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As a Satanist, every context which i enter into i watch for demonizing. It is part of what i have identified as a principle of my Satanism that i support the underdog, engage what i consider to be a discipline of martyrdom which emphasizes the identification by abused, dualistic slanders, legitimating them through direct contrary, benefic action in association to their name. To me this is the spirit that runs through all the cults prior to and posterior to the Satanic in the Left Hand Path as it has developed during the course of the last century above ground and by name.

The internet is, where i have ventured, a topic-identified terrain. Every one of these allowed for the possibility of identifying a new "Evil", a new "Wrong", and a new dualistic condemnation into which i might fit myself. The first primary choice on my part was within my occult order. I had read many of the works of the occult author Aleister Crowley and noted with distaste that he had engaged a dualistic rant against those whom he termed 'Black Brothers', the 'Fratribus Nigris' as i reflected on it. I notice additionally that my kin within that order (the O.T.O.) were applying this to those whom they saw as rivals, of 'doing things the Wrong way', and generally whom they condemned. I realized at that time that my name within that order would need to be 'Black Brother', and out of sympathy for the condemned (and a touch of bad Latin) i aspired to attain to the exalted aims of the Thelemite while i chose as my initiated name 'nigris', later discovering its numerological value of 333, a resonance with the Demon of the Abyss, Choronzon, and many other things.

One of the defining characteristics of this Abysmal Demon (333) is a multifaceted identity or polyfaciae, at times associated to dispersal and psychosis. Whereas my aims were always the same and subsequent self-identifiers in qabalistic (hara), Muslim (Haramullah), Wiccan (Lorax666 of the Evul Wikkhunz), and Satanist (boboroshi, nocTifer) contexts have to me and those i know resolved to a single coherent center, consistently i have been opposed by those who took surface for content, label and packaging for what and who i am, and those who want to use labels and names to castigate and berate others in juvenile ways.

My conversion to Satanism (i wasn't born into any religion) primarily oriented in opposition to what i regarded as a lux-o-philic and anti-darkness bias exercised by Hermetic and Neo-Gnostic occultists interested in escalating Lucifer to a high status, while casting the rest into ignorance, such that even this alternative name for Venus remained forgotten. I forged my pact with Satanas Paternas, wrote my scripture, and summoned demons all under the name 'nocTifer' or 'bringer of darkness'. My time as part of the Church of Euthanasia, a fanciful escalation of Satanism as i understood it, detracted little from this, and when that ecclesia dissolved around me i was content to resume that darkness-oriented identity.

As i began to understand the media developments within Satanism, watching several 'shells' of technical venues left abandoned by users (including at first alt.satanism in a flight to protection, then in several series of moderated venues with new technological presentations, such as yahoogroups, googlegroups, and then waves of web-boards), and the replication of media form through time emphasized by availability of broadcast (text, sound, video), it became obvious to me that my prediction from the 1990s that the internet would compete with, and then completely replace, television (which i generally dislike) would come to pass, and that semi-interactive novelties such as BlogTalkRadio.com and YouTube.com (YT) were the sonic and videographic landscapes, respectively, into which a good part of intelligent discourse was headed after having fled from IRC and usenet long ago.

I trailed Satanism through boards, and was intrigued to find it making innovative appearance in YT. Due to my disciplines and observations of social repercussions, i avoided YT as i had avoided photographs and film for more than 2 decades. When i met Beast Xeno in IRC (one of these former 'wild zones' for chat: a moderated subset of it) he exposed me in greater depth to something i'd already known about from Venger Satanis: the Cult of Cthulhu. Though it related to the mystical works of Gurdjieff, the outstanding horror of Lovecraft, and somehow tried to twist itself around a form of Satanism ostensibly distended out of LaVey, i had heretofore avoided it on account of the corrosive methods taken by Crazy Wisdom teachers like Gurdjieff and Rajneesh. That Beast liked it was intriguing, and i found his friendship inspiring enough to seek out his writings interior to that private web board (another reason i'd avoided it - its privacy). I would go on to assist their efforts somewhat in the Cult, interact with a number of its other members, and become recognized as a Keeper of the Green Flame therein.

That was odd enough and fun, but something that i hadn't expected was his radio show with Venger Satanis, called 'The Ooze'. It was new technology to me, even though my guru had a student who was a professional radio producer and DJ, they'd been doing a show together for years, and i would later replace him operating the sound board for more recent versions of that show unto this day. Encountering The Ooze was intriguing, and gave me incentive to follow Beast into another project he indicated to me he had a strong part in producing: the Satanic International Network (S.I.N.). It was just beginning, and as i explored it and the people involved with it (finding out as much as i could about Zach Black, for example, in order to integrate him, along with Beast and Venger, into the references on well-known Satanists i have maintained), i began to realize how 'out' its participants were in YouTube (YT). That there was some emphasis on cameras in the Tinychat there, and presentation of footage of this once or twice to YT by Zach was noted by me in my estimation of its character.

At some point i undertook to explore Tinychat.com, and noticed that the intense reaction i had received in regards my appearance was enhanced and doubly-strong amongst the conservatives who frequented it ("Osama! Are you going to bomb us?!"). I understood fairly quickly that this was a reproduction of usenet and IRC but in videographic media, and that YT was a fair but private replication of usenet. At that point the sequential development of media became clear to me, and shortly thereafter i had a vision of engaging YT while preserving my vow of humility (with some suggestions from my guru): I could wrap my face and take on a proper pseudonym. My brief exposures to YT through association with my good friend Venus Satanas made it clear to me what the "Wrong", "Evil" and condemned class of individuals within it were called: trolls. This became so obvious that the term was now abused so as to refer to anyone whose position or expression one did not like.

I knew that, like in every other venue (topical), i needed to self-identify properly so as to pursue my practice of Satanism as i understood it. In the Satanic and YT contexts i pinpointed my nickname therein: Troll Towelhead. The surname was amusing and yet proper in that i had been given a Turkish turban to wear and a religious office to occupy and maintain (Grand Mufti of Satanism) by my guru, and these were perfect for my purposes in opposing an obvious anti-Muslim supplement to the anti-satanism of the 1990s. I saw this carry also into the Satanic subculture, striking alongside a willingness to accept fascism and bigotted stupidity of many sorts, ostensibly in the name of 'embracing evil' or 'self-development'.

The first name, however, was so thrilling, so exciting to me on account of its multi-valence, that i could barely contain myself. What a discovery! This wasn't just applicable to YT, but to every internet venue! The future of internet Satanism as i knew it! Its character in relation to how intellectuals who dispute against and reveal uncomfortable features in faulty logic or philosophic discourse were slandered with the name was precisely what i'd observed as regards the term 'sophist' amongst some philosophers. Popular cynical Satanists repeatedly mentioned the term and its use for castigation was precisely what i seek out in topical contexts as facile and chilling.

The secondary dimension to the first name 'Troll' was in part what thrilled me the most, since i have for many years studied magic, and have more and more strongly began to focus on folk magic and its materia magica (something my guru loves in relation to African American culture and encourages the world over).

A fellow student of my guru who apprenticed with her here for weeks is also a fan of The Devil (particularly Der Teufyll, the Woods God/god(s)). While he was here we had long talks about demonology and its intersection with wild nature, trying to come to some kind of understanding of the God Satan and its relation to magic and my scripture. We discussed my scripture and my general method, and he began a newfound interest in the folk magic of his own Swedish homeland. He went back to Sweden and after numerous social adventures and turns of fate dug deeply to discover the details of the folk magic of his homeland. Our projects and studies have been intertwined ever since, and he discovered that the word for folk magic (/witchcraft) in Swedish lore is "trolldom", and that trolls are another name for magic user!! The whole folkloric beast-complex in part centers on the fact that these are elder wild folks who know something of magic. For a person to call themselves a troll is to effectively proclaim their occultism. This is a correlate to 'witch' in multiplex fashion.

Doing a search online (primarily on YT) i reminded myself that the original usage for the term 'troll' and 'trolling' relate to VERBS not nouns, and that it pertains to fishing: casting out baiting expressions and seeking indisciplined responses with the hopes of manipulating and hoaxing (landing) a 'Big One'. Everything after this has been a castigation (at times quite amusing!) of monsters on the order of vampires or werewolves or demons (see my "Manifesto Satanika" for more on the development of these in modern religious history, from witches to satanists, then on to vampires, werewolves and demons, epitomizing in what i predicted in the form of Lovecraftian monsters and the Cult).

When i decided to take the name Troll for YT i wondered what i might want to do about the S.I.N., especially since its owner and several of those who were part of it were also heavily involved in YT, and there was such an emphasis on visuals within the tinychat people had remarked about being popular therein. I decided that its emphasis was such, and the style of interaction (contenteous, focussed on by some as 'crushing haters' and 'exterminating bullshit') was such, that this YT pseudonym was far better than 'nocTifer' (which a number now began to misidentify as 'noctifier', probably due to the small font on the site). I knew that this would be controversial, but given the trust i had in Beast in particular, and in Zach, i choose S.I.N. (1.0) to become the origin and proving grounds to make that change for my Satanism, and to make it permanently. It was the best decision i ever made.

This was not without forethought, and not without a long history of socially-transformative engagements i sought out in pursuit of martyrdom as i have understood it (not death seeking, but virtuous witness of truth from a position of condemnation to tyrannical power). I decided to try it out regardless of the consequences, and begin to enter into chat and the forums as i was moved by compassion, defending love and comradery, society and bonding friendships.

I saw the attention being paid to cynical and biting Satanists who spoke in gaming terms of 'pwning', and who made frequent mention of trolls. I tried to reflect a pure and perfect complement to it, emphasizing another pole in what i think of as a neo-tantric apex, and proceeded to argue in favour of tolerance, criticizing manipulators and bullies (even real trollers!).

Generally i made little effort to conceal my identity, though i occasionally distracted away from my person, location, or background with fiction. I wanted, instead, the focus to be the topics of our conversations, and i said little also about my witnessing interests, the background of trolls i'd discovered, or the Great Martyrdom Cult of which i think we are all part, and whose little eddy in a Satanic sandbox i was part of creating.

At first i was accused by one or more of its moderators of nefarious and false motivations, behaviours, as i had expected might occur, and this brought with it the deletion of my account more than once in S.I.N. (1.0). Yet my allies running the board quickly understood my heart and motivations, the style and substance of my Satanism, and how i was bringing it even to the very heart of Satanism, and eventually reinstated me, more than once.

