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Dominic Cross
A new Member here at Satanic International Network and seeking to make contact with other Theistic Satanists or Diabolists who reside in the British Isles who may be interested in the joining of an online Satanic Order for those in this region.

Also welcome contact from those who seek knowledge of the Arts of Satanic Black Magick, Demonology and Infernal Rites as I am a Tutor of these elements of Left Hand Path Occultism.

As said on my Profile Bio (which possibly should be read before contacting me, for I may not be the sort of person you seek to contact) I am something of an isolate loner and quite reclusive but I do believe in the sharing of knowledge and am High Priest over a Satanic Order that is unfortunately only for those in the British Isles.
However I do have other methods of relaying knowledge on the Satanic Arts for those who are sincere worldwide.

Looking forward to my time here.

Infernal Benedictions

Dominic Cross

Zoramonkey Member
Tonight I will be streaming live on youtube. I have worked most of the bugs out of OBS and the subject will be Satanic International Network. If you are reading this you qualify as a guest. This will be live and will probably be posted after the stream is over on my channel. You can just watch, or participate. Participation can be in the form of video appearance via skype or facebook video or voice chat, or in the form of text only as there will be a chatbox. Starting time is 7pm central time.

This is the url: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5YlgMoqTqC8
Zoramonkey Sep 25 '17 · Rate: 5 · Tags: live video
Zoramonkey Member
Just recently did some uploading to vid.me and in light of current events I recommend that anyone who makes online video do the same. Censorship on the google owned youtube website looms as the adpocolypse has even effected channels dealing in such subjects as warfare and weapons in Ancient Rome and Feudal Japan like Metatron's. Vid.me assures that such content can be viewed at least for now.

My vid,me channel is https://vid.me/Badthings
Zoramonkey Sep 25 '17 · Tags: online video
Zoramonkey Member
The frustration I experience living in Houston is unimaginable. In a town of 2.388 million people I have yet to find a meeting group of real life Luciferians, Satanists or LHP people.

I have found this site and a few others. Some Thelemic sites, a few barely active Pagan sites, I have even found a RL Thelemic group but no groups meeting in my town.

I have breifly spoke to the local G.C.O.L. person I know on facebook and he is aware of the situation but is having some difficulty he would not elaborate on. I could not even donate to his website.

I know there is one other S.I.N. member in the facebook group for my Thelemic group but he has yet to show up and I doubt he would even identify himself.

I can understand why any existing group would choose to be very underground here in Houston as there are several groups here who object to any of us existing on any level, or perhaps have jobs that if they were exposed would mean getting fired but seriously.

Online I talk to several different types of LHP people, Satanists and Luciferians but here in Houston they seem to elude me.

I have been in groups before in this town just a little bewildered that the last 8 months have been so hard to locate any.

Zoramonkey Sep 23 '17 · Comments: 1 · Tags: houston, community
Marcus Fain
Always I have been drawn to the Old Ways of Satanic Witchcraft . . . the Sabbat of the Black Goat attended by the Witches dedicated to Satan, ancient Spells and Incantations carried out in the abode of the hidden Practitioner, the elements of the land and nature merged with the Demonic currents of Hell, the primal summoning of Demonic beings through the Sacrosanct Evocations of the Infernal Witch and the inscribing of strange Sigils.

The recent film THE WITCH captured the essence of these times perfectly as did the Paintings of the Old Master Goya and the book WITCHES by Erica Jong, the artwork of that book so evocative that it stirred in me past life memories of the Old Times of Medieval Witchcraft and Devil Worship.

It is impossible to tell how old the practice of Witchcraft and Elemental Magick merged with Diabolism and Demonic Sorcery is, the Modern Atheistic Satanist would have you believe that this connection never existed and that Satanism arose with the writing of Anton LaVey but this is not so.

There are many documents of Witches over the centuries practicing Workings with Satan, Historical Records of such practices of the Black Mass, Witchcraft and Satanism being practiced alongside each other such as in the infamous case of the 'affair of the Poisons' which through the Court of King Louis XIV of France into chaos and revealed the Unholy practices of such people as Madame de Montespan, Abbe Guibourg and the Poisoner LaVoison.

These events definitely influencing the later writings of the novelist JK Huysmans in the same country with his excellent fictional Satanic piece LA~BAS (DOWN THERE).

But in much older times we can see the origins of the merging of Demonic Sorcery and Witchcraft with other Arcane elements ~ for example there are reports of the sister of the first of the great Alchemists Zosimos of Panopolis (who was practicing and teaching is Arts in around the end of the 3rd and beginning of the 4th century) Theosobia utilized forms Elemental Witchcraft and Alchemy along with Demonic Evocation, a practice which Zosimos constantly warned her against being a practioner of the Right Hand Path.

The merging of Diabolism and Dark Witchcraft has been with us for centuries and underground Covens still practiced these Arts into the late 1980s and early 1990s as I know from personal experience . . . it is a merging of great power which has sadly faded or maybe returned to its secret Cabals in the shadows since the rising of LaVeyan Satanism and Wicca (two paths while being workable and suited to some are indeed pale imitations of the Mysteries of the former practices of Diabolic Witchcraft.

Satanic Witchcraft (also at times termed Diabolic Witchcraft or Infernal Paganism) is possibly the darkest and most powerful of all Left Hand Path Traditions and - if one can find proper working material on the subject - a Tradition of Magick which is one of the most raw and easily accessed.

Many of the Old Grimoires on Magick contain extensively long preparations and Rites and endless lists of tools and requirements, but in truth Magick is not about the equipment or archaic observations it is about the actual projection of will and desire united with elements to connect us to the realms of Spirit and other worldly power ~ the very basic practice of Animism and Image Magick (the most ancient form of Magickal application) can be as powerful as a Rite of Ceremonial Magick which may last for two hours.

It is my intention here to bring an interest back in the Practice and Workings of Satanic Witchcraft, a revival of the Old Mysteries of a time when the Moon would be the only observer of the Dark Operations of the Witches gathered at the Black Sabbat of the Devil, Our Lord Satan.

To kindle once more the Magick, beauty and power of the ways of the Dark Arts of the Devil's Kindred in a time when Magick was raw and the power of its practice primal and potent!

Zoramonkey Member
Okay this one has probably been done before or in other places but I am going to post this information again in a blog because some of you may not know all this exists.

The Youtube addpocolypse had me running to other video venues and It brought to mind something I had learned about the internet long ago. Do not put the collective eggs of an entire community in one basket. There are other Satanic and occult and even Pagan sites with a Satanic section but I believe the community on this site is unique. It thrives on other media like youtube and facebook unlike other venues which seem almost strangely inactive. The 600 club occasionally gets some activity and I am known by the same name on that site.

In addition to Zack's youtube channel for the site which is linked on the front page, there are a few facebook groups and some more forays into social media soon, but here is a list of the ones I moderate and/or run:

The first is reddit. If you do not visit the site you should as it is not only a forum on any topic known to human kind and a great way to interact anonymously like this does, and it is perhaps the most complete repository for information on the planet. The main site is reddit.com. I moderate a few groups there:

The subreddit for this site.


A subreddit for LHP spirituality. The other one was a gag set up by some trolls.


The subreddit for my Youtube channel.


My Twitter feed

If you game we have a steam group


This is my youtube channel


My Minds.com account


My vid.me channel


younow.com channel


The discord channel for the site, also known as The Devil's Workshop


If you are a site member you can friend me on facebook but please let me know you are from sin so I can put you into that feed.


As you can see I have been busy despite my lack of presence on this site. My goals are parallel to Zack's in that I want to create more awareness and unity in the LHP community. I encourage not only traffic on the links I am providing but for others to do as I have. You get the idea.

Other projects include: A .onion and I2p library of occult and counter-cultural topics including a Thelemic library in Arabic. (Hehe.)

Youtube and google hangouts.

Group video chats for the O.T.O. As well as the same for theistic LHP folks. We do have the livechat on this site but Tinychat is a bit archaic and I would like to find a better client before I jump into this project. Which, by the way if you have not tried out the livechat for this site please give it a try.

RiderOnTheStorm Mod
My dear Unholy Father,
I thank you for your grace

May the warmth of the Morningstar

Shine eternally upon my face

Grant to me your courage

That I may demolish my fears

I listen for your infernal voice

Whispering softly in my ears

Dearest Sanguine Mother,
I thank you for your grace

May the outcast children that you bore

Help guide me through this earthly place

Lend to me your firm resolve

That I may stand up tall

I speak with your wicked tongue

Words to make the Dying Lamb fall

Hail Lucifer! Hail Lilith!

Cast your favour upon your child

I have become the Adversary

On behalf of the sinful and defiled

Hail my Satanic brethren!
Hail me, for I am god!
I am the Alpha and Omega

On cloven hooves I trod



This is something that I wrote a while ago. I use it for meditation, catharsis, "prayer," whatever you want to call it. I am staunchly atheistic, however I enjoy a bit of ritual now and again. Enjoy and thanks for reading!

RiderOnTheStorm Sep 20 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 4
Zoramonkey Member

As you guys know we recently had a flood and during said flood I had surgery. The day I was released I received a phone call while waiting in a doctors office.

It was this missionary guy from my mother's church, feigning interest in my situation and trouble.

He made some comment about me being a child of God and I guess it might of been the pain but I could not be polite.

I told him  that by calling me a child he was attempting to infantalize me and make me more receptive to manipulation. I am 51 years old for Christ's sake. I think I at least deserve to be treated as an adult.

He lost any interest in my situation and accused me of saying that he was stupid, all because I requested he not refer to me as a child.

I tried to be polite and tell him that I was not calling him stupid but the harder I tried to be reasonable the more childish he became.

His "Christian compassion" seemed to evaporate as if by magic. Never mind that the clots from the Leiden's syndrome was still increasingly painful  and that my mother had just lost her house and that neither of us had had any food since I left the hospital because the local groceries were still recovering from the storm. It was more important to turn my refusal to be manipulated into an insult to either destroy my resistance or dehumanize me into an irredeemable damned soul bent on insulting well meaning Christians.

I've seen better use of logic and reason from an angry four year old. After about thirty minutes of me restating what I said and him screaming I hung up. After about a minute of silence I laughed....Fucking Christians.


Zoramonkey Member

Many people coming from such religions as the Abrahamic faiths or even the hero worshiping pseudo Abrahamic faiths like Mormonism  or non Abrahamic Faiths that are centered around a strong central figure like Scientology or Buddhism get confused when dealing with either the theistic or non-theistic LHP as when one gets into serious practice the following and submission to a central figure or prophet is not existent or at least not as prevalent.

Outside of the strong hero oriented cults like Islam, and Christianity the only other faiths that most people know about on any level are ethno-centric or at least culturally or nationally specific like Asatru, Hinduism or Shinto. Though the LHP can be practiced in ethnocentric or culturally specific terms it is defiantly not limited to that.

So all this begs the question: "If the LHP does not come from a specific culture or tradition and no real central prophet figure has yet emerged where did it come from?"

Now I can already hear the cries of Lavey's name and or Crowley's. I submit that neither individual introduced the LHP and in both cases followers of their groups often splintered into very different practices.

In Ceremonial Magick the LHP is said to have always existed and I agree with the concept just not the specifics. Bardon would have the reader believe that the LHP was sort of an eternal Obama figure responsible for every problem that arose in history. Blavasky obviously mistook the LHP for any spirituality that was expressed sexually or with sexual symbols as she had the bad luck of marrying a man young and her preferences went to women. Crowley, perhaps the only figure with any first hand knowledge of the LHP at all told his students that there was no difference between the RHP and the LHP at the fundamental levels or at least till the abyss was crossed and the grade of Magus was achieved.

Now if we take Bardons narrative then this shadowy cabal is a secret group and responsible for all kinds of mischief. If such a group existed they would need to make sure to eliminate any aspiring upstarts and thus you and I would be dead or imprisoned. Keep in mind Bardon's objective was to write books and make money.

Blavasky was exposed to such practices as Vajrayana and Vamachara (Who refer to themselves as the path of the left hand and have since antiquity) This was probably encouraged by Vaishite, Mahavana and Hinyana gurus she met as the whole LHP is not hated in the east but it does seem to annoy many gurus as one of the tenants of both systems involve breaking rules rather than following them.

Crowley had a vested interest in keeping his initiates calm and assuring them they were not making a Faustian deal by following him plus he could not resist raising hell in the public eye by occasionally making a Satanic comment or hosting a black mass.

Lavey was the first person to publicly endorse the LHP and within a short time the TOS splintered from his group. I assert that Lavey is not the founder of either Satanism or the LHP nor is he even held as an unquestionable prophet even by Laveyans.

Before I go any further I would like to make a breif mention of not only Crowley's religion, Thelema but also Masonry, Rosicrucianism and other such fraternal groups. Almost all of them make several references to the Knights Templar. Why would this be important, And just who is this Baphomet rascal anyway?

I submit that most of what we know of the occult and the LHP seems to owe it's existence to the crusades.

