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Falling in now,
Fatal descension  
Death wont take for granted a rose 
timeline blazing
winds hesitation
No ...
didn't wanna GO ON.

life spent Crazy
 mind went Lazy
No ...
didn't wanna GO ON..

Ilustrious craving 

world so Amazing..
Complexion matrix programming flaws...

Sacred Self slaying
deeper liaisons 

Stunning lies
latch on to belief

 Starve em now

shoot em down 
stand up fight

the right to be free

needles pains in play

Daemons reep hearts away

No love forever long as a song...

No.. 
Do not want to GO ON...

CRYing creation
sequence ideation
weaker hives must die in the fold.

Cheat off higher minds '
Shadows strong in light

Darkness gives us nothing to hold

Integrated delineation  
Impossible permeation
Contrary solutions to peace
Going no where 

None Belonging here

No 

Im not ready to GO..

Dreamtime receding
Last time a stones throw

Apex stars appear as inline..

Falling outdated
Ascension ill fated
Freedom lives for no one to please 
too much love tares

Villainous trap snares
As the hunted 

NO 

dont want to GO ON...

Ship stealing traces
in finite spaces..
Iridescent 
Alien Dream

Time trans/scribes mind
In circuitous mazes 
For Nothing 

may I only solve ONE...

Oh I..  im not ready to GO ..
No Im.. not ready to GO
not ready LET GO...

As a child I became aware of the shadow within me at a very early age and by age 7 was very confused about what this was. Having given it several names and then accepting it as my twin, even telling other children about my sister who did not live with me but lived with my father who had separated from my Mother when I was one; she was not like me though, she was naughty, did what she wanted and could change how she looked, pretty like a girl at first but as I got used to her being around she slowly let me see her true self, so dark and mysterious and actually having no gender; I always knew it would never hurt me, it protected me.  

Obviously this all has to be put into a child's perspective of the world around them; mine was full of abuse and neglect. 

Satanism awakened me, only in the last couple of years, to this concept of "The Shadow" being the beast within me, my true self, the primeval ego of self preservation. I was The shadow. 

After many years of studying psychology to try to gain knowledge of what I knew had been happening for so many years yet was so surreal I almost was afraid to talk about it to anyone for want of them saying I was mad, nothing helped. 

I now know that to survive the abuse in my childhood I had separated my conscious self from the physical body, I had let the shadow out and all the animal instincts that came with it, considered sins by societies standards, to fight back, to attack those who attacked you, to do what I wanted, to live for myself, to love myself, to question and investigate, to gain knowledge and self growth... TO SURVIVE! 

Carl Jung on the "Shadow Self" by Thomas LeRoy

I AM SATAN. HAIL SATAN.