Since then i've gone on to make a very good name for myself, my title, for Demonic Satanism in the commentary and publishing of The Gospel of Satan and continued service to Satanists and Satan, extending en toto some 17 years and developing into a personal relationship with the Devil himself.

I'm very happy to have returned to S.I.N. (2.0), resumed my Troll account here, and look forward to establishing new friendships as well as to rekindle old ones in a fresh, and more friendly, environment.

Assalam alaykum and BLVD!,

Troll the Unvanquished
https://www.facebook.com/DevilPact
https://www.facebook.com/Tr0llT0welhead
https://www.gospelofsatan.com
https://www.satanservice.org/wiki/Troll_Towelhead

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Coexistence? No. We are Satanist. Although we do not promote religious bigotry or unneeded violence, should you choose to align yourself with a religion that is responsible for the murder and repression of millions under the false pretense of this or that God you ARE MY ENEMY.

I will not white knight around preaching coexistence. Nor will I question ' why can't we all get along' . We Satanists are not looking for acceptance or ' equality '. Make no mistake. I want nothing more than to see your religion of fear and hatred that is responsible for the deaths of millions destroyed. As long as I am alive this will be a goal of mine. 

I can define it for you the old fashioned way. Give you the glossed over, clinical definition devoid of real world experience but I'd rather give you something you can apply. Our lives are filled with psychic vampires. You encounter them on a daily basis but they slip by undetected until one targets you and then your perspective of normal human behavior forever changes.

First Awakening: Other people are not like you. Not. At. All.

Decency, honesty, justice, compassion, empathy, remorse, conscience, guilt, love -- these are NOT universal traits. Sure, you know that on a surface level but a psychic vampire is going to bring you to question each of these values on a scale you didn't believe a human could reach. When dancing with a vampire you can not only expect them to step on your toes but be prepared to be stabbed in the back, your throat cut, and disemboweled, all with a vampire smile and within arm's reach of bystanders that can't see your pain nor the malicious attack. The hardest thing for anyone to believe is that they have been deceived. It is almost universal that a person will refuse to believe he is gullible. They trust their impressions of people; they don't actually know them. So the vampire continues to exploit victim after victim right under the nose of others, sometimes gaining support in the abuse.

First Rule: Do not TRUST. Verify.

Don't trust psychic vampires' stories or recollection of events if they are the victim. Real victims rarely tell their stories. They are too ashamed and hurt to reveal the most tender part of themselves to any and everyone. Not a vampire. They tell you to gain YOUR emotion; your pity and empathy so they can play you like a puppet. Real victims seek solace and lick their wounds. Manipulators look for gullible puppets.

Words are empty.
Actions speak volumes.

Psychic Vampires depend on your gullible trust in what you're told rather than what you verify because verification takes time. We must be the Judge and Jury on what we will accept as truth.

Identifier: A psychic vampire will display a pattern of attack and remorse, or aggression and denial. Even better; ridicule and oblivion. Oblivious to their own hurtful words or inappropriate actions. They depend on you to only remember your last encounter with them as though you live in a isolated capsule that hinders the memory of elapsed time. They think that if they appear remorseful and kind today you will forget their maliciousness of yesterday. Don't be fooled.
It's a pattern.

 A pattern of abuse.
They don't deserve a second chance.

Almost everything within Satanism deals with a simple psychological concept : "Nature / Nurture." In this post (one of two!), I explain WTF that means. The next part will relate it to Satanism. 

"Nature" refers to everything we are born with. In other words, Nature is everything we have and can do at the moment we're shipped brand new from the factory. It's all the base mechanisms we need to survive as individuals as well as a species as a whole. On the individual scale there's critical mechanisms which sustain an individual organism's life --, like the ability to breathe. On the species scale, there's things like individual variations from height to temperment.

"Nurture" refers to everything which has been added to or changed within us since birth. It's everything that we've learned and ways we have changed outside the normal pre-programmed life cycle from vibrant infant to elderly corpse. These are things like habits, the language we speak, the effects of acculturation to our native culture, (more or less) all individual differences in personality, and differences in height due to failure to thrive (ex. due to malnutrition). 

A much more simple way to describe Nature / Nurture is to include them within the same system defined within the interdependent roles they play as two integrated parts of the same system: Nature is the structure and basic life functions of an organism, Nuture is what ensures it's survival within it's environment.

Both are required to work together to ensure the continued survival of such an organism. Nature without Nurture is symbolized by the Tarot card The Fool. Like the Fool, Nature knows nothing about it's environment by itself, and also like the Fool, that ignorance will result in a stupid, if mercifily swift, death. Nurture without Nature is like software on a DVD. It's useless without a computer to run on.To use another metaphor: Nature is like the living spaceman inside a spacesuit. Nurture is the spacesuit itself -- it's an adaption which allows the spaceman to live within a cold, airless vaccum by providing what the spaceman needs to live within that environment -- air and warmth. The spacesuit is like the knowledge of a special forces soldier trained to survive in a jungle. His knowledge provides what he needs to survive in the jungle -- food, shelter, how to avoid being eaten by a tiger -- by informing him how to find these neccessities and stay safe within in a jungle.

A Footnote I: As is obvious at this point, the debate about Nature vs. Nurture isn't really useful when the debate is framed in absolutes. There's very little in us that are solely due one or the other. For example, the ability to learn to walk at a certain age is Nature. Actually learning to walk is Nurture. It's the same with language acquisition.
Actually, to be frank, the debate isn't useful whatsoever. Nature vs. Nurture is only really useful as a lens to look at ourselves with in order to identify which parts are hardwired and which can be changed, and how these two parts within the same system are mutally interdependent and influence each other. Knowing this, it's obvious why people in every part of the world learn to speak and move, yet they learn to do so in a way unique to their culture (environment.)

A Footnote the Sequel: If you're a fan of the Fourth Way and you're thinking "Hey! This is a lot like essence and personality," that's because those are the terms for Nature and Nuture in that system. They're not like them, they ARE them.  
In the next post, I'll show how Nature / Nurture relates to Satanism.

Until then here's some muzak:

So, the greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was...oh wait.

Listen to my story. This may be our last chance.

Everyone has a backstory. Or a history. Or a war story. Or an origin story. Something that fleshes out a person's character.

I've been bopping around online since about 2008 under the user name 'sonofject'. In early 2010, I created a youtube account with that name and haven't changed it since. To date, I've left a pretty concise online footprint of my persona that is easily researched on google, and there haven't been many intimations of my user name that aren't 'me' (well...I did run into another 'Sonofject' on an anime image board, whoever it was had a penchant for drawing FFX female characters as trannys with dicks...ya gotta love the internet).

 There was a time in my early youtube days when I used to be a bona fide trollhard. Though I can't say that I ever elevated my trolling into a true art form, I can say that I had some really great shits and gigs during that period. I had this routine where I would smoke ridiculous amounts of Cali good-good trees, then--I would go to youtube vids and try to wreck people in the comments section. No real reason to, I just liked doing things like that. A lot of it, I think, had to do with some anger projection issues along with a mild case of adult ADHD and just being high on weed. My primary fixation would be videos about Anton LaVey, Boyd Rice, Scientology, and a few obscure occultist groups like the Process (PCFJ), and the P2 Masonic Lodge. I would also, on occasion, peruse the odd christian fundie videos that bashed theosophy and new age mystery schools, but that shit got old real fast. It stops being fun when your target fails to see the humor and absurdity in religion. After that, it's like whipping someone with a wet noodle. Stupidity should be painful and all that, but I digress. I'm a grown-ass man with the heart of a carnival barker and soul of an entertainer. Life is carny, carny is life.

Somehow or another I managed to stumble across a little corner of the tubes with a small but vocal community of 'online satanists'. It was here that I met a youtube denizen by the name of Zach Black. Long story short, we became fast friends in real life and the rest is history. Suffice it to say, I've been down with Z's brainchild known as SIN since its beginnings, and through all its incarnations as a social networking site, I've run across many people I consider friends and whatnot. Those that know me know that I don't starfuck on people of notoriety, I don't like to name drop most of the time, and I don't like the limelight of online popularity. I've made a couple-few videos pertaining to satanism on youtube, but I'm no cult of personality by any stretch. It was Z himself that coined a nickname for me, the "Pimp-a-Pino" (a nice play on my filipino heritage and my love of all things pimpish) it seemed to stick and I liked it, although I actually prefer following my primal design of being a pragmatic learner with a strong carnal/adversarial nature that is sometimes hard to control. As I walk the satanic path, as a lone practitioner, these ideologies are distinguished by a more existential and practical reality in which to apply them.

But back to Tidus and why I chose him as a part of my online persona. It's quite mundane, really--I'm a huge fan of the Final Fantasy sagas, particularly parts 7 and 10 in the series. It would take me a long while to describe how I resonated with the protagonist Tidus and his pathei mathos, but to sum it up let me just say that if you played FFX and completed it, then you'll catch the feels of this epic archetypal story that I give a most prominent wink/homage to through my online persona. It's my 'final fantasy 'of sorts, a self-imposed psychodrama, if you will.

“What’s the point of pretending to be all grown up.... if it means the things I wanna say never get said? How am I supposed to change anything?” –Tidus (FFX)


by sonofject

 

Codependency, also known as the disease of the lost self, is one of the strongest cultural influences placed upon growing girls. This writing is not meant to admonish a Christian perspective but more of a peek into the psychological underpinnings of a childhood nightly ritual. I couldn't help but reflect on my transition from codependent to Satanist after I looked upon a bookshelf and saw a childhood plaque leaning there. This plaque hung upon every childhood room of mine from infancy to high school. I recall my mother at my bedside reciting the words with me as a young girl, sinking the concepts to the furthest recesses of my mind.
I never knew how something so trite and simple could impact my life.

Prayer for A Little Girl

Now I lay me Down to sleep.
I pray Thee Lord, my soul to keep.
And Angels guard me through the night.
And keep me safe 'til morning light.

Help me to know Thy love for me
So I a loving child may be,
With generous thoughts and happy face
And pleasant words in every place.

Teach me to always say what's true,
Be willing in each task I do.
Please help me to be good each day,
And lead me in Thy Holy way.

I pray whatever wrongs I've done
You will forgive them, every one.
Be near me when I wake again,
And bless all those I love. Amen.