Why? Well imagine the Knights Templar or the poor knights as they were called. Imagine a hand to hand war with Islam, run by a theocratic monarch and adherence to a system that in many ways was even more restrictive than modern sharia.

Imagine the Templars living far from home. The culture was alien and they were rarely trusted by locals and not even permitted to retreat from battle even in the face of overwhelming odds. Imagine the fanaticism that was required to maintain such an endeavor in a time before radio, telephones or mass transportation. The psychological pressure and trauma not to mention multiple cultural pressures must have been beyond imagination.

From what it looks like happened (I was not there despite claims that the crusades happened in the Regan years.) the psychological and ecclesiastical system just snapped. First Templars who were in fact secretly gay probably began openly expressing themselves. They rode two to a horse and never knew if they were going to die the next day or not. Far from family and community they formed the only safe bonds they could and many of them just fell in love with one another as you would expect.

Outcast from their own culture and inside a hostile area they also made cultural ties to the other outsiders in the Holy land at the time...The Pagans, Jews, and the Yesedis, possibly even the stray Buddhist or Hindu if they ran into them.

Mixing the beliefs they encountered and the odd form of Catholicism they started with, it would not take long for several strange belief to take hold. They would also be forced to keep tight lipped about any details at all about any thing they were into. Sort of a what happens in Jerusalem stays in Jerusalem attitude sprung up.

Later, because of money owed to Phillip the Fair of France they were killed off and the remaining Templars went further into hiding.

The Church began its own campaigns of purging heretics as it had done with the Gnostics (the first of which were Luciferian) and the Cathars (Who also embraced some very LHP concepts) centuries earlier. Protestantism as well as Islam coupled with antisemitism, anti-Paganism, homophobia, Sexism, and embarrassment over the loss of the crusades started several inquisitions and witch hunts. Everything the church did not like was forced even further underground and the groups that were the legacy of the Templars seemed to gravatate to all of it.

Alchemy, Religious concepts from Kabbalism and Paganism, Homosexuality, Free sexuality, philosophy, political doctrines like anti monarchy and democracy were all embraced and such fraternal organizations attracted the growing middle class and intellectual classes.

Now we enter the modern era. The late industrial revolution to be exact. The fraternal legacy of the Templars is no longer the main resistance to the theocratic and authoritarian forces with such concepts as evolution, psychology, and mass entertainment doing much of the work to clear out the archaic ideologies.

The groups that represented the legacy of the Templars made a huge split. On one side they represented the status quo. Sometimes standing against an old ideology here and there like racism or caste systems but for the most part  just a boys club for the more or less well to do elements of society. On the other end were the esoterists. Mystics and rebels who took the most radical elements of the Templars legacy and ran with it.

As we went from the industial age to the atomic age to the information age, such groups continued to evolve at a greatly accelerated rate. I have often postulated that if we simply had a system of peer review for religion like we do for science most of mans religious problems could be cleared up in a decade. Such a process was in play with the esoteric fraternal groups as the helped facilitate the rebirth of Paganism, the Kabbalistic practices, free thought, Atheism and such. The closer a group was to the LHP the harder it was for them to fall into the hero worship trap.

Take for example the Temple of Set. Though founded by Aquino it has fostered several leaders rather that worshiping one or waiting for him to die before moving onto another. Don Webb and Stephen Flowers just to name a few.

Even in one group there are often many practitioners who draw more from a side sorce rather than the whole group just marching in lock step like a clone army. I believe this shows that there is a measurable LHP spirituality or culture that can be practiced by even the most inexperienced beginner in the LHP that causes them to be a little more ready to think for themselves and mix and match systems. This concept can be very confusing to beginners who are used to the monolithic spirituality that most of society clings to.

This brings me to our androgynous friend Baphomet. What he was to the crusaders was unknown. Rumors range from everything from a mispronunciation of Mohamed to the head of John the Baptist, to some ancient demon to the Prince of Darkness himself.

When I look at the image of him that Levi made that is so popular today I see a figure that is equally man and animal, male and female, having parts of all the elements in his or her person. Solve et Coagula to destroy and create, much like the three parts of the most ancient Hindu mantra OM or AUM as Crowley put it. Creating, Preserving and Destroying. The Atman, the soul, the mind, the body, Hadit(that which experiences) and Nuit (that which is experienced) The self, and the world. The unknown God that the Greeks shown the Apostle Paul, That which remains when all else is taken away.

If this was not what the Templars worshiped in the Temple of Solomon it should have been. Thus the LHP at it's core was not founded or rediscovered by one individual nor does it impose any strange system of morality or method that is not natural to the self. It's prophet and founder is that which remains when all else has been taken away, not some narcissistic prophet or savior or even some well meaning authority figure. Power is a choice as is freedom, plain and simple. To know, to will, to dare and to keep silent. I have always had trouble with the last one.

Sparkles and unicorns my degenerate brothers and sisters. Stay true to yourselves most of all.

Mauricio Gonzalez II
Hallo Every One!,

Before I explain my reasons as to why I don't show picture images my face publicly, I would like to first express my gratitude. I have been pretty active on here as much as possible ever since I first joined & must say that I quite like it here, my stay has been most enjoyable...thus I am thankful to have been "approved", A good opportunity to bring Honor to Our Benefactors by helping contribute as much as I could to our noble Satanic Struggle & providing any assistance to fellow Satanic Kindred!

Now on to my personal reasons as to why I don't put up I picture image of my face in public, one is spiritual & the other is materialistic:

>Spiritual: It is said that picture images capture part of the person's soul, they catch "The Spirit Of The Moment" (art drawings are similar too) & thus the most recent picture image is by far the most accurate "sight" of an attacker who holds some thing against the person in question. So I choose not to put up A public picture image of my self because there are spells & rituals out there that involves using picture images or art depictions, potential enemies (specifically from "The Right-Hand Path") would try to do harm up on either me or my family due to my *Satanic* (Anti-Christ/Al-Daijal) nature.

>Materialistic: Now this is obvious & pretty much common sense....I have the intent to be more politically involved & start putting in my political bid by the next decade, thus I do not desire my enemies to twist the meaning of my words against me in an effort to make sure that I don't succeed. Now don't get me wrong, I shall still wear my "Satanic Pride" as I run for office in the future & hold true to our faith...just don't desire past words or my ideas to be used as ammunition for slanderous propaganda against me!

So there you have it!, two reasons why I don't show picture images of my face out in public. Perhaps I may show to A few people who I feel comfortable enough with in the mean time, but then shall reveal my self more after I win the election in the next decade & thus I say unto my fellow Satanic Kindred...the one who wears the PeaCock feather & Totenköph is your best friend, my close allies know what the *hints are! ;).



      ~MG2 [s.s.s.] 3:).

Zoramonkey Member

I know everyone is tired if sequels but once in a while the sequel is actually better than the original.

In the 80s I loved the Subgenius stuff more than life itself. There was a book that they made that began a process that continues to this day. That beek was called High Weirdness By Mail. Not only did the book contain summaries of every strange and interesting organization in America at the time from the Church of Popeye to the Temple of Set, It had their mailing addresses. I inquired to every organization in the book. 

My world went from a tiny Christian-dominated village to a massive global city that housed every idea both good and bad. There was no internet back then.

Now flash to the present. The old monsters that relied on print to shape the opinions of people are close to death. Reuters and AP are shadows of their formal selves. CNN and Fox are almost jokes though some people still watch them. The wounded animal lashes out and the youtube adpocolypse happened. Facebook is becoming the new Reuters and the old guard tries to regain the control over our opinions and buying habits.

There all small pockets of resistance like this site but most of humanity seems hell bent on depending on media giants  just changing the name of the conglomerants who shape their opinions. It seems hopeless.

The recent debacle at google and the youtube adpocolypse has created a fair amount of dissent as have cries of fake news. I seek not to slay the giant but to fan the flames that he fears.

The internet is a big place and competition is a good thing, so, I am going to start this thread with a rough outline of the sites I know with my opinions on them. I encourage commenters to do the same. Not everybody is adept enough to find and evaluate several links but those who can or think they can should do some of the leg work for the less informed. Some of you will find this information basic and unnecessary but trust me there are several folks who have no idea where to go to get media or information. It will benefit all of us when people who have little basic information begin to explore the more obscure and less traveled sections of the internet. Please comment with your contributions as well.

There seem to be mercifully few LHP sites out there. It is my hope that those less adept in internet navigation and such will begin using and putting content on the below mentioned venues. 

The Giants

Facebook.com - Everyone knows this one and most of us use it. As a venue for video, images, text, games, it seems to do everything, but it is far too big. It is best to be used as a jumping off point.

Twitter.com - Much like facebook with a text character limit. Again a great jumping off point

Tumblr.com - As above just made for blogging. It has some of the worst content on the internet

Reddit.com - The thinking man/womans jumping off point.

Google.com/Google+ Everyone uses the mail and search but its days are numbered.

Instagram.com - Mostly for pictures

Wikipedia.org - A user contributed encyclopedia. Good as a jumping off point, bad as a source.

The Dying/dead platforms

Myspace.com - Now only used by young people and some elements of the music scene. Because it is a dead platform it can be used by any group.

Yahoo.com - Sporting the most hackable platform and mail client, Yahoo is a creepy ghostown.   


Youtube.com -Once a great platform now it stands to be dethroned by its own censorship methods.

Vimeo.com - Great for live and streaming video. The oldest competetor to youtube.

Vidme.com - A great and up and coming alternative to youtube.

Periscope.tv - It seems nice but we'll have to see how it works out.

Younow.com - Seems to work insome relation to vidme.com

Crunchyroll.com -The premiere anime video service

Netflix.com - A movie platform that almost everyone uses.

Hulu.com - Pretty much another television/movie platform

Odd places

4chan.com - An anonymous form of social media. There is some really horrible stuff here but if you want to either anonymously release information or read stuff that someone need to post anonymously then this platform is for you. There is surprisingly little occult content here.

f-list.com -A place to chat about various odd fetishes and rollplay them


Pornhub.com -Perhaps the best mainstream free porn site

youporn.com -A sister site to pornhub

redtube.com - Another mainstream free porn site.


Itunes.com - A for pay music service. Perhaps a bit obsolete but time will tell.

Pandora.com - An internet radio service. There are several others out there.

Soundcloud.com -A music venue used by many smaller and up and coming musicians. 


Discord.com - The best chat/video chat client out there. Primarily set up for gaming but it is arms and legs above any other service.

Tinychat.com An older chat client and the one used for livechat on this site. A bit buggy but there is hope if they ever update it.


Blizzard.com - Most Blizzard games are made to be played with others. If you have never done this it might be worth giving it a look.

steam.com - A venue for games of all sorts and it even has social media capabilities.

eveonline.com - I only mention this to plug my favorite mmo

twitch.com - A venue that allows you to watch people play games. Oddly more popular than one would think.


satanicinternationalnetwork.com - This site

paganspace.net -An occult social media site. It does have a Satanist section.

600club.com -The other Satanic social media site

Hermetic.com - An online occult library

hermetics.com - Another online occult library

oto-usa.org - A global occult society and an online occult library.

occultforum.org -Another online occult social media site. 

Xeper.org -A pioneer on the internet for the LHP. Any LHP person, Satanist, Luciferian, 

demonalotor, Thelemite is doing themselves a disservice if they do not visit this site.

Subgenius.com -Not exactly an occult site but any of the above mentioned groups or any atheist or free thinker who ignores this gem is missing out.

Search sites

Google.com -The most popular search engine. I guess it's better than bing.

duckduckgo.com -A very nice and private search engine. It has a version on onionland.

yahoo.com - I only include this because it has become such a joke.

Darknet and hidden sites

onionland -A protocol that allows real privacy. Somewhat technical to use but it has other uses outside of human trafficking and drug sales. One example is the Thelemic/Luciferian library I plan to put on onionland with Arabic versions so that such literature can be made available in places where it is forbidden such as the Saudi Arabian kingdom. I love the idea. 

i2p - An even more technical and secure protocol

Please go out and shake the tree as much as you can and share what you find.

Ayporos Chapter Head
I was going to write this as just a newsfeed update on my profile however, after starting to write, I realised that it is going to be a peice of writing a bit too long for a simple status and so, this blog post was born.

It has dawned on me recently that my life has changed drastically several times over the last 2 or 3 years. I joined SIN back in 2014 so, I have been around for a good while now however, I have taken breaks and stepped back from things and people.

I realised recently that I have been neglecting myself. My perception of everything has changed and my overall outlook of everything had become wholefully negative.
I had gone astray from everything I valued, worked on and wanted.

Whether or not I needed that digression in my path is still up for debate, regardless of that for the time being, my path has led me back to where I was before.

So now, after all that has happened and I am back where I started, it's time to pick everything up again and continue from where I left off.
To those of you who knew and know me, I apologise for my sudden disappearances and absences. To those of you who didn't and don't, I'm back now so lets raise a little hell and cause some chaos.

