the callouses build up.


-Loyalty isn't an actual thing. We're not dogs. It's mostly antidepressants the human animal seeks, hunts, gathers, and uses to stay alive. Everyone is at it. It ranges from hook-ups to prescriptions. If you do not understand what I mean by this, here is a music video to illustrate https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1RuQy8sKKak


-Suicide contemplation is basically pretty normal. Talking about it isn't.


-Women don't get along with each other as much a guy would suppose. We don't know the actual answer to this. It's obscured by the fact that males are a thousand times more apt to swing fists and belt it out. Maybe this is the issue, but don't quote me on this.


-People you do not expect to die might very well die in front of your own eyes tomorrow. You actually might walk into the bathroom and find your mom dead on a toilet like Elvis. That's a reality you end up living with sooner or later. You can adjust to this reality as well, but it's harder than the whole “I met a girl/boy once when I was 23 and it ended bad”


-Stabbing people is only fun if it is justified and you can get away with it and you can run. It is not easy to cut people from your car... unless they are already in your car... in which case, that's a terrible way to treat a passenger and you should be ashamed.

a) Don't give rides to people you feel as if on-the-fence about doing that that to. Not ever.

b) Do work on your cardio. Aim for a 7 minute mile, bang out 4 miles in under a ½ hour, then go shower and start your day. It has so many benies.

      1. If it really bothers our conscience then pick one single charity. Donate a bit to it yeary and tell everyone else to kick rocks. There are Mosques and Churches up the street no matter where you live. Point them that way.

      2. The only thing anyone asks for is more.


  • Guns are also great, but FFS learn to aim (it's not easy). Also don't tie your name to any piece of equipment unless there are insurance purposes at work somehow. Why would anyone do otherwise?

-wear gloves a lot more.


-use and discard ASAP.


-There's an upside to every drug. The down-side is always worse.



-Unless it's your friend or attorney, go mime status. You don't “need” to talk to anyone. You do because you feel like it. Sometimes you don't. That “don't talk to strangers” instinct applies across the board no matter what.


-As soon as they say “Let it” drop it. Drop everything about it with 0 by way of hesitation. This goes through the whole range from women with men problems to men with women problems to criminality. It'll suck. No one wants to kiss an XXX amount of something good bye, but you need to learn to do that or you're going to find out real quick how snitches are made if you don't.


There is 1. 0. and null. Learn to juggle those.




It's the only direction I have to provide. Do you. Keep your eyes open and ditch whatever isn't working as quick as possible. Hanging on to it causes all sorts of problems. 

AK Sep 21 '18 · Comments: 8
Ludwik Chapter Head


In the Satanic Rituals (THE UNKNOWN KNOWN) Anton LaVey speaks ambiguously and enigmatically about the number 9 being the main number of which to identify with Satan and the ego. 


"Despite other's attempts to identify a certain number with Satan (meaning 666), It will be known that Nine is his number. Nine is the number of the Ego, for it always returns to itself. No matter what is done through the most complex multiplication of Nine by any other number, in the final equation nine alone will stand forth." - Anton LaVey, The Satanic Rituals


If you break down the dealings of 9 by employing the use of gematria reduction and Occult numerology, you will see exactly what LaVey was talking about.


Gematria reduction in Occult numerology 
Adding any number to 9 reverts back to the original number it was added to, just as adding ego to anything; changes nothing - the status quo endures.


9+1 = 10 - 1+0 = 1

9+2 = 11 - 1+1 = 2

9+3 = 12 - 1+2 = 3 

9+4 = 13 - 1+3 = 4

9+5 = 14 - 1+4 = 5

9+6 = 15 - 1+5 = 6 

....ad infinitum



Nine is the number of the Ego, reflecting consciousness in the veil of Paroketh because if you times 9 by any number and it will always persevere as 9.


9x1=9

9x2=18 -1+8=9

9x3=27 -2+7=9

9x4=36 -3+6=9

9x5=45 -4+5=9

9x6=54 -5+4=9

... ad infinitum

666 - The number of the Beast, the number of Beast consciousness, the veil of the profane. This number always goes back to 9. 9 and 666 are interchangeable and mean the same thing.


666x1= 666 - 6+6+6=18 - 1+8=9

666x2=1332 - 1+3+3+2 =9

666x3=1998 - 1+9+9+8=27 - 2+7 = 9

666x4=2664 - 2+6+6+4=18 1+8 = 9

666x5=3330 - 3+3+3+0=9

666x6=3996 - 3+9+9+6=27 - 2+7 = 9

... ad infinitum.