On the surface it appears so innocent but the hidden messages are damaging.

"Now I lay me Down to sleep.
I pray Thee Lord, my soul to keep.
And Angels guard me through the night.
And keep me safe 'til morning light."

Here is the beginning of accepting the control of your life (soul) to someone else and dependence upon them for your safety. Even more deeply the implied message is you are inherently unsafe; you need protection you fragile creature. Is there something a young child should really fear while sleeping? Why instill fear into the subconscious before dreaming? How cruel to use fear to encourage compliance in a young girl's heart. I know, I was that fearful child.

"Help me to know Thy love for me
So I a loving child may be,
With generous thoughts and happy face
And pleasant words in every place."

Can you guess the underlying intent? If I fail to be generous and pleasant (for others) then what am I? Unloving? I am not afforded boundaries. I am not given room to feel anger or selfishness or defiance to establish those boundaries. If I am forbidden the growth of boundaries in childhood when do you expect I will learn? The answer: when abuse supersedes the strength of the psyche. Ever notice how much abuse women will endure? Have you ever asked yourself 'why did she stay?' Because she wanted to be 'loving.'

"Teach me to always say what's true,
Be willing in each task I do.
Please help me to be good each day,
And lead me in Thy Holy way."

Natural children are literal. Children are born honest and learn to lie and they learn to lie faster upon the threat of deprivation, punishment and judgment. Teaching insinuates the child cannot tell truth from lie which is ridiculous. Encourage honesty. There is no need to teach the obvious. Willing implies you have a will, but here we learn it is not really our own. Good little girls willfully comply in every task; no back talk missy. And take my hand please, pave the way because women are notorious for falling off the beaten path. Never point us in the right direction and expect the straight and narrow. Just look at Little Red Riding Hood. Self-navigation is unsafe.

"I pray whatever wrongs I've done
You will forgive them, every one.
Be near me when I wake again,
And bless all those I love. Amen."

Here is the crux of the codependent: shame. Shame needs forgiveness. Without shame there is no victim of judgment. A shameless woman has no strings. She cannot be coerced. A woman that determines her own self-worth cannot be emotionally manipulated. And as for the judge, let him never let me be. His control is constant and ever present. Sacrifice your freedom in return for blessings of love and promises of safety. There's no safer place than prison.

This prayer could be just another indoctrination of religion to the average reader, but for me I see clearly the cultural conditioning that helped prime me for abusive relationships.
• self-sacrifice
• lack of boundaries
• subordination
• dependent for security
• need to be validated by others

Now, here I stand. For every trait I changed above I was charged with the following accusations:
• self-serving
• cold and unloving
• bossy and acting like a man
• pretentious and reckless
• shameless and evil

A ritual for the Satanic Girl is overdue.

I have a fundamental, deeply held belief that all of humanity is totally full of shit. That includes me. Therefore you have my 100% guarantee that everything I say will be no less full of shit than the rest of the human race. That's the only guarantee I can give you. Everything else should be considered possibly full of shit.

I also have an equally fundamental, deeply held belief that the smartest thing anyone can do is realize how completely and totally full of shit they really are and remind themselves of this fact daily.

There are turds everywhere, and the turd you step in most often is your own.

Shit!

Left-hand path ideology is full of them. Religion bases much of its tenets on them. People with the angst of youth, or a weak grasp of philosophy fall into gravely misunderstanding spiritual/occult trappings because of it.

Pre-conceived notions. It's a stigma of sorts--for people that embrace struggle--that people wear like some sort of badge of oppression. They are sacrosanct to religious persecution complexes seen in most Right-hand path ideology. I would chance a guess that people on the satanic path are acutely aware of what these notions mean, and intuit the conflict and self-betterment derived from destroying some of these notions.

"Will traditional satanism ever be fully mainstream?" is a question tossed about and debated amongst the satanic schools of thought. Perhaps it already is, but to what purpose? Even those that seek occult paths for learning and enriching see farther along the path. The occult adept that recognizes how to reach between worlds and move in the shadows--to do the do if you will it--does not embrace a 'mainstream' philosophy. It's a selfish, epicurean life path, after all. Not solipsism salad with nihilistic wine dressing.

by sonofject 

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She just opened an Etsy at

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I've been converting all my LHP sigils and necklaces to rosaries through her since I've seen her designs.  I totally love them and thought maybe others might too so I had to share in case you like them!! \m/

"Rabbit's clever," said Pooh thoughtfully.
"Yes," said Piglet, "Rabbit's clever." "And he has Brain."
"Yes," said Piglet, "Rabbit has Brain." There was a long silence.
"I suppose," said Pooh, "that that's why he never understands anything."

Vision
Joana, the heroine of the movie "Agnosia", suffers from a peculiar illness. She's blind but not because she sees nothing but because she sees too much. Her mind has no filter and her little brain is constantly flooded with the stimuli it cannot process. As a result, she's in the state of permanent confusion, not able to recognize people and objects around her. One would think that if you see more, you're wiser. Not in the case of Joana, though. Her problematic "gift" cripples her, she cannot even walk properly. You can almost pity her when you see her crawling on the bathroom floor.

Her father produces unique lens for telescopes. Before he dies, he tells Joana his industrial secret. For her, it's only a string of meaningless numbers but it's a treasure for her father's enemies. When he dies, they use her deplorable condition to extract the secret from her. As Joana sees and doesn't see at the same time, she's not aware of the dangerous conspiracy  going around her. Her mind, preoccupied with the insignificant details, can't see the bigger picture, can't focus on what is the most important. As a result, her father's empire is taken over, her relationship with her fiance is destroyed and, finally, she dies shot at the steps to the cathedral.



Stratification
A petty mind is like a weapon in the hands of a madman. You can never know the day and the hour when it strikes but you can sense the approaching disaster. If you take a ride with a staggering drunkard, you can be damn sure it will be your last ride. The same is with someone who has his head up his ass. If you give in to your own delusions or the bullshit narratives of other people, you will have to pay, if not now, then in months, years or even decades.

You can delude yourself that you are a special snowflake, that you are better and smarter than others. If you can't see further than the end of your nose, if you can't predict the consequences of your actions, if you live only here and now, you are a mere pawn on that chessboard called life.

Wisdom
Some time ago, there was a big scandal in Poland that triggered a national debate about religious freedom, the rights of doctors and patients and democracy, in general. A respectable doctor refused to perform an abortion of a terminally ill child because of his Catholic views. That was hardly surprising, because he had a legal right to do this, however, he also had a legal obligation to send a woman to another doctor. He not only didn't do this but also lied to the woman that her child was healthy. When she finally learned her child was going to die, it was too late for an abortion. The doctor was punished but it hardly compensated for the woman's false hopes and her suffering while she watched her child die.

Many Catholics tried to make a martyr out of the doctor, saying that he was loyal to his Church, that he followed the rules of his faith, they quoted the pope and the Saints, and atheists, as usual, blamed the religion for close-mindedness of its adherents. It's a pity that the doctor forgot the most important imperative of his faith - to see God in another human being. Seeing "God" in another person is nothing more or less than simple human empathy, the ability to put yourself in another person's shoes, to feel what she feels, to understand what she thinks and how she may suffer.

There is a fundamental truth in the words "The kingdom of God is within you." If its religious meaning is put aside, then it simply means that the depth of your mind is the source of wisdom, the unconscious mind that is the dwelling of intuition and the deep empathic understanding of things.

The corruption of knowledge
Knowledge can be found in books and in the heads of other people. It's easy to lose wisdom in the stream of facts and insignificant details. Other people's ideas are like the noise which deafens you to the barely audible inner voice of wisdom. Studying will never replace experience and there can be no insight without being in tune with other people.

As there are many narrow paths to wisdom, there are also many highways to stupidity. Just like a cockroach infesting the poor and the luxurious kitchens, stupidity doesn't care about a religious label. Neither does it care about a social status or a university degree.

The swines and the pearls
It's been said many times that the nine Satanic sins are the sins against reality. They are punished neither by God nor the Devil, but by life. If you try to build castles in the sky, you risk that, eventually, you will be dragged down to face the desert of the real.

One of such sins is solipsism; deluding yourself that other people share your views and values, that they understand your more or less lofty ideas. Most people are mediocre and even if they appear to be intelligent, it's because their heads are full of other people's ideas. Talking to them is like throwing the pearls before the swines. If you try to be honest with them, if you open your heart, they will crucify you or, worse, drag you down to their level of petty and pathetic bullshit.

That some things should be left unsaid was well understood by women in the past, who locked their diaries in safe and secret places. It wasn't so much the fear of compromise as the awareness of the fact that most people are prone to passing judgements without even bothering to understand. Talking to such people is like talking to the wall. Whatever you say will fall on deaf ears.



While the wise look at the horizon, the fools sit on the beach counting the grains of sand. It's a prerogative of an idiot to take everything under his magnifying glass, to adhere to his religion, ideology or philosophy with an unshaken pedantic scrupulosity. In that way, the things that are really important get lost among the things that only appear to be important. Like T.S. Eliot wrote, we lose wisdom in knowledge and knowledge in information. Sometimes, reason can make us blind, like the poor Rabbit, like poor Joana and many others.

Anita Lawhorn Charged with Felony Child Abuse

August 4th 2014 a 12 year old boy walked into my family's life without a blink of an eye. Changing absolutely everything in everyone's lives. Until now, I have only casually mentioned the event due to my own pieces and also due to the protection of my family. 

Jamarion Lawhorn, aged 12, stabbed a 9 year old boy to death. Connor -last name withheld to not link my sister and the rest of her family to this site.. sorry I love you guys but they don't need any more press coverage.. esp not this kind). Connor was my nephew and had just barely turned 9 years old. The child came up behind him and stabbed him with a serrated kitchen knife. 

Over the past two months, my brain has been wracked with how such a young child could even do something like that. It's almost like when something that bad happens so close to you, your nativity kicks in again and you forget that some people are just super fucked.

Only a little time past before, of course, accusations of abuse were made against the parents. Today, as the released news proclaims, have the first little steps against them been taken. Jamarion is next.

However small the steps, we celebrate.