Ayporos Sep 8 '17
Zach Black Owner
I decided to re-post my reply in a different forum as new forums get more replies. Also I get asked this all the time. 

Luxes orginal is this  


Sep 5

What's a "purist" Satanist believe?

By "purist" Satanist, I mean one who doesn't get their ideas and beliefs from other religions.

Strictly staying within the precinct of each of the major schools if Satanism (LaVeyan, Theistic, Self-described, ONA) is their an afterlife of any kind?

The ONA does teach of a "beforelife" which is the Acausal, to which we return when we sacrifice a male human to Satan, or committed acts of terrorism to kill a lot of mundanes in public. 

Zach Black -
Zach Black5 minutes agoWell coming from a self-styled Satanist what I personally believe that there is no actual afterlife. I believe that we and all living things have a life force. Kinda like Yoda when he talks about the force. 

I believe that or ' life force ' leaves us at death and gets put back into the whole to be redistributed back into the ' one '.. 

Although I also realize I can not prove this so....I could be wrong. Which is why I live my life as if this is the only life I will ever have. I DON'T believe in a afterlife or that our consciousness exists after the flesh dies.

Zach Black Owner
This is not a macabre suicide note or a passive aggressive cry for help. But, death comes at anytime for any reason. Everything is killing everything. If you start from the bottom bacteria and micro viruses are killing us. A bear will kill you to. Or acts of ' God ' like wild fires of a lightning strike to your balls. Insects are trying to eat you alive. And we breed and slaughter animals to survive. Everything is trying to kill everything else. 

Just know when I go I lived my life the way I wanted. I made some mistakes sure. Few of us have not. I enjoyed my time for the most part and the friends and loved ones I had. I have lived a full life... probably enough for several lives. 

When it comes time to drift off into the great beyond I will be back bigger and better than before to haunt you fucks all over again. 

I have met some great people and had some great experiences through out this journey. I would like to think that I added to push the wheel of Satanism forward if even a few inches. 

Hail Satan     ZB 

Zach Black Sep 3 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 1 · Tags: zach black, satanism, satanic international network
Mauricio Gonzalez II
I remember being in A Dinghy during A dark foggy night, rowing my way to some docks & it was there that I have seen old wooden ships that were common during "The Age Of Discovery" (or "Colonial Age"). As I was approaching to the docks, I remember the reason for having come to the place...I was in search of some friends. As I approached closer, I heard some Hispanic music coming from A guy sitting in A rocking chair near A house that connected to the docks almost sounded like A familiar tune. For what-ever reason, I threw some thing at the guy that caused him to fall back, he wasn't really happy & got up to walk some place else.

As I continued to row closer to tether the Dinghy next to the docks, I noticed that there was an other Dinghy near by which had fresh corpses of people that was covered by A big sheet or blanket. There were apparently stories about "Bog Monsters" that roamed through the near-by swamp & I wondered if these were victims of the "Bog Monsters" or is they were victims of murder. As I made my way to the Town to begin my search, I paid close attention to the way the Town looked, it was A fairly large colony that had some structures which were either near the water or on higher ground & there were others that connected to docks high above the water. At some later point I get "greeted" by that one guy that played the small guitar or ukulele & he had brought with him an angry mob that chased after me for what-ever reason, they were blasting me with all sorts of accusations (many of which could have been false). I reached the edge of the town & had one of two choices, either hand my self over in surrender to the mob who would very well execute me by hanging or take my chances out in the Dark Foggy Swampy Bog....I had decided that the latter was better than the former & made my way there while still being followed by the angry mob.

At some point of my running, I saw wide open caverns & in it were huge bipedal creatures of A fierce territorial temperament, these were the "Bog Monsters" (like A tribe) that roamed through the swamp. I decided to make my way past the caverns while trying to be the least threat that posed them, in hopes to trick the mob in unwittingly confronting & provoking them. I heard the mob get closer, but was successful...I had then ventured further out in to the unknown, for ever A *Pariah* amongst society.

   ~MG2 [s.s.s.]
Mauricio Gonzalez II

I don't remember much other than it looked like it was the British Islands way back in the day, all I remember seeing A large gather of people who were celebrating A `rite´ & that I was chosen for it...but against my will, I remember being pushed in to the middle of the circle of the gathering & I was approached by tall male who wore some kind of horned head-dress or mask.

I was afraid of what was to come & dared not step any further, he then charged after me...grabbing both my arms & threw me hard on my side, ripping/tearing the thin white silk gown I wore. It was at that point that I have realized that I was A woman & that this was A type of "spring rite", I dared not to struggle out of fear of repercussions...so I just laid there as this *wild-savage man* had mounted him self up on me & taking me with full brutal force, all sorts of feelings went through my mind...I essentially ended up in A catatonic state or deep trance for A brief moment, I eventually came out of it & saw that it was all over.

Every thing just seemingly went back to normal, but the experience was now for ever A part of me & the people were apparently quite happy with what transpired. Some were congratulating me & some harbored jealousy against me, but it made no difference to me. The last thing I remember was seeing A large bonfire lit up right were I was raped by that savage "wild-man", I stared deep in to it & every thing faded in to A blur...I then woke up, still feeling the effects of the Past-Life Experience.

   ~MG2 [s.s.s.]

I am your savage wild man, honey. ~AK

I love it when a spell starts manifesting before you cast it. Perhaps one of the benefits of working with dark energy is that it works fast. But so far, my intention to be more prosperous has been working out well since the day I set it. I get paid by the amount of work I do rather than hourly, so my workload has suddenly gotten heavier. That, and someone gave me some extra herbs he had just because he felt like it.

I also set the intention that I wanted to become healthier. Within 2 days, my parents were on a vegan kick after being very adamantly pro-meat and anti-vegetarian beforehand. I feel much healthier and in control of my eating since going veggie, so it's all working out. I don't miss eating meat and it's easier for me to do since I actually support animal rights. Now, all of the things that I would be tempted to eat are simply off the plate and it's great! But I'm just happy when my own magick has a quick and positive effect on others.

Magick rules. Hail Satan. Hail thyself.

Mauricio Gonzalez II
I just created A group for any one who specializes in Black Arts, Destruction & Revenge. All for the purpose of rallying up individuals who are ready to fight against our common enemies, institutions/organizations that are in opposition to us & just about any specific person who decided to pick A fight with A Satanist. ~MG2 [s.s.s.] 3;).

Dragomir Satanis

I come before you Satan in awe and sheer delight

I summon the Demonic energies to enter this  world tonight

Let us be true to you Father in all we say and do

Each breath each thought each word a testament to You

Use my hatred of those that oppose You to fuel my desire and lust

For I will serve You always Father as I know I must

Dragomir Satanis Aug 17 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 4
Zoramonkey Member
As I have stated before there is going to be a Pagan Pride Festival this month in Houston. Usually this sort of affair is dominated by the white light crowd. Last year it was held at a restaurant and my group was forced to sit in coodie town along with our comrades from the local Asatru groups with our big pewter Baphomet statue we had purchased from one of the attending vendors.

This year will be different. To combat experiences like that and general LHP and Crowley-phobia the OTO will not only attend in masse but also will have a booth.

It would be really nice if not only Thelema and Asatru were represented but also Luciferians, Satanists, Demonalotors and other less pc groups were also represented.

For too long the white lighters and the RHP have dominated the occult turning it into a simplistic sophomoric affair all the while maligning the LHP. I don't want to eliminate them but we do have the right to exist even if the polliana princess buttercup crowd does not like it.

Zoramonkey Aug 16 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 1 · Tags: houston

The Colossus coughs clouds of toxic purple dust on it's grovelling subjects. A mother takes off her veil and puts it over her son’s head, hoping to protect his eyes and lungs from the noxious clouds enveloping them. They both cough and choke violently, pain exploding in their lungs. The dust clogs their airways and they are silenced. They suffocate, but it is easy to slip into death once they stop struggling. The mother dies first, on top of her son. He dies second, comforted by the pressure of his dead mother's bosom pressing into his back. The hundreds who cannot escape the cloud struggle to breathe as the boy and her son did. They soon fall to the ground dead. The Colossus coughs again. The sound rattles tens of thousands of broken souls gathered in the downtown core of Toronto to worship him. This crowd is comparable in size to those that gather for rock festivals in Brazil, but there is no cheerful, carnival atmosphere. Not a single smile or beach towel adorn any of the tens of thousands of celebrants.

The Colossus's skin is white, composed of minerals that take the shape of spiky crystals. This “skin” looks like the fur of a polar bear who stuck its paw in an electrical socket. Hundreds of shimmering white stalactite formations rise from his surface. Between coughing purple sputum, the colossus laughs at the people scurrying in the ruined streets below. The laugh is the sound of continental plates grinding against each other. He hunches over slightly, puts his hands on his thighs and his chest expands and contracts at odd intervals, like a person doubled over with laughter, but isn’t laughter because that is something people do.

'We have to leave.' Jacob says, his words smothered by the geological sounds coming from the colossus. A half dozen people turn and stare at him, then turn their eyes and supplications back to the Colossus sitting on the skeletal throne of toppled skyscrapers, hoping that his coughing has stopped and along with it the smothering death.

Jacob's words are the first spoken in days among the crowd. People have been communicating through dead glances and silent body language for days. Jacob wonders if only he remembers life before the colossus. They were all free and alive before this white crystal freak invaded; they never had to guess at how to please beings that held the power of life and death over them. Some chose to, but none were forced to.

The Colossus gets off of his throne of toppled and crushed buildings. The monstrosity has heard Jacob's words and accompanying blasphemous thoughts. Jacob’s stomach turns to a lump of ice. The Colossus turns its gaze straight to him as soon as he speaks. It stands up straight and abruptly ceases its laughter.

The giant's black crystalline eyes, set in quarry sized pits, turn to Jacob. It stands for the first time in ten days. This breaks the concentration of the crowd; their routine has been altered in a way that brings to their collective mind the notion of eternal doom. The mass of non-speaking, almost motionless people have all condemned themselves to die standing. They would all waste away until after days their blood sugar drops to a point where they drop to the floor unconscious. Depending on what level of resources their bodies have stored, they will come in and out of consciousness for several days until passing into a coma from which they will never wake. Since they have resigned themselves to this fate already, they do not fear it.

Some celebrants drop their outstretched arms for the first time in hours. A torrent of debris stuck to the hindquarters of the Colossus falls hundreds of feet to the crowd of suffocating supplicants below. Dozens are crushed into a paste and a wave of chaos spreads through the crowd. They were the first to worship at the feet of the colossus and the first to die. When they got close enough they licked and massaged the gigantic feet of the thorny colossus. They imagined in their hopelessness born madness that their actions prevented further violence from the colossus. They believe that their unending staring, gesturing and gibbering at the colossus keep him docile and his blood thirst quenched.

The order is smashed among the survivors of the Colossal Holocaust because of the falling rubble, because of the demigods movement. They remember the first days of his Holocaust and flee with reckless, animalistic abandon knowing what is coming. People rush past Jacob, shoulders crunch into his chest and stomach, but he remains standing, looking up at the creature. It raises a city block sized foot and the screams that rise from the fleeing, doomed faithful break Jacob's heart.

Jacob broke their enthralled order his independent thought. He realizes it. He feels enlightened. He sees into the mind of every human being in the entire city. During their worship, they all thought the same, silent nothing. There was no experience grafted onto the senses. There was no constant interplay of memories and problems and the past and the future coursing through the veins of their cognition. There was only the present. There was only the terrible, inevitable present, threatening to destroy them.

A foot crashes down on top of dozens of people, crunching them into paste on the cracked road. Their organic remains are the grout that fills cracks in the road. Jacob doesn't move as a heavy stream of horrified, beleaguered faces rush past him, unaware of what they could have done to anger the giant. Jacob can't believe that he was the first person to question things or remember that life wasn't always this way. The Colossus bends down on one knee and flattens Jacob with a twenty-tonne hand.

SamaelSwine Aug 15 '17 · Rate: 5 · Tags: short story, creative writing, fiction
Why do i have to be a good satanist?  I love evil people and have no morals. I enjoy incest reading material. Forced sex is my favorite porn. Scat porn is a close second. I hate god fearing people. They lack vision reality 
satanlovesme Aug 14 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 5
Zoramonkey Member
I can remember the old days( I swear no tales of walking 20 miles to school whole fighting grizzly bears an hunting mastodons.) when Satanist met one another by bookstores, newspaper editorials, existing organizations or plain chance.

Today we have social media, but it is a young medium and few have any idea of how to use it.

I have several friends who will not use this or that format as if this were the yahoo groups days when all one needed was one social media platform.

Today we have the giant monster platforms like facebook that everyone exept for one or two people use on Earth (I know both of them...Don't ask.) There are widely used but specific platforms like reddit, and specialized ones for special interests like this one.

Not only are there several platforms but there are also several different ways to use them all and different features. Almost everyone uses one of the many chat clients and watches media on them. Some people for example use a platform like facebook chiefly as a way to find people selling things and sell things they have.