Ludwik Jun 9 '16 · Rate: 4.56 · Comments: 8 · Tags: beast, anton lavey, 666, occult, satanism, satanic rituals, numerology, gematria, number 9
Lady-Apostate
Kiss me under the moonlight
For moment of passion of the night
Hold me deep holding me so tight
Under a beautiful site
Stars ocean waves we embrace
Wildly kissing passionately kissing your face
I'm so crazy over you

My fallen Angel I cry for you
For your love to rescue me from
My heartbreak
My fallen angel I cry for you

holding me
Making love under the sea
I need you to rescue me this life
It's Holding me against a knife
I love you Save me save me save me

My fallen angel I cry for you
For your love to rescue me from
My heartbeak
My fallen angel I cry for you
Lady-Apostate Oct 21 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 8 · Tags: poetry
Albert Resigned

We probably all do at some point; so I guess I'm not the only one then.


I actually have dreams about people I am constantly around often, in situ and in internetu.


Since I've known and hung out with AK in cyberspace and emailspace, I've had a total of 2 dreams either about him or in which he had a cameo appearance.


And no: they aren't erotic dreams. They're actually pretty distressing.


Last night was the second time I ever dreamed about AK, actually, he wasn't in the dream, but the dream centered around him.



The dream took place in what looked like a big mall with many floors and stores. But this mall also doubled as an apartment complex of some sort, because there were apartment units in it.


In the dream I was checking out a very large tree. The tree nearly touched the tippy top of the ceiling of the mall.


As I was looking at the ceiling, I noticed a large crack in it. So I said to myself: "AK, you didn't do a good job with the mall. I see a crack."


I guess in the dream AK was the architect of the mall.


So I made my way close to the ceiling, which was made of something like white foam or white chalk.


Then I saw this huge ass crack that ran across the ceiling. I saw bits of the ceiling crumbling and dropping. That's when I said to myself: "Oh fuck. What a fucked up job you did AK! You're gunna kill everybody."


So I ran as fast I could to the bottom floor of the mall, towards the apartment units to fetch my significant other [Vanessa].


I knocked on Vanessa's door, and instantly screamed at her: "Nessa! Quick, the roof is falling! We need to get the fuck out!"


Vanessa had a weird look on her face. I noticed she was putting on her panties. She only had a bra on when I was screaming at her.


So I said to her: "Why were you naked?"


Then, as soon as I asked her that, I see a guy - a man!!! - walk out of her bedroom in the back. He walked into the hall and said: "Is everything all right Vanessa?"


So I'm like: "Who the fuck are you?" I pushed Vanessa out of the way, no longer caring about the roof falling, since I was angry and wanted her and everyone to die.


As I pushed Vanessa out of the way, I said: "Get the fuck out of the way. Who the fuck is he?!"


That was the dream. I woke up in the morning fucking angry as hell. It was weird. I told Vanessa the dream in bed, and I was so angry I picked a fight with Vanessa. It wasn't a serious fight. I'm still emotionally stressed out from the dream. You know like when something disturbing happens and you can't give it closure? Yeah, that feeling.


The first dream I had about AK was many months ago. Maybe 6-8 months ago.


In that first dream AK was physically in the dream.


In the dream, me and AK were skateboarding, in the country side of some kind. There was no sidewalks or cement, so I don't know how we were skateboarding, but we were.


The scenery was like empty fields, with some sand dunes, desert like environment, grass in some places, and lots of vineyards [grape vines].


In the dream AK was boarding faster than me. He was ahead of me, showing off, jumping the sand dunes.


I tried to keep up with him, and at one point I yelled out: "Shane! Wait for me! You're going to fast!"


He said back: "Keep up slow poke!"


So I followed behind AK as he went into this field of grape vines. Then I lost him. The grape vines were in rows, and the vines were tall. I couldn't see him.


I yelled out: "Shane! Asshole! Stop fucking hiding!"


I heard AK yell out: "Over here!"


So I said: "Where?"


I tried to find him in the field of grape vines, and got very lost.


The scenery changed. It was night time. I wandered into some neighborhood with lots of willow trees.


I was scared and lost, trying to find my way home. As I walked down the dark dirt road I was on, in the distance ahead of me, I see a large dog walking my way.