Sleeping and dreaming in this miserable darkness make up.
Certain for sure of empty congregational movements along the river bed.
Some still steal looks, pain is the reason for cowards beliefs.
Are you bold enough to be a coward like me?
None to guide my way in this hasty dusty tunnel to the underground.
Where I write my post it notes and farewells to those I've long since noticed have left.
Poetry is but the long hoped for excuse of wanting to be alone.
Cover my face with sunlight, burning greatness at the weakness in me.
Rattling bones as I close in on myself.
She was just the We in Because not needed.
I waited for Your sign in the night skies along the tree lines just like old times.
Times times and half a time, need not be does it matter ?

Dru

the far left is the most racist thing to exist in the modern age. This is Easy to explain. The left, in the entire short span of their history have promoted racism as an end to it's means. But this problem goes much farther than just divide and counquer. We also need to understand who is being divided, and who is being conquered. It's used differently in every scenario where it comes into play, because communism(all far left is communism) itself is a multi national movement and must be presented differently. Comunism operates on a philosophy called group think. Step one is identify a group that has less power/representation in the target nation. Step two, target these groups and tell them they are being oporessed and should fight back against whoever currently holds power in the target nation.
step 3 is the scariest:
Replace current government with a leftist government, and execute all the revolutionaries and rule with an iron fist. sounds like real freindly people.

In the US, current target of leftist propaganda is POC and women. 

The deep want to "put those naughty boys in their place" comes actually from primal motherhood instincts, and has much more little to do with how men treat women later in adulthood. That's why, a man can be kind and respectful to a woman, and still get constantly shit tested and bullied by a leftist woman. It's a primal urge for dominance and not cooperation, that's achieved through teaching them to view masculine men as dangerous threatening and stupid little boys.

The appeal to POC is much simpler and easier to understand. "see that whitey with all that money and power?!". After this remind the target about the rocky history of POC with whites ommiting every positive aspect of it. It takes a very smart and humble person to resist this. Building up a false sense of persecution with the media and constantly pushing racism is how you do this. Whites are made to look nerdy and backwards, and untrustworthy to POC in movies and TV. It's truly terrifying and racist to a degree I thought was impossible until I read it. I bet all the white girls dumping their boyfreinds right now are netflix customers all. The simple question is does right wing politics present a viable answer to this? the answer is a resounding NO.

The traditionalist right wing narrative applys to a more simple time. That's the short answer. It's not equipped to deal with, nor defeat the communist menace. So far the most they have done is made themselves look like racist idiots.

The answer lies in appealing to people's better nature. That, and selling the product of a clean, safe, fun, and sane way of life with few rules and more room to grow. The idea of personal freedom of thought and speech is always the best way to counter communist propaganda. The reader will likely go in search of answer and realize capitalism, and communism, are pure lunacy.

 

I encourage to do your own fear mongering. they do it, why not you? everyone that unsubscribes to the radical left and goes somewhere else is a victory. Tell them "look at scandinavia, they made good changes without all this thought policing!" because although worldwar 2 certainly helped their mental clarity these countries made these changes because of the horrors happening right next door in the soviet union. people were defecting and telling horror stories. It isn't all that hard to figure out.

It has long been tradition starting with ' High Priest ' LaVey and the ' Church ' of Satan to hang religious titles on everything they can. Words like Church, temple , synagogue , priest, reverend, pope etc should not be used to describe anything within Satanism. This not only is confusing and retarded but show an incredible lack on insight and imagination on the part of the people who carry these titles. Often these title are used to cover up ones lack of merit and accomplishments hiding behind a prefix hoping to command respect without giving you reason why. Ironically these titles used often in this manner are the same titles created by the institutions they claim to despise. Fuck all that .....

Hey everyone, I figured it be a good idea to check up on everyone. How you doing? How's the hold on everything treating you? Please tell me you did not hit up your ex. Found any new type of tasty snacks or meals?

 This took longer than I thought it would. 

There will be empires you never knew existed.

Here is a comprehensive list of ownership of lands between The Sinai Peninsula towards Egypt and The Tigres and Euphrates River Vallies over towards the Persian Gulf in the east with the desert in between. This makes Poland's history of occupation look like nothing.  And I even missed a few.  Very in depth considering how small of a geographical area it truly is.  For reference about the size of Texas, Oklahoma, Arkansas, and Louisiana. 

And begin in BCE. (25 years +/-)

Mesopotamia/River Valleys (East):

2900 - 2500 - Sumer
2500 - 2400 - Lagash
2400 - 2330 - Uma
2330 - 2150 - Akkad
2150 - 2000 - Ur (Sumer) 
2000 - 1890 - Old Assyria/Neo Sumer (split North/South)
1890 - 1780 - Small states/Babylon 
1780 - 1470 - Old Assyria/Babylonia
1470 - 1350 - Babylonia 
1350 - 1285 - Middle Assyria/Babylonia
1285 - 1205 - Middle Assyria 
1205 - 1190 - Babylonia
1190 - 1143 - Neo Assyria/ Elam
1143 - 1021 - Babylonia
1021 - 846 - Neo Assyria/ Babylonia 
846 - 819 - Neo Assyria 
819 - 808 - Neo Assyria/Babylonia
808 - 724 - Neo Assyria 
724 - 720 - Neo Assyria/Babylonia 
720 - 624 - Neo Assyria 
624 - 611 - Neo Assyria /Neo Babylonian  
611 - 539 - Neo Babylonian Empire
539 - 483 - Achaemenid Empire (Ancient Persia)
483 - Mesopotamian Revolt 
483 - 331 - Achaemenid Empire (Ancient Persia)
331 - 328 - Macedonia/Achaemenid Empire
328 - 324 - Macedonia
324 - 141 - Hellenistic Era (Ancient Greece) 
141 BCE  - 118 CE - Parthian 
118 - Rome 
118 - 225 - Parthian
225 - 634 - Sassanian Empire 
634 - 635 - Sassanian Empire/Rashidun Caliphate 
635 - 661 - Rashidun Caliphate 
661 - 748 - Umayyad Caliphate
748 - 1051 - Abbasid  Caliphate
1051 - 1118 - Seljuq Empire
1118 - 1261 - Abbasid  Caliphate
1261 - 1408 - Mongol Empire 
1405 - 1538 - Safavid Dynasty (Persia) 
1538 - 1621 - Ottoman Empire/Safavid Dynasty (Persia) (river valley split lenthwise)

1621 - 1639 - Safavid Dynasty (Persia)
1639 - 1721 - Ottoman Empire/Safavid Dynasty  (Persia)
1721 - 1749 - Ottoman Empire/Hotak Dynasty (Persia)
1749 - 1752 -  Ottoman Empire/Afsharid Dynasty (Persia)
1752 - 1785 -  Ottoman Empire/Afsharid Dynasty (Persia)/Kuwait
1785 - 1919 - Ottoman Empire/Qajar Dynasty (Persia)/Kuwait
1919 - 1926 -  Iraq (UK)/Qajar Dynasty (Persia) 

1926 - 1932 - Iraq (UK)/Iran (Formerly Persia)
1932 - 1941 - Iraq/Iran 
1941 - 1945 - Iraq (UK)/British Zone (UK) 
1945 - Present Iraq/Iran/Kuwait 

* Kuwait was a British protectorate during both world wars. 

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The Holy Land (West): 

*The western portion can fit between San Antonio and Dallas, TX. 

1900 - 1470 - Canaan (nomadic former Akkadians) 
1470 - 1210 - New Kingdom (Egypt) 
1210 - 1021 - Phoenicia/12 Tribes (12 subdivided regions, their myth is the OG manifest destiny)
1021 - 796 - Phoenicia/Israel
796 - 783 - Neo Assyria
783 - 769 - Phoenicia/Israel
769 - 733 - Judah/Phoenicia/Israel
733 - 724 - Judah/Neo Assyria 
724 - 720 - Judah/Israel/ Neo Assyria  
720 - 699 - Judah/Neo Assyria 
699 - 624 - Neo Assyria 
624 - 611 - Judah/Neo Assyria 
611 - 608 - Judah/Israel/ Neo Babylonian Empire 
608 - 539 - Neo Babylonian Empire 
539 - 331 - Achaemenid Empire 
331 - 324 - Macedonia
324 - 137 - Hellenistic Era* (Ancient Greece) 
137 - 51 - Judea (Herodian Kingdom) 
51 BCE - 268 CE - Roman Empire
268 - 274 - Palmyrene Empire 
274 - 396 - Roman Empire 
396 - 489 - East Roman Empire 
489 - 616 - Byzantine Empire 
616 - 626 - Sassanian Empire 
626 - 635 - Byzantine Empire  
635 - 661 - Rashidun Caliphate 
661 - 748 - Umayyad Caliphate
748 - 970 - Abbasid  Caliphate
970 - 1076 - Fatimid Caliphate
1076 - 1099 - Seljuq Empire
1099 - 1174 - Jerusalem/Tripoli (France) 
1174 - 1188 - Jerusalem (France)/Ayyubid Sultanate 
1188 - 1191 - Ayyubid Sultanate 
1191 - 1251 - Jerusalem/Tripoli (France)/Ayyubid Sultanate 
1251 - 1291 - Jerusalem/Tripoli (France)/Mamluk Sultanate 
1291 - 1516 - Mamluk Sultanate 
1516 - 1919 - Ottoman Empire 
1919 - 1921- Egypt (UK)/Syria (France) 

1921 - 1945 - Egypt (UK)/Syria (France)/Trans-Jordan
1945 - 1949 - Egypt (UK)/Syria/Trans-Jordan/Lebanon
1949 - 1988 - Lebanon/Syria/Jordan/Israel
1988 - Present - Lebanon/Syria/Jordan/Israel/Palestine

Notes*

Judaism

Around 600 BCE you have Monotheism taking off.  The Achaemenid Empire (Ancient Persia) defeated the neo-Babylonian, and most of their narrative was influential in the western portion  of this region and underscored many ideas of Judaism via the ancient Persian Zoroastrianism. And everything influenced each-other in this confined region of the world. Amalgamation being the word. Save the Torah (oldest scrolls dated right around 1200 BCE), and most apocryphal, much of the OT text was written between 500-150 BCE. 

One of the oldest documented "hebrew" text is actually from the reign of King David. 10th century BCE and predates the Zoroastrianism idea. Showing that concepts in Judaism actually date back to at least the "Twelve tribes of Israel" (1210 BCE), which actually existed as a way to divide up territory gained back from Egypt after being subjects of The Pharoh. Initially serperate groups that later decided to call themselves "Hebrew" and unite as "Israel" around a mythical covenant with a monotheistic god and like narrative of Egypt oppression. They were Canaanites that were  made subjects to Egypt for long enough to almost forget. With some developing a new myth in the occupied interim. The origin of chosen therein. 