When it comes to the LHP, we have an odd relationship with social media. We were some of the first to use most platforms. This might be because it allows us to meet like minded people without risk. The problem is that the whole LHP seems to have gone quiet in recent years or at least mostly.

On social media there are problems that are rarely discussed but everyone deals with.

The first is what I like to call the "Lonely Hearts Club" The LHP causes one to truncate interactions with the world at large for fear of conflicts concerning ones religious choices. This means that the average LHP person can be a bit on the easy side to seduce, both romantically and amicably. Those who one meets often later are found not to have the temperament for the LHP or no interest in doing any real spiritual work. This would not be a problem had not the premise of the initial contact been to find someone of a LHP temperament or do ritual work with. If one is not careful one can become bogged down in unproductive, banal, and superficial contacts until there is no difference between the local Baptist congregation and your life.

The second problem is another type of impersonator. They can run from someone just looking to cause trouble, promote some lame political or social agenda, the police or government, to Christian organizations looking to either destroy the organization or convert it's members.

There is also the garden variety poser. Not really as much of a threat, just someone who likes graveyards, horror movies, or dressing in black. I tend to tolerate them because some actually get serious about the LHP at one point.

I am sure everyone on the site knows how to create sock accounts and defend ones identity online. After all no one wants grandma to know about your affiliation with The Temple of Set.

Anonymity seems to also protect folks who just want to hurt, tear down or exploit others. The internet is not a completely safe place.

I could list all the different platforms or the ones I use but that would be exhaustive. I just encourage all LHP people to get out there and see what is available, when you find a good venue come back and tell the rest of us. That is all.


Zoramonkey Aug 14 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 2
I  meditated and read the Enokian Keys (JoS Version) during the Eclipse. I used the TV (on mute) to focus on the visual aspect of the Eclipse Live. I added ancient meditation sounds background audio. 

[Pre Meditations:]

1. Vibrated the following mantra until the Moon covers half the Sun:


2. Vibrated the following mantra 18 times:


3. Repeat #1 until Totality of Eclipse.

4. Vibrate the mantra from #1 as you ring the bell opening the ritual.


1. Open Ritual. (During Totality)

2. Invoke 4 Crowned Princes.

3. Invoke Satan.

4. Drink from Chalice.

5. Offering.

6. Sign & Read any written prayers. Then burn them.

7. Recite Enokian Keys.

8. Hail Satan!

9. Vibrate Om Som Suraye Namaha 9 times.

10. Hail Satan

11. Vibrate Satanama 9 times.

12. Hail Satan.

13. Vibrate Om Som Suraye Namaha 9 times.

14. Hail Satan

15. Give back energy to 4 Crowned Princes.

16. Close Ritual

This is what I'm considering doing for the August 21 2017 Eclipse because I don't know any specific Eclipse Rituals. The Eclipse reminds me of a gateway, so the Enokian Keys appear to fit.

Hail Satan

Omniscient_Glitch Aug 13 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 2 · Tags: solar eclipse ritual
People keep asking me to explain why I chose satanism and I can't get my emotions on the subject into a coherent answer which is very annoying and makes my reasoning seem weak, if there at all.
AngelMarie Aug 13 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 2
Here is a list of Satanic YouTube accounts:

* Satanic International: https://www.youtube.com/satanicinternational

* Venus Satanas: www.youtube.com/VenusSatanas & www.youtube.com/venussatanasvideos

* Thomas LeRoy: https://www.youtube.com/UC0lyfnDD2_ijrPr_IQGWTJg

* Kindra Ravenmoon: www.youtube.com/UCUWKdMfVeP1UplPMl6CHsDg

* Temple of the Ancient Ways: www.youtube.com/channel/UCed5IiR4uZv3-N-Z6Jx5N_A/videos

* The Serpent's Key: www.youtube.com/channel/UC8cdSAkdItD1P2JpguBHFNQ

*Styxhexenhammer: www.youtube.com/channel/UC0rZoXAD5lxgBHMsjrGwWWQ

* White Raven: www.youtube.com/channel/UCa1Bjr3T4S50nSbHIsWZrig

* Occult Lectures: www.youtube.com/channel/UCX8cB08hSFcVNt7XBG5OOOg

* Axaru: www.youtube.com/channel/UCiDGkEiPdTEPCL7YFYt_5OQ

* Mystery History: www.youtube.com/channel/UCC9JHVPm-4P5QDp9vk8EH-A

* Myrmydon666: www.youtube.com/channel/UC9wtTGN5_Bg24ziaPodJYcA

* Mind & Magick: www.youtube.com/channel/UCIz29e7qEHd_GXbtuRE1leg

* f0StaR Ch!1d: www.youtube.com/pitchblackfire

* E.A. Koetting: www.youtube.com/channel/UC3PbU2BsHFjySvk3sdBltpA

* Hooded Cobra: www.youtube.com/channel/UCPTrmwO-xp_Zffjz97Ciliw

* Brotherhood of Satan: www.youtube.com/channel/UCbrFdKUWua0h4_ZhYldbOqg

* Messenger of the gods: www.youtube.com/channel/UCiTasNtFSxowI55OKit_gKg

* Darklordism: www.youtube.com/channel/UC6fNPmbAq2Qe05iFfKHIS-w

* Darkmatter2525: www.youtube.com/channel/UCLhtZqdkjshgq8TqwIjMdCQ

* Ancient Documentaries: www.youtube.com/channel/UCvI6MBlMf2gTMo0Qe3w143A

* Pharroh AK-47:


*Fostar Child:


* Michael W. Ford: 


* Satan and Sons:


* Asbjorn Torvol:


* Azura Dragonfaether:


* Orlee Stewart:


* The Satanic Temple:


* The House of Magick:


* J.D. Temple:


Omniscient_Glitch Aug 11 '17 · Comments: 2 · Tags: websites
Mauricio Gonzalez II
About A night or two after my intimate encounter, I had been attacked by A pair malicious entities...as previously stated, not all of my Astral Experiences are positive. Here is my experience:

A night or two after my intimate encounter & after I had reconciled with an "Old Flame", I had found my self in A decrepit structure that suggested it was some kind of store or ware-house. I saw that it was at least two-stories high as part of the ceiling had A hole that I could see through & saw an other floor level above me. As I slowly vetured through the rubble, I get A sense of unease that I am being stalked...I continued forward through some aisle section with rows of shelves (some collapsed & others tipped over, one or two leaning on an angle), I hear some kind of moist sounding foot steps coming around my left corner view & I saw two malicious bipedal creatures through the shelves. They were very pale, grainy skin texture, almost nude except for A few white bandages (some looked blood-stained) that they wore. These things had A face that almost looked like "Falmer" from T.E.S. series, but walked up-right & slow. Their eyes are big & solid dark, the hands being huge. They weren't very tall or muscular, looked as though one could be brought down easily...but in this case, I was armed only with A type semi-automatic weapon with very limited rounds & these things were damn agile. I was trying to hide behind one of the shelves, but one of them noticed me & alerted the other. I raised my rifle at them & tried firing shots at them, but they kept dodging...shifting their bodies to hide behind the shelves. I thought I managed to get one in it's arm because it was staying back A little while it's friend closed the distance. I tried moving back, but fell on some thing on the floor...it made me vulnerable enough that by the time I tried getting up, the Zombie-like "Grey" had grabbed me & sank it's rotten sharp teeth in to my left shoulder while it's friend rushed in after my right side only for me to hold out my right arm to keep it's face away from me (it was all for no thing as I was basically doomed). I felt parts of my body get numb & I hear A coarse harsh male voice echo "INSTANT DEATH!" with A rather malicious tone of satisfaction...

I then came back before it's friend got my right side of my body, being in A highly alerted state & then pissed off after A few minutes later!

   -Your Thoughts??,
      ~MG2 [s.s.s.]
Mauricio Gonzalez II
Before I get started on my experience, I would like to mention that these things don't happen very often & that I am by no means an expert at willingly Astral Projecting my self. I am going to basically make A personal mental note of every thing I can remember & post my Astral Experiences here once in A while...some are positive, few are negative & most are neutral. Any ways...enough of my rambling (Autism), I am going to now post the experience I had A few nights ago:

A few nights back, I had an experience in the Astral...every thing felt so real, yet rushed at the very end!

From what I remember, I found my self nude & buried in an old stone tomb. There was no thing, no escape...I was essentially trapped, as though I were sealed alive. I then saw the narrow stone casket shift with-in, there were openings...but the opportunity was limited & I had to hurry `lest I end up trapped indefinitely.

As I hurried to slide down the stone tomb & having barely avoided being crush, I fall down in to A dim lit room where fire was the only light source...A female voice echoed, beckoning me to enter the large room & so I did.

I saw A large furnace, wall scones of fire lamps, A large fancy red carpet with gold trim that looked hand-made, A large luxurious wooden table with food (looked vegetarian, didn't notice any meat) & chalices containing liquid (assuming it was water or wine, or some other drinkable substance).

I then saw her from behind, A woman wearing A Scarlet Robe that showed she was of some kind of Royalty. Her hair was not straight, but seemed to be wavy & was A shade of color that was difficult to see in detail due to the dim light...but I knew for sure that it was neither Black nor Brown (it seemed either Red or Gold). Her eyes, words can not describe...they change & shift, color is unknown. Her skin is white as snow, but despite her youthful appearance...she irradiated A presence that suggested one who is ancient, old & with wisdom. Her hands had sharp decorated talons, but knew not if they were natural or artificial.

She turned around & says to me that she has long awaited me, that we must hurry while there is still time. She leads me to the table where she first has me eat her food, almost hand-feeding it to me before making me drink from one of her chalices & then she leads me away...

...she disrobes, revealing A semi-nude body covered in magnificent jewelry & some of it were Arcane/Occultic symbols. The only part covered was her pelvis, the fabric was A transparent silk micro-skirt & she tells me "I must ride *The Beast* little one, *The Mother Of All Nations* needs her womb ploughed". After which bindings appear suddenly & wrap around my limbs, making me fall flat on the ground where I barely noticed it was consecrated by A large symbol on floor that which I lay on top of. She then walks in circles around with some kind of incense smoke burning from one hand & A small bell in the other, she then parts the "veil" around the circle to enter with-in. After entering, she proceeds to mount me...taking my (presumably virginal) phallus in her hand & stroking it while reciting some kind of chant in A language not known to me. After she was done, she takes it & guides it through the transparent silk micro-skirt where starts rubbing it close to her sacred folds. She then recites A different chant while teasing, her facial expression never changing...her eyes in A deep trance-like state, such an intense focus in regards to her mind's concentration. After finishing chanting, she lifts her self up high & slams down on my phallus...being taken completely by her as she recites A different chant, one that matches her rhythm as she rides up on me. Her words become different, louder & emotionally charged prior to each "slap" only to return back to normal. I was mesmerized by the whole sight of what was going on & what was happening, I felt that I could at any moment no longer hold out. As though she sensed it, she then starts speeding up her chants & rhythm at such A high rate of speed. Right before the very end, she lifts her self very high to the point that my phallus almost slips out & slams down with full screaming force of one final word. The force being as such, that I am abruptly waken up in A toxic daze!

   -Your Thoughts??,
      ~MG2 [s.s.s.] ;).
* "Become other things than mistreated slaves. Let me place in you the self-awareness, the knowledge of whom you are, the image of your creator and get back to your freedom. Be free!" - Satan

* "In the secret of my knowledge, there is no god but Me."

- Satan

* "I appear in diverse manners to those who are faithful..."

- Satan

* "I am ever present to help all who trust in me and call upon me in time of need. There is no place in the Universe that knows not my presence."

- Satan

* "There is no god but myself, knowing this, who dares worship the false gods of the Koran and Bible?"

- Satan

* Spiritual Satanism is the original "religion" of Mankind.

* "No god has the right to interfere in my affairs, and I have made it imperative rule that everyone shall refrain from worshiping all gods."

- Satan

* "I teach and guide those who follow my instruction. If anyone obey me and my commandments, he [or she] shall have joy, delight, and comfort."

- Satan

* "I appear in diverse manners to those who are faithful..."

- Satan

* "I lead to the strait path without a revealed book.... All my teachings are easily applicable to all times and conditions."

- Satan

* "If I so desire, I send a person a second or third time into this world or into some other by the transmigration of souls."

- Satan

* As above, so below

* "In the form of Man they amongst us, but only to sight were they as are men. Reptile when the glamour was lifted, but appearing to Man as men among men. Taking their form and ruling over Man. Sought they came to destroy and rule."

- Thoth

* "Deep 'neath the rocks I buried my Spaceship, waiting the time when Man might be free."

- Thoth

* "Fools do not know what they are doing. Energy is being sent up. It should go into the Earth to replenish her. The overuse of the point-up pentagram is throwing the energies into space, causing a number of problems, and draining the Earth of her ability to defend herself against these problems." 