I'm scared of dogs, so I said: "Oh fuck, a dog." So I turned around and ran as fast as I could, leaving my skateboard behind.


I make it to some other street and I saw a man and woman walking. So I ran up to them and said: "I'm lost. can you help me? What's the name of this city?"

The man said to me: "Yeah, you look lost. This city doesn't have a name."


So I said: "What kind of city doesn't have a name? How am I suppose to google it? Fuck." I ran some more, down the dark dirt road.


As I was running - in no particular direction - I stopped, hit myself on the head with my palm, and said: "Duh! My phone. I can just call my family!" So I took my phone out: dead battery.


I kept walking from street to street in that scary neighborhood of willow trees until I made it out into some main street with a plaza of businesses. I felt hella relieved to be out of that dark willow city.


The plaza had lights. There were cars in the street. In the plaza was a pizza shop. I was hungry so I figured I'd buy some pizza. But next door to the pizza shop was this weird new age shop that sold crystals and jewelry. And I was like: "Gasp... jewelry!" So I went inside the new age shop and looked around for a while.


I asked the shop owner what city we were in. The lady in the shop said: "Moreno Valley." It's a city I've lived in before. So I said: "Oh... I know where I am!"


So I went to go look at the street names the plaza was at, and then went to a payphone and called someone to pick me up.


That was the whole dream. Pretty interesting dream.

Albert Apr 5 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 8
AngelMarie
I am curious about satanism and I have been researching it but there is little to nothing to be found on satanic weddings. I find that peculiar and frustrating. Mostly frustrating because my boyfriend has said he wants to marry me and we would both prefer a satanic wedding. Not that we are getting married anytime soon.
AngelMarie May 30 '17 · Rate: 3.50 · Comments: 8
RiderOnTheStorm Mod

“Why Satan?” I am asked, by people who speak the name in hushed tones. “Why the Devil? Why evil?” These questions sound quite valid on the surface and I can understand the incredulity behind an uninformed mind’s opinion. Upon closer examination, however, the questions answer themselves.


Lucifer. God’s own most-loved creation, the favourite angel of the Almighty. Favoured by a God who created him knowing that he would fall and be cast down - and yet loved him most anyway. It seems odd to me that God’s best loved is mankind’s most loathed. And I don’t understand the reasons he is so hated and feared. If one studies any facet of Abrahamic religion, the only reasonable conclusion is that Lucifer is truly the champion of humankind.


John 3:16 states “For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son; that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish, but have everlasting life.” God loved the world? When did he love it? When he flooded it and killed millions of people? When he had bears maul children for mocking a bald man? When he was so insecure he almost made a father kill his own son just to prove how much faith he had? This is not love. Creating beings imbued with free will and punishing them for exercising said free will is most assuredly not a loving act.


God created man and put him in paradise. But he encouraged man to remain ignorant. This was not for man’s own good - this was so man’s cognitive abilities would not rival God’s own. He created an item that would illuminate the mind of man and then banned him from ever utilising it. That is not love. Love - true, deep, unconditional love - is wanting to see your loved ones flourish; to see them reach the pinnacle of happiness and wisdom. Love is elevation and guidance - hate is suppression and willful obstruction.

Who then, in Eden, acted out of love? Certainly it was not God. It was the snake. The snake identified as Lucifer. It was Lucifer who encouraged humanity to gain wisdom and knowledge, it was Lucifer who supported humanity in their strive for autonomy, it was Lucifer who selflessly stepped in and guided man every step of the way, out of the garden of ignorance and into the world of wisdom. Lucifer lifted the veil God placed across the eyes of man: Lucifer taught man how to truly see.


Lucifer the Light Bringer, the Morning Star. For a being so reviled, he has never stopped loving and protecting us. Where God sees sin, Lucifer sees instinct. Instincts that are, often, pleasurable and beneficial for humanity, and are only considered “bad” when indulgence gives way to compulsion. Lucifer gave man the gift of freedom - freedom from a God who would control our thoughts and actions. Having given us such a gift, it’s only natural that he would want us to retain that freedom, and addictions and compulsions are masters we choose to obey. So he encourages us to learn, live, and enjoy, but bow to no master but ourselves. 