  The "Exodus" is likely (IMO) a colorful historical account of when both polytheistic Phoenicia and The "Twelve Tribes of Israel" gained autonomy from The New Kingdom of Egypt, which  for a few centuries extended north into the area where Israel exists today. At the time of "Moses", who is very likely a literary device of when negative sentiment against Egypt was HIGH.  There is truth to "Israelites" gaining fredom from Egypt. No walking the desert needed. Humorously around 1200 BCE historical accounts in Mesopotamia recorded a pandemic resembling influenza.  Desert locusts swarms were also recorded... All at the right time. Though, they may have just been beneficiary of Phonician conquest, as both civilizations came to be at the same time, and in the same dense region .  

What can you say, they wrote their history books different-y

Christianity and Islam:

Not much until 300 CE and Constantine. Then hundreds of years later after The Caliphate of Islam kicked Christians to the curb, Crusaders, mostly European, took back and lost the "Holy Land" (western portion) several times. 

I have a theory all the meaningful events of the western world can be drawn back to The Sahara and Arabian deserts turning from grassland to arid desert. The adaptation of Homo sapiens brought about both Sumer and Egypt in and around 3 serarate river valley's at the end of the long slow drying process. 

It is also worth noting that  until about 8000 BCE you still had ice taking away much of the living space.  And while the reach of human population was global (and had been for thousands of years) it was so sparse there was no need for civilation, even confined around the equator or livable spaces. It was still all green.  

And that is it.  

6000 BCE the places people all live look like this. Easy to stay apart from one another in our Africa-centric origins. 

Sahara Desert: 

The Arabian Pennisula had even more water in a massive criss-crossed river system. 

There was plenty to keep the human population sparsely populated. 

Then the earth titled and the season changed, and you get the rest from there. 

They (inhabitants within the drying up area) would have followed the green until they reached rivers or oceans. That is exactly what is appears happened.  

From there you can follow archeological evidence (mainly tools and trinkets) around the entire region as civilizations rise and fall. Get subjugated and freed. Write one text, then another to supersede it. 

You can follow the conquering civizations and their monuments of achievement or texts of conquest and still retract all civilation back to the first ones starting 5500 years ago with the onset of the copper age. Of course brought to you buy necessary cooperation. 

At this point one may bring up Chinese civilation, which arose in the middle of the bronze age 2200 BCE.  

The reason is still environmental. Albeit more localized. It is my stolen argument the Xia Dynasty's start in the Yellow River had more to do with protecting farmland from flooding.  This actually centers around Yu the Great who is fabelled to have organized flood mitigation and subsequently pushed into a leadership role as the environmental crises destroyed their food supply. They essentially rallied around central figures to save the farms in and along The Yellow River.  Go from there. Gunpowder and all.

The points being civilation took adversity beyond human doing to form. Whether it being too much water or not enough. 

And that's the complete history or the World according to me. 

Nobody is fucking special and everyone is  working together not to die in the grand scheme of things. It is also beco.ing clear all advancement is in resposnse to indifferent adversity, usually environmental or sociopolitical. 

Could Transhumanism be considered a "Satanic" endeavour? This is a topic that I have been interested in for quite some time, and am interested in the varying perspectives that some fellow LHP folk have.

Some are all for it and recognize this evolutionary probability as more of an inevitability, whereas there are others who feel that Transhumanism is ultimately to discard one's humanity. Here is the original topic including a brief addition in answering a reply, which pulls together well as a single post.

Share your thoughts?

Transhumanismis defined as "the intellectual and cultural movement that affirms the possibility and desirability of fundamentally improving the human condition through applied reason, especially by using technology to eliminate aging and greatly enhance human intellectual, physical, and psychological capacities" - Nick Bostrum

I don't think that LaVey really had such an extreme in mind at all (outside of automaton servants etc.) when discussing Artifice and it's place in Pentagonal Revisionism. Nonetheless, the reality of a 'coming Singularity' is rapidly approaching tangibility.

And what is 'the Singularity'? Among other authors of the subject, Ray Kurzweil has released some work on it with books such as "The Age of Spiritual Machines"and of course, "The Singularity is Near".Kurzweil has broken the Singularity into a graph of 'Epochs' in order to illustrate the Techno-parallel between the evolution of we as a species and our tools.

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With the exponential growth and breakthroughs in medical technology (electronic brain interface computers and prosthesis), it's my belief that we are well on our way in the first steps. Without risking getting too far into Transhumanism, what it is and what it means, I'll get back to the question...Is it compatible with the Satanic endeavor?

My thoughts are that it most certainly is. But, not in it's more extreme forms...ie. fully automated bodies and downloaded consciousness.

If death is considered 'The Great Abstinence', then ideally, the Satanist would strive or at least utilize what ever may be available to extend life in order to enjoy life longer, and cultivate the age of information in order to evolve their consciousness.

The Danger in it all, lies in becoming more machine than man. Satanism is certainly an embrace of the carnal, of the delights of the flesh and joys of emotional being. When being human transcends to wiring and cold steel, I think we lose what makes us embrace our beast. Complete synthesis crosses the line for me...It's tough to know where the line is, when you ponder the idea of: 'How much of 'you' do you have to lose, before you're no longer you'?. Is an amputee any less human with an appendage gone?

In just how we are to drive into this coming Epoch, I responded to the suggestion that either War or Commerce were appropriate.

Whether war and commerce has been the catalyst for such evolutionary steps, or are actual necessities therein, required to further techno-evolutionary dynamics...The growth remains exponential and is projected to be as soon as 2050 to reach 'primitive' Singularity. >>

Kurzweil has charted Logarythmic Plot in order to display our technological advance relative to time frame. It's easy to see that advances continue to have less and less time between them, I don't see this reaching plateau any time soon...

Whether the advances are moved by war or commerce, they continue to drive forward. Were I to choose one of the two to determine what moves our species to evolve in this manner, it would certainly be commerce. Without a doubt. War has it's advances as well, but most are actually done in times of peace in preparation of war...It's more the idea of war than the actual instance.

I'd have to choose commerce as a greater driving force because the technological / biological singularity indeed would be owned by the corporate medical field. I guess in short to say, those who can afford it, will get it. The idea behind this separation of class, thus health and physical innovation is entirely an old plot to our as of yet open ended story...>>

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More of what is happening with technology is real than we have yet to imagine with advances for those who are blind,paralyzed, amputees etc.

I think rebellion has become an excellent precursor as well. All we have to do is consider things like Bush outlawing stem cell research (on religio-political grounds no less) to see that when he did that, those pursuing it simply moved to countries that will allow it, and were funded by the wealthy who hold vested interests in it (commerce again...damn).

As far as 'memory upgrades' for the human brain, it's already being said in neuro-scientific fields that it isn't a matter of 'if', but 'when'.

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Chips, coming to a Brain near you...

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Something else we are beginning to see which will relate to Transhumanism in later stages is 'voluntary Eugenics'. With organizations such as 'Planned Parenthood', soon Western culture will frown upon the five child family. When it gets to the point of a choice of one chance, one child, genetic manipulation and upgrades will soon become an option for the wealthy.>>

I honestly see these types of advances as inevitable rather than fictional. I'm not sure why it's no longer here (think they left), but a member had suggested that human evolution is charted through advances pertaining to either war or commerce. Also, some feel that this type of human advancement isn't possible either in our lifetime, or even at all...I invite you to explore the above links...

As I had implied in the first post however, there is a balance to be held here. I myself would be up for technological merger, but not to such an extreme that caused the loss of all beauty that is being human. I'm all for enhancement, but not outright physical transcendence. The need to discard your beast, is to abandon the Satanic essentials.

Pain and suffering are relative to joy and happiness. To not know one, is the inability to truly appreciate the other. For those who live in pain, these advancements would be a welcoming change I can imagine. A day where brain chemistry, receptors and even problematic physiology can all be altered with a simple 'program' and / or genetically modified 'body parts' per se. With the mapping of the genome, there will be a day when anything from down syndrome to hereditary disease will be passé, reflected upon as a time where we 'can't believe we lived (and even made it) like that'. >>

AH HA! AFTER A LONG ASS TIME I HAVE FINALLY BEEN ABLE TO AFFORD THIS DAMN SHIRT!!! What do you guys think?

Recently I saw the Satanic Church going to these protests. And it got me thinking, how many of us have gone to these? I am not gonna lie, I went to one here in Colorado. (It was in Downtown Colorado Springs.) At first it was pretty chill, until some dickwad threw a firework at the cops first. (I have the video) And then thats when everything went to shit.

So the question is this, have you gone? If not, why? If you have, why and what happened when you went?

I realized, some time ago, that I experienced the numinous, or for lack of a less cheesy term, the 'spiritual', in a very visual manner. Visual arts, such as painting, can really be a good way to experience something 'beyond' the day-to-day, the humdrum - to experience the magickal, the numinous. To me, there is something soulful and deep for example in the paintings of Richard Moult.

As for literature, it helps me experience the numinous through its visual evocations. Sylvia Plath was very a visual author and her poetry speaks to something deep in me through the images she uses. Similarly, when it comes to fiction, Lovecraft and Clark A. Smith really evoke atmospheric presence, numen, through their vivid visual descriptions. Writers who focus more on the 'emotional' effect of words, or on the mental constructs that words point to, don't evoke anything deep. What they evoke is emotional or intellectual - nothing of the soul. 

I felt like I was missing out on something when I realized that alot of musicians, Richard Moult included, experienced and sought to communicate a numinous something through their music. Listening to music was, and is, for me, a way of regulating my own emotions. I experienced it as deep emotionally, but not "spiritually" (the word spiritual is used for lack of a better one: I don't believe in a dichotomy between spirit and matter, though I do think we have a deeper being; a soul). 