* "There are vortexes of very destructive, negative energy. Hatred, anger, fear, murder, death, and every other destructive thing. These are like black holes. They accumulate negative energy like a vacuum. There are different planes of existence. When you meditate, you elevate to a higher plane. There are different levels and from meditation, you live on a higher plane than most others. People who are on an already lower level can get tied into this vortex of negative energy and pulled in. Those who are on their own are susceptible to anything. The enemy knows how to use these."

- Satan

* "I am the formed abyss, we are not different. All things are formed from one primordial nothingness. Not at some point in the distant past, but in each moment. Every moment you consider me, I come into being. Every moment that you consider yourself, you are brought into existence. Stop considering yourself and you will cease to be. I have appeared to men as they have considered me, I have taught them that which they were on the brink of learning themselves, I concatenated their realizations.... Reality is far from objective. Can you have a single thing that exists independent of your observation? Such a thing does not exist. When you and I meet, you and I come into existence. Until that point, there is no you, there is no I. You exist only in relation to that which surrounds you. Your very physical form is held together as mine is in this smoke, by the pressure inside of your skin meeting the pressure outside of your skin and both forces hold you in one piece..."

- Azazel 

* "Enki [Satan] and Ninmah, with Ningishzidda [Thoth] assisting, the Being [Adamu] fashioned."

- Ancient Sumerian Tablets

* "From the pouch of Ninmah the seeds were obtained, in the valley's soil they were sown, a fruit [Plant] from Nibiru on Earth to be grown!"

- Ancient Sumerian Tablet 5

* "On our planet, slavery has long ago been abolished..."

- Beelzebub

* "I will bring the Enemy to his knees! Jews Muslims, Christians, murderers and insnarers of the soul!"

- Lucifer

* "The feminine energy, known as 'shakti' 'kundalini' 'devi', and by other Sanskrit names was systematically removed by the Jews [Illuminati] and replaced with the male aspects that are of the logical side of the brain and lack the raw spiritual power."

- Maxine Dietrich

* "When objects move, they get heavier as they move.... The reason why objects get heavier as they move, is because the energy of motion is converting into Mass."

- Dr. Michio Kaku

* "We are not men who are striving to become gods, but we are gods who have striven to become men."

      - E.A. Koetting

* "What knowledge we possess, its use cannot be prevented!"

      - Thoth

* Within the vessels of Humans lays the logo of the Universe. As above, so below. As an electron orbits its nucleus in the Atom; likewise, a planet orbits its star in the Universe.

* "Darkness is light turned inside out."

      - Beelzebub

* "Hear ye now of the mystery of nature, the relations of life to the Earth where it dwells. Know ye, ye are threefold in nature, physical, astral, and mental in one. Three are the qualities of each of the natures; nine in all, as above, so below."

      - Thoth

* "Our consciousness is omnipresent an so therefore, there is nothing in existence that's outside of that."

       - E.A. Koetting

* "Leave thou thy body [Astral Project] as I have taught thee."

      - Thoth

* Planets have magnetic fields around them. Humans, like planets also have magnetic fields around the body. (Auras)

* "Enlighten the people generally, and oppressions of the body and mind will vanish..."

      -Thomas Jefferson

* "Have you not considered that perhaps there is a work at hand which transcends you and your desire to see into the Mysteries? Have you considered that perhaps it is the work of the Mysteries to understand you? Because you desire so strongly to travel into Our world, it is difficult for you to understand how fierce our desire is to travel into Yours. The Mystery does not lie inwards, in that from which all things came, but instead the mystery lies outwards; in that which has become."

       - Ant'harratu

* "The work which lies before us,now, is to take dominion over this realm, to make perfect and limitless even this most course and barren physical state."

      - Azazel

* "Make yourself strong. You are a being of power, of strength. That which exists in the formed invisibility is to be made flesh. Solidify and strengthen your own Temple, and your empire will rise around you."

      - Azazel

* "Did the deceased embrace life enough to be able to live again in death?"

      - Thoth

* "Beyond five cities, a Chariot Place [Stargate] I shall henceforth build. From Nibiru to Earth directly to arrive..."

      - Beelzebub

* The nature of reality is a Matrixical Simulation

* The Spirit World and our world "...from time to time, come together. As they grow closer, the veil between them is lifted. Then the powers of magick become stronger, and there is a moment where the two collide; and rather than that collision creating a destruction of one or the other of these worlds, they meld into one another... These worlds then will separate again. For the moment that these worlds are one, it will be as if these ancient gods walk this Earth as Men."

      - Lucifuge Rofocale

* "I come to you now as a spirit and a god, but in you lifetime I will come to you as a physician and a scientist, and I will walk among you."

      - Azazel 

* "I reveal my wonders to those who seek them, and in due time my miracles to those who receive them from me. But those who are without are my adversaries, hence they oppose me. Nor do they know that such a course is against their own interests, for Might, Wealth, and Riches are in my hands, and I bestow them upon every worthy descendant of Adam."

      - Satan

* "Its by never giving up on what is right and standing firm on your spiritual principles that one obtains victory in this life and world."

      H.P. Mageson

* "The Anunnaki established a global Atlantean civilization."

      - 4biddenknowledge

* "We are the warriors of a dream, but when dreams are actualizes, they are not dreams, they are so many things more."

      Hooded Cobra

* "There is a place here that we have for deceased souls.... We protect whoever comes to us. Some are (misguided) and reincarnate them until they see the truth and are ready to come here. Most people (Those who are Without as well) get reincarnated."

      - Satan

* "10,000 years ago, [Humanity was] close to perfection. The Earth was attacked."

      - Azazel

* "Obstacles are for the feeble, no obstructions must be felt or thoughts of failure, be free of your own prison."


* "Obsessions with aims will always bring failure to every aspect of Luciferian evolution."


* "Body is the tomb, the tomb is the temple, and the temple is key to sovereignty."


* "The Hierarchy of the Satan Principle revolves around the Black Magician being able to manipulate his physical reality."


* "Lucifuge Rofocale is my general of worldly gain. His understanding of the economics of what is of value will aid you greatly. His manifestations of physical growth in all things monetary and physical will bring you great prosperity.... Before you call my general into your empire be aware of this one truth: Any you invite will forever stay the night. Accepting his dark and infernal connections is to accept them all. The illumination will come, but you will see the underbelly of his law. All things come with a price, and at times the price is higher than you can imagine."


* "Within the Principle of Lucifer is the complete understanding of all Illuminated Paths. I reveal to you the truth of the Black Magician. Break free from those shackles that bind you to earth and necessitates of everyday life."


* "...[A]n entire process that takes many of your lifetimes [reincarnations] to complete. One starts the reaction and the others follow. You are following a path of illumination and now illuminating yourself. The adeptship of Apostleship is at your hands. Take and receive it."


* "Each one of you have received visions and workings from me. I have done so to free you from the shackles that tie you down to Earth. Transcend upward and remain here. For the life of an empire is founded on the devotion of the emperor."


* "Take you place at my left side. I will guide you to a world that goes unseen. Your new domain is my Apostleship. I give you rule of all that is mine and within my reach. Seek therefore the heavens. Seek Truth."


* Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth because they don't want their illusions destroyed."

-Friedrich Nietzsche

* "Mystical explanations are thought to be deep; the truth is that they are not even shallow."

-Friedrich Neitzsche

* "The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe [Herd]. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself."

-Friedrich Neitzsche

* "Who looks outside, dream; who looks inside, awakes."

-Carl Jung

* "The individual begins to find his [or her] own path, and the drag, you might say, of the primary mask is gradually thrown off... The Left Hand Path is that of the individual quest."

-Joseph Campbell

* "If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know its not your path. Your path you make with every step you take. That's why its your path."

-Joseph Campbell

* "Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life, and you will call it fate."

-Carl Jung

* "I am not what happened to me. I am what I chose to become."

-Carl Jung

* "Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darkness of other people."

-Carl Jung

* "Do not get rid of your vice. If its pride, make the pride work for your illumination, not your degradation."

-Joseph Campbell

* "The Fibonacci Sequence is Nature's numbering system. They appear everywhere in Nature, from the leaf arrangement in plants, to the pattern of the florets of a flower, the bracts of a pinecone, of the scales of a pineapple. The Fibonacci numbers are therefore applicable to the growth of every living thing, including a single cell, a grain of wheat, a hive of bees, and even all of Mankind.... you will see a Torus energy field. This field is the source of Zero Point Evergy V=2Pi^2 R^2."


Omniscient_Glitch Aug 2 '17 · Rate: 5
There are 100 Billion Stars in the Milky Way Galaxy. 2000+ have been observed to have planets orbiting them. ~3400 Earth-like planets have been discovered. NASA has revealed in a press conference that they have discovered the Trappist-1 System. There has also been Many discoveries (both official and unofficial) in the Solar System which point to the existence of extraterrestrial life. Ancient historical records Pre-dating all Abrahamic Religions demonstrates knowledge of this. The Ancient gods who built the megalithic wonders of the world were demonized by Religion. Religion was created to enslave Mankind physically, mentally, and spiritually.

The Trappist-1 is one example of an admission made by NASA which evidently demonstrates reality. 7 rocky planets orbit the Trappist-1 Star. 3 of those planets are in the Habitable Zone and are Earth-Like Planets. What this demonstrates is that there are other Star Systems other than the Solar System around the majority of Stars in the Milky Way Galaxy.

Satanism was the original path of Mankind. Ancient archaeological writings of civilizations all over the world show that they were actually smarter than the Micromatrix wants Society to know. For example, according to the 3rd Ancient Sumerian Tablet: "The celestial chariot he deftly; from Nibiru it powerfully soared, toward the distant Sun he it directed.... Little Gaga [Pluto] came out to greet them, a welcome to the heroes it was extending. To blue-hued Antu [Neptune], the beautiful enchantress, it showed the way. By her sight Anzu was attracted.... Ea [Satan] to continue without stopping gave the word; it is a planet of no return, he forcefully said. Let us examine her waters! Anzu was saying" "Toward the heavenly An [Uranus], the third in planetary counts, the chariot continued. On his side was An [Uranus] lying, his host of moons about him were whirling. The Tester's beam the presence of water was revealing; a stop if needed to Ea [Satan] it was indicating. To continue the journey was Ea [Satan] saying. Toward Anshar [Saturn], the heaven's foremost prince, he was directing. Soon the ensnaring [gravitational] pull of Anshar [Saturn] they could tell, his colored rings with fear they admired. Deftly did Anzu the chariot guide, the crushing dangers he cleverly avoided. The giant Kishar [Jupiter], foremost of firm planets, was next to be encountered. Her net's pull was overpowering; with great skill did Anzu the chariot's course divert. With fury Kishar [Jupiter] at the chariot divine lightnings was thrusting, her host as the uninvited she directed. Slowly Kishar [Jupiter] moved away, for the chariot the next enemy to encounter: Beyond the fifth planet the Hammered Bracelet [Asteroid Belt] was lurking!" "Ea [Satan] his handiwork to set a-whirling commanded, the Water Thruster to prepare. Toward the host of turning boulders the chariot was rushing, each one like a slingshot's stone ferociously at the chariot aimed. The word by Ea [Satan] was given, with the force of a thousand heroes the stream of water was thrust. One by one the boulders turned face; a path for the chariot making! But as one boulder fled, another in its stead was attacking; a multitude byond count was their number, a host for the splitting of Tiamat revenge seeking!.... double was the joy as the sight of the Sun was now unveiled. Amidst the elation Anzu the alarm sounded: For the path to have fashioned, excessive waters to feed the chariot's fiery stones for the remaining journey were not sufficient. In the dark deepness the sixth planet they could see, the Sun's rays it was reflecting. There is water on Lahmu [Mars], Ea [Satan] was saying. Can you bring the chariot down upon it? Anzu he was asking. Deftly Anzu the chariot toward Lahmu [Mars] directed; reaching the celestial god, around it he the chariot made circle. The planet's net [atmosphere] is not great, its [gravitational] pull is to handle easy, Anzu was saying. A sight to behold was Lahmu [Mars], many hued it was; snow white was its cap [North Pole], snow white were its sandals [South Pole]. Reddish hued was its middle, in its midst lakes and rivers were aglitter! Deftly Anzu the chariot made travel slower, by a  lakeside it gently came down..."

According to archaeological and tablet evidence, the Great Pyramids of Egypt were built by Thoth; the son of Satan. He also built the Teotihuacan Pyramids in Mexico, and possibly others. He was known as Thoth/ Tehuti/ Quetzalcoatl/ Hermes/ Ningishzidda and other names around the globe. There are megalithic pyramids on every continent on Earth. Examples include: N America/ S America/ China/ Iraq/ Egypt/ Russia/ Australia/ Antarctica/ etc. There are also pyramids on the Moon and on Mars.

Ancient Mankind had access to Ancient Technology. There was a war between Freedom and Tyranny. The Enemy extraterrestrials whipped out most ancient technology and caused the Ancient Technological Reset which lead to the Stone Age. Then the Enemy invaded Earth and sent their Demiurge Operatives to create Religion and demonize Satan and the ancient gods.