Humanity has benefited from the indulgence of instinct, often seen as sin in the eyes of the righteous. Pride has given us health and self-esteem, lust has given us procreation and survival of the species, sloth has given us recuperation and reprieve from mental and physical exertion, gluttony has given us agriculture, envy has given us ambition, greed has given us exploration, and wrath has given us motivation. These are the seven deadliest sins, so abhorrent are they that God himself is incapable of forgiving these transgressions. To Lucifer, these are not sins, they are guarantors of health, prosperity, survival, and happiness. In fact, the only acts Lucifer cannot abide are the sins of willful ignorance and purposeful stagnation. 


While often portrayed as the Adversary (and rightfully so), it is obvious that he is not the adversary of goodness and purity. Satan is the adversary of tyranny and oppression. It is a mantle thrust upon him by detractors, but to those who understand his motives, it is a banner. Whenever man has created or appreciated art, it is because of the gift Lucifer gave us. Whenever man has applied critical thought to the world around him, it is because of the gift Lucifer gave us. Whenever man has escaped servitude and mental or physical bondage, whenever man has fought for justice and progress, it is because of the gift Lucifer gave us.


This is my answer. “Why Satan?” Because there is no other acceptable alternative. Lucifer gave us wisdom, joy, appreciation, freedom, love, acceptance, pleasure, and power. Lucifer was cast down from Heaven, rejected by his creator, because of the value he saw in himself and in God’s other creations. And in God’s eyes, the worst thing any creature can do is value himself, for to do so is to start the journey to self-reliance. And God cannot exist where man has come to rely on himself to meet his needs. The Devil has no such insecurities. He knew full well that by giving man the gift of knowledge, he would eventually find himself obsolete as mankind became self-aware and autonomous. I have no use for John 3:16, this is the truth: "For Lucifer so loved the world, that he gave himself, that whosoever should open their eyes would not wander blind, but have everlasting sight." - Rider 3:16


This is my love letter to the one that set me free. To the one who unbound my shackles of fear, insecurity, and mental servitude. A thank you to the fallen angel who has sacrificed his existence and reality in order to elevate my own. A declaration of gratitude and adoration to the one who is personified within myself. May the light he fell to bring us radiate through me for all to see. There is no God or Devil, no Heaven or Hell - there is only what we create for ourselves. This knowledge, this power, gives us each omnipotence, it requires only that we be brave enough to take it.


I am a Daughter of the Morning Star. I am the Adversary of the Dying Lamb. 

RiderOnTheStorm Dec 15 '16 · Rate: 4.75 · Comments: 8
Xaroxeum
So i wanted to write a Blog about the Paranormal and hauntings. Just to tell my point of view on some experiences i have had with normal, as well as demonic type hauntings before - and read about others, and their take on what they think about the Paranormal.


First to start off, i wanted to talk about my experiences. I have had a total of 4 experiences with "Hauntings" before. Once when i was a little kid, and 3 times during a Ghost Hunting session 2 years ago. My first experience, happened when i was 8 years old. My great grandfather was a WWII veteran, and served in Europe against Nazi Germany - he was Airbourn Infantry. He passed away a year after i was born, so i never got to meet him - to my memory. I remember seeing pictures of him alive, and pictures taken of him whilst in his Casket during his Funeral. He was buried in his Airbourne Retirement uniform - and this experience happened after getting home from School. I entered my house and went to my bedroom, and about 5-9 minutes after getting home, i looked through the hallway into my parents' bedroom, and i seen my GGF standing there looking at the wall. He appeared in his Retirement uniform. I looked at him for about 16 seconds, and there was no emotion coming from him. I looked away for 2 seconds to put something i had in my hand down, looked back, and he was gone. It freaked me out, but at the same time i felt a loving presence during the Experience.


My other Experiences happened in One place 2 years ago. Near me there is a famous haunted bar called Bobby Mackey's Music World in Wilder,Ky. I went there after seeing the establishment featured on TV. I wont tell the full story, as its longer then my first story - But, all the experiences i had, where sort of Demonic in Nature. We heard growls, screams, yells, and i even seen on 2 occasions, full figures of 2 men near the establishments Staging area. I was touched numerous times, and one full apparent touch, was on my arm, as i felt large, sand-paper like hand, grab my arm for 1 second. Which i was no where near anyone else at the time, and was completely alone. If you would like to read more about this establishment, just click Here.


With that being said, i wanted to get other peoples takes on what they think about the Paranormal, hauntings, and Ghosts in General - and also hear, if possible, anyone else's experience's in it.