It was only more recently, after watching a documentary (Until the Light Takes Us, Audrey Ewell, 2008) on black metal, and discussing Varg Vikernes's interviews from the film with others, that I realized the deep, non-Semitic, non-Christian soul was to be (or at least, could be) found in black metal. I started exploring the genre. Emphasis on the 'pagan' (for lack of a better word), on European heritage, spoke to my soul. It's when I started listening to BM that I began experiencing my deep soul through music, you could say. Other forms of music, Hindu or Buddhist chants, Gregorian Chant, or Sufi music, all evoke something, but it does not feel quite of the European Soul in the same way. Ambient music, such as Christos Beest/Richard Moult's compositions also evoke something. Christos Beest wrote the ONA text Diabolus in Musica, where he argues that music such as Gregorian Chant can become Satanic if one alters the lyrics. What the music evokes, numinously, is what matters - regardless of the intent of the composers. 

But again, Gregorian Chant, even when the lyrics are altered, such as in the Diabolus chant (of the ONA) (which is the Dies Irae with some words replaced with others and often sung at a slower tempo), does not evoke quite the European Soul, which I feel some forms of black metal channel much more properly. Burzum, Goatmoon, Satanic Warmaster, Bathory, Absurd, Svar, Dunkelheit (I mean here the Polish one-man band, not the song), Moonblood, Vlad Tepes, Graveland - I could go on. What is important is that BM often evokes a sense of battle, or war, and its meaningfulness, through the emotions conveyed. It's not a style of music for contemplating your navel - which is, in my view, the least numinous thing you can do. It's about finding meaning through war as well as in Mother Nature. 

I'd have to listen to more Sufi/Dervish music, to get a better feel for what it evokes, but it feels deeper than Gregorian Chant (though obviously quite different from BM). Sanskrit mantras and chants, such as those sung by Gaeia Sanskrit (check out her Youtube Channel) and some of Zeena Shreck's Buddhist Milarepa Mantra (available on Zeena's YouTube channel) evoke something for me, more so than Gregorian Chant. 

I couldn't finish this without a word on Neo-folk. I had gotten into bands like Current 93, Blood Axis, Fire and Ice, Death in June, Radio Werewolf etc, just before I did black metal, and their music too, really digs deep into the soul. 

My ears (and soul) bleed when I walk into a mall and hear contemporary rnb or pop music. I just can't anymore (not that I was ever really into those things, but it has gotten harder to tolerate meaningless slop, rappers and pop stars talking about heartbreak and social interactions..)

I couldn't write up a clear-cut hierarchy of which musical forms and styles most evoke the numinous for me, except that black metal would be on top of it. 

Thank you for reading. 

JW

:) Blogs are back.

My time in New York City is coming to an end. In a week I'll be Upstate and by the winter I plan being somewhere down by the Southwest if I don't end up with my friend in Europe. So much has happened these past two years I'm still wrapping my head around it, even as I write it all down in my journal. 

When I go Upstate, first thing I plan on doing is getting my guitar and pedals and amp and locking myself in the attic. Afterwards I plan on taking a canoe down the old river, probably will be that way for a whole week, a whole month. Trips plenty.

The big apple is lonesome, but not the good kind. I am one who is always fine alone. But in the big city, being surrounded by the machine, being stared at with those dumb grins and the bewildered eyes, I am resorted to keeping my head down when I go out, even just to have a cigarette. 

The lockdown is only going to make it worse, no major city is exempt from what is to come. The people want more time in their life at the expense of their ability to enjoy it in its fruits and discontents. Every time a person goes to ring the doorbell on the entrance, I look at this stranger with an immense anger like I've never felt before. Time and circumstance aways knows how to push me, now it's time to see where I'll land!

-CS

This is me:

And this is also me:

As seen by my patients. 

One of them, having an artistic soul, decided to draw my portrait.

My colleague was laughing, saying "Oh you look so like yourself here! It's so similar!" She stopped laughing when she saw her "portrait." She didn't keep it as a souvenir.

I felt like writing this up a bit, since writing has always been a catharsis of mine when it come's to dealing with people that I may have huge disagreements with, both politically and religiously. 

Similar to Zach Black's "Might is Right" Satanism explained video, this essay will sorta cover something similar both from a Setian/Satanic standpoint on the individual and his involvement with the Universe. 

It's interesting that I come across those who are Right Hand Path (including those who claim that they are completely in disfavor of a Conventional institution but are still indoctrinated by it), that believes in their subjective theory of getting rid of that form of individual selfishness by dissolving themselves in the physical universe by any means necessary, either from a collectivistic political/religious white light way of directing action within their own selves. The standpoint of the Left Hand Path has always been about embracing the ego/one's own god self (that doesn't mean justifying it by becoming a total asshole). If we look at the act of selfishness in an individual, it is part of this individuals nature to focus on himself above all others, doing his own thing first, while others come second. From the Setian viewpoint the Individual is a separate entity from the physical universe while in it. The Setian or Satanist realizing this, accepts reality the way it is, hence our acts of selfishness of the individual coming first, is cherished. 

If we look at a practitioner of the Right Hand Path or someone who uses collectivistic politics as their religious replacement, their view of selfishness is based almost on the Christian standpoint of Sin. They will attempt to destroy the ego by seeking that union with god or the herd. But in all actuality their theories of destroying the ego within their individual selves' fails. Often time's those who are involved in Collectivistic political/Conventional religious means, put on their good guy badges to make themselves feel good by helping others as a whole. Even though they would take offense of wiping off their good guy badge's, it shows that selfishness cannot be destroyed. It can be repressed in a cell, but it cannot be destroyed. This also similarly applies to having empathy to every human being on this planet. It is impossible to love everyone or even make the excuse of caring about "part of humanity" when in all actuality you don't. Their is no problem on loving those closest to you, that deserve it. But this way of hippie thinking on "caring about humanity as a whole," has also its contradictions similarly on attempting to destroy the individual ego.

This shows that the right hand path system and also collectivist politics fails in certain ways, collectivistic politics can work with the herd, but its ideological beliefs are proven to be contradictory from a Left Hand Path standpoint. If you on the Left Hand Path carry the notion of embracing this "having an empathy as a whole" fluff, or still looking down upon the ego, then you need some thinking to do. 

30 hits of ACID/LSD is the most viewed video on ACID or LSD on the internet. With 7.3 million video views and averaging about 5k views a day its gonna stay that way for some time. A major pod cast ( or popular one ) mentioned the video ( my video ) a couple weeks ago with talk about also having me on as a guest ... which would be cool since I got bumped from JRE ( Joe Rogan ) back in 2020.

Since this pod cast mentioned the video I am starting to get called out on the streets again which hasnt happened since the last time the video went viral in 2018. Thankfully I am not to old to recognize yet. 


 

For a second, imagine being a UPS driver having just pulled up to house hearing an engine of a plane winding up and getting louder winding up. That's a hell of a way to go.  

Synopses: A pilot became disoriented on a simple landing procedure in "unlimited" visibility and went down in a San Diego suburb killing a UPS driver. 

Anyone that cares have a theory? He seemed like he was getting "having a stroke" confused. Can't rule out control problems and a missed emergency landing attempt.  If not that it was suicide, like the one from Malaysia. 

 

And here's how it ended: 

HAIL MAMMON!

 

Leviathan and Mammon are inextricably linked. Leviathan is the macrocosm to Mammon’s microcosm. Leviathan is man writ large, the species as a whole, swarming the earth like technological locusts, whereas Mammon is man writ small, the individual talking ape, exploiting Leviathan at every turn. I am Mammon; you too are Mammon if you live by the truth of money and greed; but only all of us together are Leviathan.

 

As Leviathan grows by human reproduction and in certain areas by immigration, Mammon (by which I mean anyone who lives by the truth of money and greed) exploits the megatrends of population increase. As Leviathan grows by the colonization of physical territory, Mammon exploits the business opportunities to be found in the need for new infrastructure, new venues for consumption, and new warehouses and other hubs of operation. As Leviathan grows by the proliferation and refinement of broadband communications and processing power, Mammon exploits the geometrically increasing ubiquity and universality of the internet. As Leviathan grows by the emergence of whole new kinds of markets, Mammon exploits the initial absence of competitors for the exact new product or service it sees a niche for, and gets to market first.

 

Exploit – exploit – exploit – EXPLOIT! This is Mammon, along with such insights as, “Money is the name of the game,” and, “In Greed We Trust.” Money and greed rule politics, rule war, rule diplomacy, rule science, rule the arts, rule scholarship, rule journalism – Money and greed rule every aspect of our lives – so the only sensible thing to do is to grab hold of the levers of money and greed and pull them in ways that benefit the self. That sensible attitude, and you and I who live by it, are Mammon. The more of us there are, the faster and more relentlessly Leviathan will grow. Money and greed will bring more immigrants to our shores, and population will increase – and Leviathan will grow. Money and greed will increase the demand for real estate, and new territory will be colonized – and Leviathan will grow. Money and greed will increase the demand for online products and services, and the broadband network will increase in scope and power – and Leviathan will grow. Money and greed will create the demand for categories of products and services we don’t even have names for yet, and the forces of supply will inevitably respond – and Leviathan will grow.

 

Never has there been a more perfectly matched pair of lovers than Leviathan and Mammon, though one is a titan, and the other just a sharp-and-strong-minded little ape.

 

This is the last of my fourth wave of postings. I have fully expressed my philosophy as of August 17, 2021. HAIL MAMMON! ISCHYROS DIAVOLOS!

THE THIRTEEN STUPIDITIES

 

-          Compulsion.

There’s a point where daring becomes stupidity. If you’re injecting yourself with heroin because you have to try everything once – Stop.

 

-          Betting the farm.

There’s a point where hope becomes stupidity. If you’re gambling more than you can afford to lose – Stop.

 

-          Pipedreams.

There’s a point where ambition becomes stupidity. If you’re enrolling in law school and you suck at academics – Stop.

 

-          Desperation.

There’s a point where tenacity becomes stupidity. If you’re preparing to throw your life away because you don’t see quitting as an option – Stop.

 

-          Doggedness.

There’s a point where persistence becomes stupidity. If you’re banging your head against a wall and your head is bruised and bloody and the wall is unaffected – Stop.

 

-          Pigheadedness.

There’s a point where conviction becomes stupidity. If you’re clinging to your belief that all is well when you can see the tornado bearing down on you – Stop.

 

-          Mulishness.

There’s a point where sticking to your guns becomes stupidity. If you’re hurting yourself in the long run because you can’t bear to change your ways – Stop.

 

-          Bullheadedness.

There’s a point where integrity becomes stupidity. If you’re holding up progress because you won’t break an outdated or pointless rule – Stop.

 

-          Chicken-heartedness.