Omniscient_Glitch Aug 2 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 3
Zoramonkey Member
I was reluctant to return to this site. Imagine having to explain something over and over again and having the people you explain it to ignore it. The ignorance does not come from unfamiliarity, it comes from a need to inflict damage (aka trolling) or it comes from a lack of effort in understanding. I have seen someone here use the fact that I have claimed more than one religion to be some kind of conspiracy. I will try to clear this up again.

First, the concept of religious exclusivity is only found in a few cultures on this planet. Many cultures on this planet find it normal to have at least three. Modern examples of countries where this has been the case for quite a while include Japan, Mexico, and India.

Secondly there are also examples of cultures that did this in antiquity. Such examples include Ancient Sumeria and Hellenistic Greece.

Before I go any further please google the above examples if you have any doubt.

Third, most religions if not all are hybrids of multiple religions. There are some that are quite honest about this fact. Examples include: Zen Buddhism, Lamic Buddhism, Gnosticism, Sikhism, Bahai Faith, Most but not all Pagan beliefs (both meso and neo), most of Hinduism, The entire New Age, Thelema, Satanism, and Luciferianism.

Please google if you have any doubts.

Okay now to explain the rest. Satan and Lucifer are considered the same by most Abrahamic beliefs. Some Luciferians and Demonalotors will argue they are in fact different and though I respect their opinions, I see them as the same. Both represent a Promethean figure. Though there is a mountain of material that Crowley wrote that invoked, referred to, and explored the concepts of both names, the Promethean character is the living embodiment of Thelema. As you can see there is no conflict with being all three at the same time. Discordianism is somewhere between a joke religion, a philosophy, and an aesthetic and therefore it is not in conflict with the first three.

The main argument I will put forth is that I choose to identify as all four. No shell game, no smoke and mirrors, just my choice. To say that any of this is dishonest or wrong is like saying there is a wrong answer to a question like "What is your favorite color?"

I am not sure what I did to this person but I do not expect him to listen. This is an appeal to the other people on the site. In the LHP people will constantly criticize you and undermine  everything you do. People will tell you what your intentions and beliefs are whenever it is convenient without any regard to your actual intentions and beliefs. Look at the propaganda concerning the LHP that Christianity has put on Youtube. You are the only person that you will have to deal with from now till the day you die. If you let others write your narrative or assign intention to you then life will continue to kick you around until you tell the control freaks and the small minds in your life that only you should speak for you.
Zoramonkey Aug 1 '17 · Rate: 3.67 · Comments: 3
Mauricio Gonzalez II
There was A time that I would never see my self ever getting A "FaceBook" account nor A "MySpace" account, just never saw the practicality in making an account that A bunch of randoms could peek through & harass when-ever they wanted. I never did get A "MySpace" account, but I did get A "FaceBook" account for reasons that aren't particularly glamorous & just ended up as A disappointment any way. Yet I still kept it open & joined A few "groups", tried to find some sort of usage that would be beneficial unto me...instead, all I ever got was the following:


>Empty promises.

>Prejudiced Asses.




& did the administration ever help?, no...they instead saw me as being at fault, this fucking shit was like school all over again! Of course, what can you ever expect from the products of kikes?...it is like "Communism", they make all sorts of glorious claims/promises & instead act like total ass-holes in the end. =:O.

So there you go, A summary of why I left "FaceBook" & would never be active in it again... :-\.

But at least I have found A more decent site (S.I.N.) where there seems to have promise, I even found many like-minded individuals (more than what "FaceBook" would ever provide). I also like the potential anonymity it provides in the sense that it is not mandatory to put in A real name, so I don't have to worry about people using my postings against me later in life. :-).

Ave Santanas!,

   ~MG2 [s.s.s.]

Right, my first blog post since returning here was mainly telling of what I've been up to in other aspects of life, mainly in terms of my career. While I feel it's important to talk about what I've been up to since I've been away, I feel I need to talk more about my journey along the left hand path.

See, when I first joined, I'd already self identified as a LaVeyan Satanist, and I was content with that notion. However, due to occurrences in my life over the years, I have looked at other philosophical and occult practices. Initially, this started with a book called A Little Light On The Spiritual Laws by Diana Cooper, which I discovered in the summer of 2011. Now judging by a lot of the content of said book, it does line up with RHP teachings, however, some of the ideas mentioned seemed to make sense from a LHP standpoint. I know some people may disagree with me on that notion, but regardless, I feel that this book is a good tool to use in my own life, even if I'm cherry picking what I want from it.

Skip to early 2012, and I had started a romantic relationship with someone I saw (and still see to this day) as what one would consider a soulmate. Her path was of Paganism, and that sort of spiritual/religious teaching always interested me to a certain extent, although I never felt compelled to research it properly. Fast forward to around mid-late 2014 (after some undesirable events took place in my life), and the topic of Luciferianism came up in conversation with another friend of mine. I got super intrigued by it, and I decided to research it. I read The Bible Of The Adversary, and I gotta say, from what I got from it, I genuinely liked.

Move to the following year, and the topic of sigil magick caught my attention after watching a speech from comic artist/writer Grant Morrison. This kind of magickal practice greatly appealed to me, due to the fact that there was no need for theatric rituals and paraphernalia, but only for simple tools as pen, paper and desire. I then looked for books on sigil magick, and the first I discovered was Practical Sigil Magic by Frater U.D (otherwise known as Ralph Tegtmeier). Once I'd read that book front to back, I'd become intrigued by Chaos Magick, and my next book to start on was Liber Null & Psychonaut. Sadly, I haven't read through much of Liber Null, but since I rejoined, I want to pick up where I left off.

Another book I acquired was Crowley's The Book Of The Law. Honestly, after my first (and as of yet only) read through, it left me thinking "The fuck?"
I may have to give it another go, just to see if I can make head or tail of it.

So, as it stands now, I don't feel I can pigeonhole myself in any specific LHP teaching, but I've not forgotten my roots. But I do feel LaVeyan Satanism mixed with Luciferianism is the closest I can get to pinpointing what part of the path that fits me best. As it stands, I'm currently rediscovering where I stand on the left hand path, so I'm having to go back to basics and go from there. Hopefully I'll find out what truly fits me for definite, but I have a hunch of what it is regardless. I'd just rather be 100% sure though.
DistroyA Jul 27 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 3
...and here to stay. :-)

So, I actually got off my arse and registered, seeing as my account went up in smoke when the site moved. I'm genuinely looking forward to catching up with people again. :-)

So, a fair bit has happened between then and now. After a relationship break up, i ended up having a few mental breakdowns, leading to me pushing away everyone I'd befriended on here (basically me removing them from my friends list on Facebook). I'm hoping to reestablish connections/friendships on here. If my pushing you away upset you in any way, I do apologise. Like I've said, I've not been all there (no excuse, but my mind has been in a dark place over the last few years).

Other things that have happened; I finally quit my job in retail. After nearly 12 years, I couldn't take anymore and walked out halfway through a shift in mid November 2015. After that, I was a job seeker for a year or so, and ended up training up for the railway as a trackman. Once I got work on the p-way, I looked for and got a factory job closer to home (work on the railway is either in London or Scotland). Lost said factory job after 6 weeks, but ended up falling into another factory role 2 weeks after being made unemployed again, and the role is a lot more exciting than what I was doing beforehand. Still in said job, and looking to work my way up in terms of skills and such. I don't think I'll be able to stay in this job forever unfortunately, due to wanting to move away from where I live now, so I'm going to work on my experience and whatnot so I can find work elsewhere closer to where I eventually move to.

So yeah, that's what I've been up to in the last few years. In a nut shell, life improvement. :-)
DistroyA Jul 26 '17
Mauricio Gonzalez II
Well...this is A "long shot", but here goes! :-*.







I'll be waiting for you... ;-).


      ~MG2 [s.s.s.]

Zoramonkey Member
I know we have a quote section but when I saw this I had to post it where it would be seen. Stephen Flowers is deeply respected in both the Pagan and Theistic LHP community. Many of us in the LHP knew that he was involved in such things but most of it keeped it quiet because we did not wish his reputation to be harmed. Unlike many authors in the occult who make outlandish claims or declare titles upon themselves, Stephen has let his heroic research and intense insight speak for him. 

He has changed his pen name several times because of the stigma of both the LHP and the Germanic systems he has mastered. As of yet he has been reserved about showing open affiliation with the LHP, but today he posted a question about the LHP and he commented the following quote. I asked for his permission to quote it here. This man is my hero.

" I asked the question because I have always considered myself to follow a LHP tradition with in the Germanic tradition, which is what I think the true and authentic Odian / Odinic path is. It's not a special form of Odinism, it is the real and authentic Odinism. The "spooky dark side" is PART of it, but only part. Odin is the Lord of Light, Brighten of Darkness. The LHP component is strongest in the heroism involved. We are charged to become special warriors in Midgard, to accomplish great things, to make Names for ourselves and be Remembered. The heroes in Valhalla have reached the level of Individual Identity which is recognizable and worthy of Remembering. That is what we seek to do. (Here I am speaking this those in this group, although my thoughts are well known to any one who asks. *Wodhanaz is our exemplary model of this path. We seek to do, in some small measure, what he does. But remember this: his work was only half way dedicated to his own development, the other half was in the service of making a better world."

-------Stephen Flowers

Zoramonkey Jul 23 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 1 · Tags: germanic, lhp, asatru
Mauricio Gonzalez II
Here I explain my personal motivations of going in to the Occult & what had led me to embrace Satanism, the reasons as to what led me on "The Left-Hand Path". It is A *bit of A long ass story, so I will try to shorten it up (don't mind the Autism)...

For A large part of my life, I had constant issues with my peer-group due to me being different & prefer only striving to be an ideal student. I was different due to my intelligence (I knew what death was & had good knowledge in regards to animals or bugs or insects), mannerisms (I had good etiquette while every one else lacked manners) & I did not dress like the others because I did not want to look like A gang-banger. Unfortunately I would often get harassed & persecuted just for acting or dressing older (`was quite A flirt back then) than what I really was, I was different from the rest. I mostly got on well with the Teachers, except for the ones at charter schools where they are awful dicks with poor sense of judgment & the school administrators were even bigger ass-holes with issues of incompetence (especially at that charter school)! This would continue on until I am forced in to home-schooling multiple times, the last one being some thing done on the internet & (after the courts failed to provide justice) I would eventually "drop-out" as an act of protest against the school system...basically trying to argue the point that the school system does not care about the well being of the student, only caring about numbers & that was all I am to them-Numbers! That so-called "No Child Left Behind" law was all just rotten BULL'S SHIT as I have been left behind & my child-hood dreams of joining the Navy as an Officer from the Navy Academy are just DEAD! Quite, frankly...this would make any one who had to suffer this just PISSED OFF & this is only focusing on the material aspects of life as I have yet to explain my spiritual struggles!

Now I am pretty much going to explain the political/different spiritual phases of my life. As far as I can remember...I can recall that as A toddler, I was attracted to oriental things & was fond of Buddha-like altars (I remember actually wanting one for A while until I would forget about it). I was apparently pretty social & was fond of dancing, but then epilepsy had struck me down...I don't remember much of what occurred. But I do remember that I developed an interest in the military as soon as I saw my first military parade & it was when I moved to Las Vegas-that I first tried military-oriented games (one of the first being "C&C: Red Alert" & "Panzer General III: Scorched Earth"). It was then at the time that I had developed A fascination of Germany & Russia back at that time, I would then become an Atheistic Anti-American Communist (back at time when it wasn't A "Cool Thing" to be like these days) & I didn't really know any better back then because of how History is taught in A biased manner. I didn't like my own country because of how I was being treated by my own peer-group & some of the adults, I had thought that there were other places that are better. My life became harsher, more pain & distress...especially when the blame kept on falling on me, I was even blamed for 9/11 happening (believe it or not)! I would come across some stories from people in Christianity & hear about prayers being answered, miracles occurring...I wanted that & thus became highly devoted in Abrahamic Religions (specifically Catholic Christianity), I had A crazed fanatical craving for purpose. Despite my faith, I was still interested in living in an other country (the U.K. seemed promising) & serving that country's military. I would eventually come to my senses & become more nationalistic in regards to my own country, it was at this time that I joined the U.S.N.S.C.C. with the intent of joining the military as an Officer. Despite my new-found faith at that time, I still was going through issues regarding isolation & depression (I was completely in home-schooling then, but had awful sense of loneliness as well as spiteful envy). I had developed A major case of envy as well as being Gender Dysphoric (ironic, I know), I would still hear about people who were less worthy getting divine favors while some one who was devoted as I was didn't get any thing at all! I then figured that I was doing some thing wrong & took to secretly lashing my self with A car antenna, eventually even cutting my self to put blood on the cross as A means of desperation...the results were rather limited & inadequate. The prayers I said to "Allah/Jehovah/Yahweh" were simple...I wanted Protection, Health, Wealth, Fame, Love, Complete Gender Change, Death To My Enemies, Power, An End To My Suffering, No More Isolation, Swift Justice, My Immediate Death (I was Suicidal)...I got none, there would then come A point that I would lose all patience & just renounce "All Things Christian" (which would of course include Jewism & Islam for obvious reasons, just the same old hypocrisy wrapped up in A different style) in favor of some thing more "Pro-Life".