Being a Chaos-Gnostic Satanist - obviously the type of satanism i follow, doesn't pertain to any worshiping of an Supernatural Entity - and i know some Satanists are either Skeptical, or neutral to these sort of things.

sectheother
In the 17th century, America's first "Satanic Panic" occured in Massachusetts known as The Salem Witch Trials, mass hysteria circulated of devil worshippers, witches & warlocks. Because of extreme religious beliefs, anyone accused of witchcraft was either burned or brought to the gallows to be hung. Those who accused these so-called witches claimed to incite "righteous murder" in the name of God.
Now fast forward time to the 1960's the formation of Anton LaVey's Satanic philosophy, people were contrasting him with the likes of Jim Jones, David Koresh & Charles Manson with fears of another cult. Mixed emotions of fear & anger came forward.
Then in the 1980's America's second "Satanic Panic" took place. Preschools, musicians, movies & television where caught in the storm of paranoia, as well as the serial killings of Richard Ramirez would only fan the flames of this panic. Churches were generating as much profit as possible from those frightened by the idea of Satanists amongst American society.
The year is now 2016 & Satanism has never been stronger in America. With our andvances in technology & science, it has generated more atheists & more people to spend time in front of their phones & tablets instead of attending church. America now takes part in all 7 deadly sins without worry of God's wrath & without knowledge of this. Lust, Envy, Greed, Sloth, Gluttony, Wrath & Pride are everywhere you look. Your family, your friends, our music, our movies, television, video games, even the internet. All taking part in the new Satanic order constructed by Anton LaVey. Although most people are unaware of this & still assume Satanism is related to blood worship, ritualistic rape, murder, mass suicide or some other deluted vision of this philosophy, the bottom line is this, America was founded as a Christian nation with a strict god fearing order, has now evolved into a free thinking, atheistic nation with the love for sex, money, food & relaxation. The U.S.A. is now Under Satan's Authority.

"We are heading into a new Satanic age, the evidence is all around us, all we have to do is look at it"
-Anton Szandor LaVey, "The Black Mass", 1960
sectheother Dec 2 '16 · Rate: 4 · Comments: 8 · Tags: under satan's authority, usa, satanism, satanic, america, 666
EdMenonymous Member
Ed is lost in the ABYSS fellas.. and I am here to fukkin stay.. Until the burning of hell and all of her wrath either KILLS ME or SETS ME FREE!"

Thing for me is this new RE  FOCUS... that they are not outside of me but exist within me and will surface from within by MY WILL and PROPER CHANNELING... But what really is with in that is not with out..?

They are so like sensitive kittens OUR DÆMONS and only RUN LIKE LIGHTENING upon approach...

 I must SUFFER AND WAIT AND DIE AND WAIT TO DIE...for the KITTY TO COME TO ME...

Artistic writing aside... yea the fukkin dæmons hide in and under guise of legitimately worshipped gods... now we're talkin...  

and more why can't all of you just fukkin worship EdMe.?.

or AK or Zach or the weakest person you know that you love because they are weakened by OUR SICK MTHA FKKN SOCIETY!..

why don't we set each other up on each others' altars and worship each other.. and give each other our blind undying LOVE ... ?

actually you know what? fuck AC fuck ABREMELIN..

My new gods are AK Zack black Charles and this lovely amazing dude who is the pot at the end of my rainbow!!1

Fuck these gods and dæmons and satan and ALL !!!

now this is one... its just writing.. its just struggling.. it doesn't mean anything..

but what does mean something..?

to you? what really matters and means anything to u and why? 

Love and sex magick connection....

people who inspire me

people and shit I can learn from...

One time I picked this flower and I pretended like um it was a He and um he just wanted to be picked knowing that HE WAS SOON FOR DEATH.. but he didn't care this flower.. He wanted to walk with me.. and SEE THE WORLD AROUND HIM THAT HE'D BEEN PLANTED IN HIS WHOLE LIGHFE...

He was such a funny flower... he kept looking around saying WOW WOW WOW!

WHAT an amazing day! Wow the sky and those clouds and.. oh wow look at those ladies down there! Wow.. hay ladies... and of course he was talking to all the weeds stuck in the ground these little pretty flowers just growing everywhere all around.. and all the lady flowers were like wow who was that... what a hottie... ? oh wow...  and so yea.. here we are IN the ABYSSS...

I don't wanna get out  i LIKE IT HERE GODDAMMIT!

Atleast its NOT BORING AT ALL!q!!

EdMenonymous Jul 15 '18 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 8 · Tags: the abyss, flowers, mysticism
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