There’s a point where prudence becomes stupidity. If you’re allowing something bad to get worse because you can’t face up to the obvious solution – Stop.

 

-          Martyrdom.

There’s a point where sincerity becomes stupidity. If you’re sacrificing your life, liberty or happiness for the sake of some pie in the sky ideal – Stop.

 

-          Compunction.

There’s a point where conscience becomes stupidity. If you’re sacrificing your life, liberty or happiness as an act of penance to assuage your guilty feelings – Stop.

 

-          Asceticism.

There’s a point where self-discipline becomes stupidity. If you’re walking a path that will never let you know joy, have fun, or feel excitement – Stop.

 

-          Ejaculation.

There’s a point where honesty becomes stupidity. If you’re about to trash a cherished relationship or huge opportunity because you can’t bear to keep a secret or keep your opinions to yourself – Stop.

 

ISCHYROS DIAVOLOS!

THE THIRTEEN SELF-DECEPTIONS

 

“Everything will be fine in the end.”

 

“Anything is possible.”

 

“That would never happen.”

 

“We’ve got all the time in the world.”

 

“Love conquers all.”

 

“Love is all you need.”

 

“I can handle anything.”

 

“I can be anything I want to be.”

 

“I can stop whenever I want.”

 

“I would never do that.”

 

“I don’t have a choice.”

 

“I can’t help it.”

 

“I have a good feeling about this.”

ISCHYROS DIAVOLOS!

SATANIC AESTHETICS AND MAGIC

 

Once upon a time, there were favored Modernist assumptions about authorship and originality and authenticity, but then the story goes that in the late 1960, and extending through the 1970s and well into the 1980s, those precious beliefs, which really were at the philosophical and aesthetic core of Modernity, were held up to critical scrutiny and were slowly undermined. There was no more originality and the author’s biography and intentions were no longer really relevant. The days of the great original author were apparently over. It was the reading and re-reading and re-reading of discourse which was important. It was the deconstruction of the text, which was important, and the bringing out of the perspectives of the excluded Other.

 

There are a lot of people who have created careers and found a place in the canon, based on their work in the critique of these Modernist notions – Michel Foucault is one academic who is situated in this whole movement and his essay ‘What is an Author’ is just one example of a piece of writing which engages some of the issues; Roland Barthes is another and his essay The Death of the Author’ was regarded as important in art and literary circles. There are a lot of people with a stake in this. The power of this criticism runs so deep and it challenges almost everything people believe about human beings, society, history and art practice.

 

All of these issues and people were important when I went to college so many damned years ago. I think the times change though and every critique is transformed or refocuses. To be an author and to be original is still a tricky business nowadays, even though the cultural and intellectual vanguard has to some extent changed its focus.

 

But what does all this shit have to do with Satanism and Satanic magic? To unpack this, I might start out from Anton LaVey. I tend to move out from LaVey often. LaVey has been quoted as stating words to the effect that “aesthetics is everything.” That’s a big claim – “aesthetics is everything.”

 

I make this claim: Anton LaVey was a Modernist. That claim makes some sense when you consider the time he grew up in i.e., the heyday of American Modernity and American Modernism. And further when you consider how he built his Satanic aesthetic out of German Expressionist film, film noir, Lovecraft, Weird Tales magazine, art deco and I’m sure many other Modernist elements as well.

 

But further: I think LaVey’s position is a Modernist one because he, like all genuine Modernists, believes in the fundamental/central place of the individual author as the producer of his or her own unique and original vision. LaVey may rely on the work of William Mortensen and Mortensen’s ‘Command to Look’ to provide him with the objective formal principles around the creation of his aesthetic acts, such as rituals, lesser magical spectacles, glamour, and art, etc., but LaVey is still very much the author and what he does is very much his. He is at the centre.

 

Okay, just to focus this:  I think it is true that a Satanist seeks to impose and magnify their will.

 

There are different ways of doing that - of imposing and magnifying the will. You can move people around, as if they were pawns on your chessboard, if you are skilled enough. You can make certain choices and then act accordingly and that acting may impose and magnify your will. You can engage in antinomian praxis and so on…

 

Satanic aesthetics, in my view, is fairly straightforward – it is the imposition and magnification of the will aesthetically. To impose and magnify the will, from my vantage point, is productive, it is creative; it is a form of organizing to some extent, it is Godgame. To impose and magnify the will aesthetically is to create a context within which states of affairs, which I can more or less control, play out. It is the stage within which my theatre takes place according to my direction.

 

I think as a Satanist: I necessarily have to see the world in a different way, but further, I have to extend my aesthetic preferences or choices across as much of my environment as possible and then beyond that. My aesthetics is my environment. I have to extend as far as possible and I physically alter the environment as I extend. Possibly one could think about architect Howard Roarke from ‘The Fountainhead’ as an example of someone who is literally extending his will across physical space. There are so many other examples out there.    

 

SATANIC MAGIC

 

I don’t necessarily want to go into detail about my belief in the metaphysical character of the conventional Satanic aesthetic and the elements which underpin it. I did, however, want to highlight some magical practice which underlines some of my views. LaVey is relevant again I think. I want to consider a couple of ritual chambers to help illustrate my point. I also want to draw on LaVey’s “Emerald Tablet” his ‘Pentagonal Revisionism’ as well.

 

What are total environments and artificial human companions really about?

 

The Den of Iniquity is obviously a ritual chamber, just as the art deco ambience of Dr. Anton Phibes’ music room, where he plays his organ and dances with Vulnavia, to the sounds of his automated wind up band, is a ritual chamber.

 

Those ritual chambers contain, in a discrete enclosed space, the objective aesthetic context, which the magician would see extended throughout space, well beyond the boundaries of a ritual chamber. Ritualistically projecting or ritualistically pushing that environment outwards, beyond the confines of a ritual chamber, is a part of the way the magic is supposed to work in those types of ritual chambers.

 

But moreover, the artificial companions which occupy those “art installations” are characters or actors or models or templates for the way the magician views others in this environment he or she is trying to push out. This is my aesthetic and this is how and where I see you. This is my theatre and this is the role you will play. They are tools; they are pawns. They have a certain function. Again the magician is seeking to place people in their environment and give them certain roles. You place them on your chessboard and give them certain ways of moving and certain amounts of power in relation to everyone else. Does this sort of magic actually work? Who knows? It is thoroughly ego driven. It is totally self-centered and completely Modernist.

 

I just wanted to finish this rather long post by stating that, in my view, Anton LaVey was beginning to play with time and seek a form of immortality to some extent, in his later years, when he was more reclusive and less likely to give interviews, etc.

 

The Den really is a sort of time machine, as the whole aesthetic environment of the chamber, is reminiscent of LaVey’s youth and a sort of film noir bar scene from the past, peopled by all those artificial companions, which you could say are appropriate to that aesthetic space and LaVey’s own conception. He steps in there and plays his music and he is back there in that time and everybody in there is “alive.” Unfortunately, however, you can step into the illusion of the past, play the keyboards and create a magic associated with that past, but no one human being can hold back the tides of time forever. Nobody can undermine or call a halt to Becoming, though it may be fun to try for a while…

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-Pima8T45o

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSOzdFoZsho

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hu-CK47NM8E

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQdDJMxkRxA

 

Violence

“Sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me”.

I suppose whoever penned this children’s saying had neither the foresight to see the utter crippling of Western society through the moral syphilis which is liberalism, where “offensive” words are now categorized in the same manner as violence, or had never been subjected to a physical attack and suffered genuine violence.

From a very young age, probably due to growing up in a strong household and being the witness to the power of violence. I have always been both fascinated by it and attracted to it. Not just for the visual power of it but its ability for control and even subvert the course of events and individuals.

At the pivotal age of 12, after joining a new school I was the victim (that word in itself makes me feel awkward, but it seems the most congruent to the situation) of many physical attacks from one specific individual. This taught me my first lesson of violence - the absolute power which can be levied by the use of it to dominate the spirit of the loser. There seems to be a metaphysical barrier around us all that once penetrated by an aggressor, gives rise to spasms of vulnerability which in turn, change us. Less than 6 months later I started boxing. Within a year I was competing in both regional and national competitions and was starting to develop an air of someone who was not only capable of defending themselves, but who was regularly dominating opponents in the ring . At 13, I moved to a new school due to the natural ebb and flow of educational progression and was seen by another individual as a target for his abuse.

It was common knowledge that I was essentially a competitive fighter at this point and this individual may have wanted to secure a win over me for his own reputation or to bolster his ego. One day I was walking through the school halls when he decided to attack me, his method of choice was to side kick me as hard as he possibly could. A small crowd had gathered and was waiting for a reprisal. I laughed at him, and then commented “is that it? ”, he did nothing else and walked off. By not engaging in a physical altercation with him the message which I sent to him and those watching was that he was so beneath me I did see him as an opponent. By laughing I had relegated him to somebody worthy of social denigration. From that exact day he never attempted to intimidate me again, and socially became somewhat of a local gangster, which also extended my own social currency.

I learned a valuable second lesson, when to withhold violence and choosing an opponent in a logical, long-sighted manner.

“All political power grows out of the barrel of a gun” – Mao

As we all have seen with the rise of leftist groups such as ANTIFA (which in turn arose from a little studied leftist field of thought called deconstructionism), violence can be a valuable resource when fostered into a small, tightly-knit core. Especially when it is used to control or dictate a narrative. Being seen as capable of inflicting violence in not only offensive, but in defensive situations is absolutely essential in today’s world against both those who wish to enslave us to political ideologies but also new social norms. Power only respects power. If you present yourself as someone who “just wants to get along” or someone who fears confrontation, the world and it’s mother will spare no expense in wringing everything it wants from you.

The final point I wanted to make was that during the rise of the “bolshevik” (quoted as it wasn’t homegrown) revolution many Russians who were genuine patriots were absolutely against communist and/or anti-Tsarist notions, but one of the leaders of that revolution, Leon Trotsky (real name Bronstein), decided that there was a necessity to instill terror in those who oppose the new regime. “Shoot 1000 to intimidate a million” was not only an interesting off-handed comment but comprised his strategy with dealing with dissidents. As such, we can see that in any social situation, whether prison, or a workplace, being perceived as someone who can inflict pain or suffering of any manner on a person at a moment’s notice is worth its weight in gold. Not only will it give you more leniency when errors are made, but it will subdue maneuvers intended to sabotage you in either a social or political way and act as a gravitational field, bringing those into your environment who can genuinely provide value.