I then would go on A personal spiritual journey to find what is true & thus during my years of isolation, did I study immensely in A various things in regards to faith. I was first considering Buddhism, but would find out that it was just A philosophy...A good philosophy, but I wanted some thing much deeper. So I looked in to where it came from & was reading about Hinduism, I liked many things about different groups, but was still confused about A few things (such as Castes, for example). So I looked in to some Western counter-parts & came up on Paganism, I was attracted to the idea of making my own miracles, A chance at getting power. The problem of course was that Paganism is some thing small & not very well known enough other than Wicca. So I was looking in to Wicca, reading A book by Gerald Gardner & felt A nostalgic sense of "Coming Home". I would have probably very well been deluded in to being one were it not for one of these people showing "her true colors" by playing A part in justice being denied in regards to my legal issues regarding the school system & (to make matters worse) she was the assistant to the school psychiatrist who had A sick sense of humor about skinning cats alive! I essentially became disgusted, especially since the Wiccan magic I was trying to use never worked & I ended up with an other epileptic attack from utilizing "The Lesser Banishing Ritual Of The Pentagram" (which involves dealing with Angels, which of course are Abrahamic...it was practically like the female-oriented version of Christianity/Islam/Jewism, but with Occultism & wrapped in A different style package).

So now I had no place else to turn to, it was Satanism or Atheism (which was what I originally was) & I choose Satanism. When I first looked in to it, I was thinking it was how jewish-controlled HollyWood & media portrayed it to be...but after reading & reading more, I have found out that every thing was just A lie! I found out about so many things, I was kind of going through shock. I then felt anger, rage & vengeful...that I was fooled for so many years, that I have basically wasted A large portion of my life! I have even learned the disturbing facts of Zionists (Jewish Supremacists), their shills & their deities (The Tyrannical Elohim under "Allah /Jehovah/Yahweh) whom they render worship unto. I would then come to invest full-time in Meditation & furthering personal spiritual development, increasing my personal knowledge until I felt ready to do "The Dedication Ritual". As that night came, there were two things that motivated me to going through with it...*LOVE* & *VENGEANCE*. "Love" ended up being inadequate as A motivator, it held no real meaning to me & so it was "Vengeance" that ended up being the final motivator...the ritual was done. I would also develope the idea of blending Fascism & Monarchy together, the idea of "Emperor Worship" (similar like that of what Japan had) as it is by far the most legitimate Satanic form of government ever to be conceived as the one who reigns is Anti-Christ (our Liberator, chosen & found worthy by our benefactors).

So here you have read some things about me & what ultimately led me in to embracing Satanism (Militant Paganism), *VENGEANCE*. I desire to commit the ultimate act of Vengeance & play A part in freeing the Gentile people from the tyranny of The Zionist Oligarchy, to make sure that "The Tyrannical Elohim" are dead or enslaved as lambs to the slaughter! Vengeance be my virtue, purpose, life & love...it is all I know & desire, heed my words: THERE WILL BE A PURGE. If not, then may my carcass decay & rot where it expires as my failure deserves no pity (despite what the gods/goddesses say them selves). I am for ever devoted to our sacred struggle & shall never relent in my personal duties, I am A *Traditional DeviL Worshipping Anti-Christ Loyal Spiritual Satanist* who is A "Monarcho-Fascist" for ever more....

¡¡¡¡¡¡666 HAIL FATHER SATAN 666!!!!!!


      ~MG2 [s.s.s.]


The Satanic Priestess is a pivotal part of Satanic Black Magick ~ through the pop culture Satanism of Anton LaVey and the sensationalist reports of the Press the role of the Satanic Priestess has been degraded and rendered of low importance.

In truth the Satanic Priestess is a powerful Practitioner of the Black Arts with a unique ability to tap into the Infernal Current of Hell, the Gestated Seed of the Demonic Father Satan and the Demiurge like creative Black Womb of His Infernal Consort Lilith.

In popular Satanism the image of the naked woman on the Altar has utilized so purposely by The Church of Satan to attract the sort of Carnival/Porn hype it sort is hardly conducive to promoting a role of power form women in Satanism ~ but in Classical Theistic Satanism the Satanic Priestess is far more than an attractive Altar Decoration.

Yes the beauty and sexuality of woman is a form of Infernal power in itself and particularly taps into the carnal current of Demonic energies and yes the sexual power of the Priestess in Ritual is ineffable during certain Rites, but these are just elements of the Infernal Priestess and her Dark Powers.

Even the Sex Magick Rites portrayed in popular Satanism are portrayed with the woman as a sexual object to stimulate male Practitioners ~ as someone who was Initiated into an underground Coven of Classical Theistic Satanists who also held a vast amount of knowledge on LHP Tantric Sex Magick I was tutored to know that the reverse of this is the truth.

In the old ways of Satanic Sex Magick it was the Priests role to stimulate the Priestess without prospect of sexual release for himself and the most powerful of all Satanic Sexual Black Magick involves the Priest bringing the Priestess to multiple Orgasms through the art of cunnilingus while retaining his own arousal’s climax to aid the building power created by his Magickal Consort … this practice is known as Awakening The Grail and is an Operation of great power.

In other Rites in the Covens of Classical Satanic Sorcery and Witchcraft the Priestess is also viewed as the chief power in many Seership Rites, Practices involving the gestating Infernal energies into existing entities through the Satanic Scientific techniques of Homunculi and Golem Operations.

Certain substances of the female are also crucial to some of the Darkest Rites of Satanic Power ~ substances such as Menstrual Blood, Amniotic Fluid and Sexual Fluids of the female Satanists are honoured - and with good reason - as the elixirs from the Grail of Lilith!

The lost Arts of Classical Satanic Witchcraft are another area of Satanic practice in which the participation of the Satanic Priestess is of utmost importance, these Workings are a natural forces and wisdom within the Satanic Sorceress inhabited by the Dark Soul Marked by the Devil ~ in some of the more unknown and veiled Arts of Satanic Sorcery the link between Satan and Saturn and Lilith and the Dark Moon are truly harnessed by the Satanic High Priestess at times of induced power!

Ignore the sensationalist press and the pornographic settings of some of photos churned out at the outbreak of sixties Satanism, long before such popularized imagery of modern Satanic practices were spawned the Priestess of Classical Satanism and the Dark Sorceress of Satanic Witchcraft held far greater powers!

JohnBoullan Jul 18 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 2 · Tags: satanic priestess, theistic satanism, satanism
“Lord Satan … Diabolus … Father of the Infernal Kingdom … true Master of the World … Lord of Illusions … Black Goat of the Witches Sabbat … Giver of Knowledge … Adversary of the False Trinity … Monarch of Demons … my Devotion is eternally yours … Grandest of All Demons … the Spear … the thorn … the nail … Ancient Serpent of Knowledge … Defiler of the Pious … Slayer of the Lamb … Lord of the Arts of Black Magick … Keeper of the Black Flame … Tempter … the Devil … Master of Infernal Ceremonies … I am your Acolyte … your Disciple … your Apostle … and your Prophet … my eyes view the world through your eyes … my lips will speak of your Work and your Lore … my mind shall be as a Gateway to your Infernal power … my flesh given to your pleasure … my body a vessel for your Work … Lord Satan always shall I serve at your Altar and ally myself to the Grand Demons of your Infernal Legion … Ave Satanas! … Ave Diabolus!”
JohnBoullan Jul 18 '17 · Tags: satan satanism
Quick question for anyone who can help with any suggestions about invocating satan and the possibly that it went wrong?
Alwayzfaded1 Jul 10 '17 · Comments: 9
Zoramonkey Member
I have tried to coordinate this sort of thing but now Magus has agreed to pop in for it I will announce it. This Tuesday at 9pm and a few hours later at 2am Wednesday morning we will hold a general open discussion on the live chat and answer questions in real time.

The subject will be ritual in the LHP. Not instruction, just trying to clear up misconceptions people new to things like Satanism have. Anyone is welcome to jump on and contribute.

Often times people who have never met an actual LHP person or a Satanist have misconceptions based on movies or stories told by evangelists. Our goal is to paint a realistic picture of what actually happens. Many LHP methods are different but there are similarities.

The best example is a Laveyan ritual. Sometimes Laveyans use a nude female participant as an altar. Though this tradition is harmless and if you do not consider the human body evil then the tradition seems even beautiful. Outsiders will see a photograph of such rituals and insist that the woman is about to be sacrificed. The joke is that I know that Lilith Aquino was often an alter and I do not think anyone sacrificed her.

Misconceptions like this could easily be dispelled simply by speaking to a few people who have been to such rituals in real-time. Anyone who has attended any kind of LHP ritual qualifies to help us inform some of the new folks. I am hoping to not only attract some of the new folks who are not active and some of the lurkers as well.

If this gets some attendance other events of this sort will surely follow.

Zoramonkey Jul 8 '17
Zoramonkey Member

I have found that in light of past mistakes I seem to accept bad contracts, religions, roles, jobs, concepts, and even friendships only later to find out that something has slipped past my awareness that I never really wanted. Mostly this occurs because of the "boiled frog" effect, but it can also happen as a result of manipulation.

Most church-goers do not see the church as an engine made with the intention of accumulating financial resources and collecting governmental and social control. They see it as a thing that exist to help them improve themselves and their lot. The church employs a financial manager or an accountant at least and the minister spends a great deal of time explaining how people should behave and who they should vote for, but who evaluates the needs and progress of the church goers? Ask any minister or clergy how such information is obtained and you will get your answer.

If a person or thing has suggestions, advise, or any kind of plan or grievance for you, but show little or no concern for your well being or feelings then, in my opinion can quickly be disregarded. The problem is that many folks and organizations will keep their actual goals and intentions hidden while presenting a false front of faux agendas to placate those who would otherwise reject such goals.

The awareness of such realizations is often differed first by a disdain of selfishness, causing the victim to silence the opposition in their own head. If the victim does speak out or  question they are accused of being a bad person, or the victim is accused of painting an exaggerated narrative of extreme. Saying "I do not like this sort of treatment." is met with "Well, you just think I am a horrible monster." The same mechanic at play in a personal relationship comes into play in a larger scope in a religion. 

The fact is that if a religion, ideology or person is not acting or concerned with acting in your self interest then it can be avoided without guilt. If said entity acts against your self interests then it should be opposed or at least avoided. The only time the self should be ignored is to achieve a greater goal. Any other approach is not rational.

If you are prevented from or not given sufficient information to evaluate a person or organization in your life, then interaction should be suspended until such information can be obtained. Often the threat of abandonment or marooning is used by individuals and organizations bent on keeping it's victims submissive. I am reminded of tales of Scientologists who remained in the organization not because they believed the doctrine but because they feared being separated from family and friends. I am also reminded of the penalties of apostasy in Islamic countries.

A note on another method that individuals and organizations use to punish  those who begin to think for themselves and sometimes is used as a general control technique. This method is generally known as bull-baiting. The victim is accused or intentionally insulted and taunted until they become angry. The attacker, regardless of if it is a person or organization, can either strike back without looking like the bad guy or if the victim manages getting the upper hand, they then act as if they are the victim. 

Christians are famous for this tactic. For most of my life LHP folks and atheists have been maligned, shunned, and even in some cases killed (the case of Madeline Murray O'hare comes to mind.) Yet even the slightest valid point against the religion is spoken and they cry persecution. The same thing occurs with the cries of Islamophobia every time someone displays any kind of anger or offence at a terror attack.  

Frequent evaluation of ones affiliations and relationships does not prevent every instance of painful interaction and manipulation but it does seem to reduce instances of being used and victimized.

Zoramonkey Jul 4 '17

I'm looking for...

*What religion(s) views I care to support.

*The supernatural while keeping a clear head.

*Orgonians who are around me.
*Friends from different and same walks of life to develop a "ballenced" support system for me. to explore.

*To explore/see/contemplate the complete opposite of what I was raised to be...

*To "get a grip" on life as I see things. Better understanding of myself.

*To live, and let live. I mean to really LIVE. To indulge in my life.

*To develop social skills.

*To clear out false beliefs and behaviors.

*What is my purpose in life.

Looking for a clear explanation of why ...

*Why am I here...I am drawn...and why. 

This, being on here, is part of me trying to understand myself in my self exploration and gain a better understanding. Of life, of me and of you.

SilverAgate Jul 2 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 1
Zoramonkey Member
For those of you who have not seen Stanley Kubrick's masterpiece
2001: A Space Odyssey based on a novel of the same name by
Arthur C. Clarke I would recommend watching or reading the first scene at least. You are introduced to Moonwatcher a sickly weak but oddly bold and intelligent pre-human.