(A side note: being violent towards those who are weaker than you is not only dishonorable, but when it concerns animals or those who cannot defend themselves-absolute cowardice and should be punished with the most intense brutality.)

-Fluffy Bunny

While I'm not in the business of mincing my beliefs down into microscopic classifications for the sake of labeling myself, I do still read into the existing subsets of Satanism to better understand where my beliefs and practices fit into the grand scheme of things. I'm not searching for a single hook on which to hang my hat, but instead I'm examining all schools of Satanic thought to see what similarities they share with my own beliefs. I'll collect those parallel aspects in the entry below, and update it as necessary. -K45

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Esoteric Satanism

"When we refer to ourselves as esoteric Satanists, what we are saying is that the kind of Satanism we practice differs substantially in style and content from not just the major Western religions like Christianity, but from ‘orthodox’ Satanism as well. Most Satanists are strictly rationalist. The Satanic Temple’s humanist Satanism, for instance, rejects anything that could be considered “superstitious”, this includes divinatory (or ‘fortune-telling’) practices like tarot, astrology, palm-reading, scrying, or pendulum-reading, as well as any sort of magickal practice whatsoever. Furthermore, they also reject any interpretation of Satan that isn’t strictly rhetorical, including not just a traditionally theistic Satan, but also any metaphysical Satan such as Satan-as-Void, Satan-as-Dao, or Satan-as-Spiritual-Self. As esotericists, most of us practice some kind of divination and almost all of us practice magick. I would argue that in this way esoteric Satanism is necessarily non-rational. 

Most esoteric Satanists do not have a strictly rhetorical understanding of Satan. We believe that Satan is ‘out there’ in reality.We are substantially different from theistic Satanists in that we do not believe that Satan is a deity, like a bat flying around in the ether. Rather, in most (but not all) cases, Satan is a metaphysical principle equated more closely with darkness, void, magick, or something that mediates between being and nothingness. However the individual esotericist or coven of esotericists decides to cash this out, it will not involve conceptualizing Satan as a literal entity even if we concede that Satan does in fact exist on some level." 

-Evyn Aytch, Satanhaus

The Number Twelve. Twelve in the nest. Twelve in the hopper. Twelve in the bar with all their plastic devotion.  From the backfield "The Third", as is his marked digit, runs around like a decapitated chicken and somehow gains territory, and then all the bright colored gulls rejoice. These are the "cool" birds to flock with.  

Don't they know the only birds that matter wear red? Not black, not dark green, nor purple, or that obnoxious lime green. That's just point of fact. 

Still they'll be squawking from their nests. Oh how the squawking doth continue, even If the nest is empty. 

But what do they know? Nothing. They are seachickens, after all. 

I don't know if it's because I'm navigating this website on a cell phone instead of a computer, but I can't seem to get the chat boxes to center on my screen; thus, I cannot send personal chat responses. Can anyone help me with this dilemma?

Emergence of the first reflected in the sixth, the beauty that is securely fixed, in that which follows...

Green goddess of beauty whose number is seven, and whose title is Victory.

- glittering splendor

So the term 'nothing' does not currently resolve to an absence of everything scenario, instead it refers an alternate, prior, and cyclic reality that transcends the conventional space/time continuum indefinitely.

A somewhat practical definition for this primordial nothingness would be that of an unquantifiable zero volume existence. A precursor to the four dimensional space/time medium; further isolating the primordial consciousness by stripping away its illusive properties.

While this is not absolute nothingness. It is a quantitative reduction that approaches it so as to isolate the true and core fundamentals of the eternal algorithm, rhythm...

I'm gonna do this as a sort of test for some of the older blog segments that didn't seem to be quite up to snuff for the main board. Apparently I am an evolving critic of my own work. So maybe I can find a place for some of these earlier passages.

My favorite pictures of Anton LaVey are the ones with Jayne Mansfield.

They say Jayne was in the Black House for publicity, I believe her Satanism was legitimate. She would have turned 88 this year and I rubbed my clit to her naked gifs recently. I imagine what her ghost would tell me.

The best picture is both of them with LaVey holding a Chihuahua. Long story short, a Chihuahua showed up on my doorstep when I was 18, more than 10 years later he told me never to settle for anyone who loves me less than he did. Now in my mind’s eye he flies above me as a dragon, changing dramatically in size at will. When I worked at UPS he slept on top of the warehouse and his breath fogged up the skylight. He lands behind me heavy when somebody approaches me trying to waste my preciousss time. He was most definitely part of my entourage when I appeared before the The Throne.

Occasionally vultures circle round with my dragon. That tells me there’s something in my life that needs to die. They are comforting when I am in pain, they remind me the pain too will die and they will be there to consume all the flesh of it that remains. I found myself tied to a black hole of a person with what looked like intestines and they ate away at it for weeks until I was free and leveled up.

Do you ever worry that you died many times before and keep waking up in parallel universe type times and places? I started to feel unsure about being in my original reality after a seizure on air duster at an after party on Hale Street. Sometimes I feel that each of the million times I woke up from a black out or date rape I actually died. My only concern is what happened to my mother in all the other dimensions.

There’s a gang called Satan’s Disciples, the black and yellow baby devils. I was in SD’s motherland on 18th and Oakley the last time I was date raped. When I woke up HO was tattooed inside my pussy. Maybe I died there at the birthplace of Satan’s Disciples. Maybe I was mutated beyond belief and my mom in that other life is living out her days thinking I suffered.

I did a past life regression meditation on YouTube. The voice told me to relax and relax deeper and relax deeper and relax deeper until finally it told me to go back and asked me if I was a man or a woman. My brain said I was a man. The voice asked me what language I spoke. My brain said Farsi. I didn’t know Farsi was a language but they speak it in Iran. My brain responding to the voice told me I was 35. I killed my wife.

It makes sense that I’ve had to endure so much in this life because I killed my wife in another.

I’ve done other past life regressions that were wonderful. Billy and me floating high in a hot air balloon with a clear basket over the City of Atlantis. We were famous and we were in love.

But back to LaVey and his Chihuahua pictures. Even among dog lovers Chihuahuas are misunderstood and looked down on. They’re extremely sensitive to vibrations with their tiny bodies and giant bat ears. I used to joke that mine was my spirit guide but now he actually is one of them alternating as my baby puppy and my steadfast dragon among ancestors and deities and aliens and other thangs. Anton LaVey was born about a mile and a half from my house and Anton LaVey holding the world’s smallest dog breed from Mexico is my Anton LaVey.

In Satan's name, I walked my dog

down the sidewalk, and through the fog.

In Satan's name, I ate my lunch

only two hours, after brunch.

In Satan's name, I took a bath

to cleanse myself, on the Left Hand Path.

So these are some of my views and opinions on the state of the Church of Satan today, and the original writings of LaVey and why i don't particularly follow LaVeyanism anymore.

Firstly, i think we can safely say, that the Church of Satan is no longer a Relevant force in Satanism today. Since LaVey founded the CoS, and since his death; many different Philosophies have spawned from LaVey's form of Satanism. The CoS as an entity doesn't accept these facts, claiming to be the only "Real" satanists, calling other forms Pseudo or Pretend, disregarding the integrity of other thoughts. In my opinion this is destructive, and i believe that Satanism is a Concept to which  you need to build upon to evolve. So my opinion is that i believe the Satanic Bible and most of LaVey's writings are Outdated.

The Nine Satanic Statements i believe are a list of tenets of LaVeyanist Satanism that don't hold significance in today's society. Some i agree with, most i don't. As follows:

1. Satan represents indulgence, instead of abstinence! "I agree with this, because it's a core mode of Individual freedom of will."
2. Satan represents vital existence, instead of spiritual pipe dreams! "Not encouraging Spiritual freedom is basically saying "No, you can't have that thought, because its not "Satanic" of you. Completely contradicting Individualistic independence on the LHP."
3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom, instead of hypocritical self-deceit! "Agree."
4. Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it, instead of love wasted on ingrates! "I agree to an extent with this, however not fully. I believe in being Kind and respectful to all people, regardless of their views. If they wish to waste their time being ingrates, that's their own will. Only people who express Racist, bigoted views shouldn't be given the respect and kindness."
5. Satan represents vengeance, instead of turning the other cheek! "This is a loaded statement. What LaVey meant by Vengeance, i wouldn't begin to have a clue. Personal space, and defending oneself from Assault, yes is important. However with this much of a Loaded statement, i can't agree with it."
6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible, instead of concern for psychic vampires! "It's important to be responsible, because you'll never get no where in life if you don't take responsibility seriously. The Psychic Vampire schtick, again needs to be explained. Maybe i don't fully understand the whole Psychic Vampire thing, or what. So i'm rather Neutral to this statement."
7. Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his "divine spiritual and intellectual development," has become the most vicious animal of all! "Humanity is spawned by Nature. So i agree with this."
8. Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification! "Agree."
9. Satan has been the best friend the church has ever had, as he has kept it in business all these years! "Eh, true and false. The herd conformity of Religionists has kept the Church in business. That and coupled with the fact that most Mainstream religious institutions are Tax Exempt, so the priests and preachers amass fortunes from building actual Pipe Dreams into the minds of the flock that follows close behind."

One of the best interviews I have done in years. It is 50 minutes long all off the cuff in one take. Tops range form Satanism, Music, art Magic the occult and a lot more. There is a good amount of extra clips from other Satanists and other news clips about other organizations. Its close to a interview / semi documentary with all the extra clips. Well worth the watch from a historical and sociological reflection of the last 20 years of Satanism and Satanic influences in the media. This is taken from Mouthing off a UK based magazine who feature underground and counterculture artists.
https://mouthingoffmagazine.com/

This is my first post here, and I joined about a month and a half ago. I've been dealing with a lot of personal shit (ie: anxiety, ex-girlfriend, work, etc.) and I've been slowly coming back into a decent head space.
I don't think I follow any one specific form of Satanism, but I know I take aspects of LaVeyan, Luciferian, and the 7 Tenets of TST, and apply it to my own form, per se. I am sort of a lone wolf. 

I came here to meet new people, and to learn the different points of view and possibly adopt some for myself, all-the-while making new friends (which is definitely something I need right now).

Thank you for allowing me to enter a safe place to be myself and be free of judgment.