There is a watering hole and when Moonwatcher and his pack attempt to drink the larger and fiercer ape-men chase him off. He is hungry and thirsty in a time of drought.

The monolith appears and he alone has the curiosity and courage to get close and touch this unfamiliar and odd thing.

He forgets the watering hole for a moment and begins playing with the bones of a pig or ox that died in the drought. He suddenly realizes that the force that the bone has when hitting the other bones is significantly greater than that of his fist.

Calmly and quietly he approaches the larger ape-man who screams with terrifying ferocity and threatens to crush Moonwatcher. Without warning Moonwatcher brings the jawbone down on the larger apes skull crushing it.

I will stop there with the story because my point is here. Far too often white supremacy and for that matter black militantism or any other racially specific group seeks to be the larger ape-man.

I have always endeavored to be like Moonwatcher and, in fact the name I chose for this site is based on this. Instead of pounding ones chest and growling try examining the unfamiliar and the obscure.

The real master race is the intelligent and the creative, those who think outside the box. Demographics may be different for race and culture but in every group you have those who lead and those who follow.....and those other guys, who seem to be irrelevant and pointless just poking around in the bones and debris of that which has been discarded and ignored.

Nothing to see  here.
Zoramonkey Jul 2 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 1
Zoramonkey Member

A decision was made by the supreme high absolute Leader of the Barefoot Illuminati that we go public on this day so here goes.

We are the Barefoot Illuminati and we in fact exist. Need proof? We will get to that. Just you sit your butt down and smell what I am cooking.

Our agenda is to promote the better ideas of the 50s 60s 70s and 80s. Groups that kinda sorta thought like us were the Beats, the Hippies, Punk Rockers and Pat Boone.

We promote such things as cartoons, solar power, snacks, relaxation, “alternative” hygiene concepts, bad fashion choices, and any harmless general fuckery that seems to piss off so many folks, like peace, love and freedom.

We tend to frown on things like genocide, murder, mixing religion and politics, super-foods, power lunches, dress codes, social caste systems, violence (unless it is dueling…with non-lethal weapons like bear mace and/or cattle prod fencing), bull cock or dog fighting (unless using biplanes, spaceships or genatalia) generally anything that bums us out.

Our members include celebrities, politicians, religious leaders, lawn maintenance people, tech support agents, corporate executives, school lunch workers, sex workers, and even….HIM. We are everywhere, get over it.

You need proof? HA!!! Okay, Marijuana legalization creeping across the country….You are welcome humanity. Sponge Bob Squarepants, look how many times feet are shown or mentioned…even though few sea animals and no sponges have feet!!!!! In fact look at all children’s programing. Feet everywhere. One minute little Petunia is just watching the Wiggles next thing you know “Mom, why don’t we just get electricity from the Sun instead of burning all that stinky oil?”



We  are everywhere! There is no escape!

We are coming for you! One minute you think you are fine, next: BAMMM!! The smell of B.O. and patchouli as you realize both an advanced dungeons and dragons campaign and a drum circle have broke out in YOUR front yard. Then you scream in terror as you realize that your wife is the DM. Scary huh? You go to get your dog to sick him on them then you see the feet on his color or the foot chew toy and realize that you have been betrayed. What next? Your goldfish? The flowers in your yard? YOUR PET ROCK? You call the cops, the dispatcher answers. “Hello I would like to report a a …..” The dispatcher interrupts you: “Hey man, you sound really stressed perhaps you need a FOOT rub.” OH MY GOD NOT THE POLICE TOO!!!! We are everywhere, there is nothing you can do.

Perhaps at this point you might ask “How can I join?” Well lil pal we have very strict requirements for membership:

1. Potential members must be living, perceived to be living or have been one of the two at one point.

2. Once in,  you must at least be able to tell yourself “I am in the Barefoot Illuminati." This can be difficult for our members who are houseplants and such.

3. You have to work for our agenda or at least try to. This one is actually the easiest as the Barefoot Illuminati isn’t too concerned about failure. We are the Whiley Coyote of conspiracies.

When you suspect someone of being another member of the Barefoot Illuminati simply say "Good luck on your footwork!” If they are not a member, they will be, because that is how new members are initiated. You can leave at any time but whenever you get told the initiating sentence again you will have to quit all over again. It even works when you say it in the mirror or to your reflection in a puddle of water or any other substance.

Okay now for the best part:


Now go and do whatever it is

Zoramonkey Jul 2 '17 · Comments: 1
Zoramonkey Member
Someone actually asked me recently how to get to the sites livechat. This can be accessed directly in the top bar by way of the link that says live chat. Attendance goes up and down. It can be dead and spring to life with 6 video chat participants but you can elect to do strictly voice or just do the text and it is probably the best way to get to know people on the site for a new person.

I have a similar tinychat room but I try to confine it mainly to theistic LHP discussion but I rarely kick anyone out. here is the link LHP Discussion
I plan to be setting up a regular scheduled chat here and we could even organize one on the main live chat for the site.

I have posted the Steam group and several other chat and social media communication methods are available in the section under this video on youtube. Just make sure you click the "show more"

My channel in and of itself is as follows: Bad Things
I plan to be setting up a hangout soon and if enough people participate I can get some more famous you tubers I know to show up.

Many of the people I know on the site do mmos. If you do and would like to do this with people from the site, this could be arranged.

Again if all that is too much trouble then at least try to comment on a forum or two. The LHP, or any esoteric practice for that matter can tend to isolate one. As cool as it seems to fly alone, everyone needs to occasionally interact with others now and then. 30 minutes of conversation does not mean you are a cult member and have surrendered your individuality to the group mind. Anonymity is not nearly as hard to protect as it seems. For once take a peek, you can lurk here forever, but until you find out you will never know.

Zoramonkey Jul 2 '17


The Winds expose the lightning of the scent of the death. The Light of the dead brings joy into our hearts.

Ostara, also known as the Spring Equinox, is the midpoint between the two Solstices and the day and night are in perfect balance. The light of day is on the increase with each passing day from Ostara onward.

It is at this sabbat that the young Sun God now celebrates a hierogamy, or a sacred marriage, with the young Maiden Goddess, who conceives at this time. In nine months, she will again become the Great Mother. This sabbat is a time of great fertility, new growth, and newborn animals. The next full moon, a period shown to have a time of increased births, is called the Ostara and is sacred to Eostre the Saxon Lunar Goddess of fertility, (which is from where we get the word estrogen), whose two symbols were the egg and the rabbit.

Later in time, the Christians adopted these emblems for Easter, (the egg and rabbit), which is celebrated on the first Sunday after the first full moon following the vernal equinox. The theme of the conception of the Goddess was adapted as the Feast of the Annunciation, occurring on the alternative fixed calendar date of March 25 Old Lady Day, the earlier date of the equinox. Lady Day may also refer to other goddesses (such as Venus and Aphrodite), many of whom have festivals celebrated at this time. 

Ostara is a time for renewal and rededication to the path.

More Inspiring Symbol Includes the "Prophet of Death" who delights in the murdering of the useless.

Lucifart Jul 1 '17 · Rate: 5 · Tags: satan


The girl waits patiently

listening for her troubles to come knocking,

knowing it will come.

Mommy’s livin’ in her own little world

too busy to take the time to get to know her daughter

She loves her but other things come first

Daddy is gone, living with his new family.

Don’t come to visit you, don’t know if he truly cares.

He called the other night, said “I love you”

Mommy doesn’t know, if she did then all hell would break loose.

She prays and hopes

for her life to pick up speed.

Wants to make her own decisions.

Not a child, not yet a teen.

Can’t wait to grow up.

To escape

Just hold up, hold on.

You can make it.

Wait for a while, you will come around.

You can’t just wish to be older.

‘Cause while your wishin’,

your life will pass you by.

You can’t live it over.

You have only one chance

so enjoy it while you can.

The boy sits in his room.

Tears silently streaking down his face.

A knife in his hand

slashing his arms to ribbons.

Unanswered questions running through his head

while wishing he was dead.

Why don’t they hear his prayer for help?

Mommy leashes out stress.

Daddy’s in California now.

So many questions

Will someone answer them?

Doesn’t anybody care?

He prays and hopes

for his life to pick up speed.

Want’s to feel in control of his life.

Not a child, not yet a teen.

Can’t wait to grow up.

To escape

Just hold up, hold on.

You can make it.

Wait for awhile, you will come around.

You can’t just wish your problems away.

‘Cause while your wishin’,

your life will pass you by.

You can’t live it over.

You have only one chance

so enjoy it while you can.

God will give you strength.

He will make things come round right.

You just have to pray,

lift your voice to the sky

and thank God for all his creations,

that includes you.

You are a miracle, a blessing sent from heaven above.

He loves you unconditionally.

He will wrap you in his arms

and protect you from all harm.

If you allow him to . . .

He is your Father. 

 This piece was dedicated to two of my closest friends back in the day who were going through some tough times. Made years ago. Thought that even if it was old and old mind set, I should still post it.

SilverAgate Jul 1 '17 · Comments: 1

Have you ever?

Have you ever tried to scream but you never uttered a sound?

Your voice once so clear now is spell bound.

Have you ever felt trapped, feeling like there's no escape?

and the past leaves you wondering if it's just too late.

Have you ever been so lost, you ask the darkness, "Is this reality?"

But as you slowly look up and realize you recognize everything you see.

Have you ever seen your future far ahead in the morning mist?

I did.

And I finally saw what lies in store for me as I calmly slash my wrist.

Have you ever wished so hard to be somebody you know?

So you can quit pretending to be your every day 'Average Joe'.

Have you ever wanted acceptance so badly you just couldn’t live?

And you wish someone could have seen you for who you were, not what you did.

And as my last seconds glide slowly by, I make one final wish . . .

I wish people wouldn’t judge others for their past, what they did.

That they would just let it go, accept it, let them live. 

This expresses how I felt a years ago.  I was thinking about my past and some of my old bottled up feelings . . . and let them go.  So, no I'm not going to kill myself . . . EVER!!! Is just a way to express.

SilverAgate Jul 1 '17 · Rate: 5


I'm here, no not really.

Don't lie, don't be silly.

I'm gone, and I don't know where.

Don't ask, 'cause I don't care.

So There!

Forget it, it's just life.

I'll make it, somewhere sometime.

Don't cry, that's what babies do.

Not really, but I'm in the mood.

So There!

So go, I don't care where.

Away, away the hell from here.

Leave while your still ahead.

Die, for all I care.

So There!

I'm nice, like sugar and spice.

Go ahead and roll the dice.

Win me, go ahead and try.

Come on baby, I'm worth the price.

So There!

Drugs, there bad for you.

Addition, that's all they equal to.

Who cares? Well I do.

Why? Because I love you.

So There!

You lie, well I do too.

But no, that life's not for you

or me, you gotta see

what this crap is doin' to me.

So There!

Forget now,

An give me the blame.

Who cares? 

I don't know but we will see.

So There!

Jealousy's go the best of me.

My Angel, why can't you see

I'm blind to reality.

I shouldn’t be, but I can't help it see?

So There!

I'm sad, I want to cry.

Maybe just up and die.

My Angel's fine, don't you dare touch him

Hello!! He's mine.

So There!

I don't plan to lead you astray

But to live life day by day.

A friend?!? A friend would be fine.

Don't worry, I'm not feeding you a line.

So There!

So, let's mend an fix an pray

That our kids can someday play.

Without grownup strife.

It hurts everyone deep as a knife.

Fo sure

So let's go, race you there!

Jump in, jump in with a care.

Friends we'll be.

That's what we can guarantee.


Here, I am on bended knee.

Why can't I just be me.

Tell me, who can see,

My life now to what It's gonna be.

So There!

Yep, no stress and strife

but there's just no such life

Now really, lets just try.

Life ain't no slice O pie.

Lets agree.

Alone, is the place carefree.

So I won't hurt anybody but me.

My frets, time to come clean.

What now? Jus be.

So There!

I'm livin, If you consider my life livin'.

Blue skies are grey today.

Its my life I be wishin'

I'm not now, but I'll be o-tay.

So There!

I'm here. No really!!!!

I'm alive, I guess that's silly.

to say cause duh, look whose writing.

"I say, I've seen a Kay sighting."

That's me.

So There!

Many moons have passed

Now two thousand seventeen.

Been hard, so downcast

Let's maybe smoke some green

It's legal...

So there! 

This is my angry poem. Can be sung or screamed! lol! I've added bits and pieces to it over the years and has been an ongoing special project of mine. I am quite proud of it. Shows a lot of growth! Started writing it around 2000 I believe and is still going to be added to more later. . . after I find all my lil scraps of paper lying around with my additions to this. . 

UPDATE:  Hi. There is more I have yet to write. Please bare with me. This is a storyline of what I was going through at the time.

SilverAgate Jul 1 '17 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 1
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